Soul Poison ~~~ by Velasa
NOTE- This poem isn't new for me- I wrote it exactly a year ago, after reading Cremrock's "Tainted Soul" for the first time. That story holds one of the greatest powers I've ever felt in a fanfic, and the words to this just sort of flowed from my fingers into the pages of my most secret journal, the one I have that the eyes of another will never see, my deepest thoughts and emotions. For the first time, I'm pulling something out of it- probably the last time as well. As that was it's inspiration, this poem is set in Piccolo's mind during that most frightening of stories, when he's fading further and further away. Ciao
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There's a poison
A killer
Living within my very spirit
The thing which once controlled me
Now, I say that I speak my own words, fight my own battles
That the darkness is no longer my master
But I was wrong
The poison has come
From the ashes of the bridges I have burnt within my heart
And now it threatens to swallow me whole
I'm almost afraid
But my pride forces me to hide it
So the poison goes after my soul
The battle inside leaves me weak with pain, helpless
And I am afraid
So much...
So much I want to live for now
So many things that stand to be lost if my darkness wins
But the poison is seeping into my heart
The poison that has always been there
In forsaking the darkness I have lost my immunity to it
So I'm dying from the inside out
But my pride forces me to hide it
My inner self screams for help
But the cries never pass my lips
I ignore the pain, ignore the emotions
The darkness stirs within my soul
Almost a reminder of days long past, who I once was
My past nature, which I have not abandoned
Only hidden, allowed to fester inside
Like poison.