Impressions
At school Syusuke is called distant. Yuuta doesn't have the slightest clue why; for Syusuke is nothing but warm and familiar to him. Girls and boys alike call him heartless but say they are willing to take that chance. Yuuta thinks, if Syusuke is so heartless then I'll just have to give him my heart. Everyone agrees he's a tensai: at school, at sports, at life. This is nothing new. Yuuta has made the study of Syusuke into an art form. Syusuke's good at tennis and Yuuta is good at analyzing Syusuke. When people enter his room, they eye the sticky notes with curiosity (but not nearly as much when they enter Syusuke's room and discover his obsession for cacti). Yuuta doesn't blame them; it's not their fault they can't understand the absolute truth of Yuuta's life; that there is nothing else for him.
Syusuke is the Tezuka Zone into which Yuuta can only be drawn.
First
Yuuta doesn't remember, but is often told, that his first word was bro-ver. Syusuke was there when Yuuta opened his eyes for the first time. When their eyes met, Yuuta smiled his first smile. That's Syusuke's eyes were open at all… Enough said. Syusuke's never told anyone but Yuuta that he felt something twist pleasantly in his chest when he met those orbs of glittering hazel. One glance was all it took.
A bond was made. Of unwavering loyalty. Of endless love.
Future
Syusuke sits there, impassive as his future is being debated.
Yuuta can't stand it. Why doesn't Syusuke do something? Anything. Why doesn't he take control of his life? Yuuta wants to cry. Wants to shake Syusuke but doesn't dare; Syusuke doesn't like to be touched. He doesn't want Syusuke going to Seigaku. Doesn't want him going anywhere, period.
But Syusuke says nothing. Yuuta wonders, does he want to go? He looks at Syusuke's face. It is closed off, his eyes are distant. Apparently, he's not even in the room. He's in that place.
Alone
Syusuke gets this look sometimes and Yuuta has long stopped trying to talk to Syusuke when he's like this. He knows that nothing he says or do will get through to him. If it was a lesser person, Yuuta would call it zoning out. But he's not and it's not, but rather something else entirely. Syusuke is in another world. Yuuta wonders if Syusuke ever gets lonely there. (He adamantly refuses to believe Syusuke would bring someone else with him to a place Yuuta's never been himself.)
Yuuta presumes Syusuke goes to this place when he wants peace. (Because it's Syusuke, Yuuta is betting anything it's a tennis court) A place where Syusuke can get away from everything for a while. But not Yuuta, never Yuuta.
Busy
Syusuke is busy now and rarely has time of Yuuta anymore. Yuuta knows Syusuke, being three years older, has more homework; needs to prepare for exams and has other commitments like the tennis club. He doesn't have time to entertain his little brother. Still, Yuuta really wishes, during the increasingly rare moments they have together, that Syusuke would pay attention to him. At the very least, he wants Syusuke to take him along to that place no one else has ever been before. (The tennis court probably has cacti all around it).