My Lifeless Dream
By: iXwrok
Your smile, oh how I loved your smile. We blended together with your bright orange outfit and with my deep blue shirt. It should have been you and me forever then you disappeared from my view with no sign of where you had gone. I cried that first night you left me. My tear stained pillow now on showcase of the love I had for you. It will never change! I promised you before you left and I will promise you once again, my love. You have left me but can hear me now pleading to you to come back to me. The Hokage monument is the first place I had looked knowing you loved going there to release any stress or doubt you had. I didn't see you.
I should have known. The coldness I woke up to that first night, and me drenched in sweat from a horrid nightmare. 'Help me please Sasuke! Please!' And I couldn't comply to you I could not speak I stayed there motion less, my lips frozen in time trying to say something that would not come out! I heard you and yet I couldn't see you and that made everything just worse than before. It is hard to explain but if I could just see your face just once I know you'd be able to see the horrible thoughts that have gone through my head since your disappearance.
It was a dark night, full moon in sight, and yet nothing could be seen. The smell of grass and pine thick in the air and all I could think of was you! "Where are you? My lovely bird where are you?!" I got worried; I couldn't see anything and most of all worried I would never see you, or that smile of yours. I wandered along a stream not noticing the scratches I was getting from the trees ahead of me. My destination was you and even if I had died in that dream I know I would end up with you and only you. That never happened I chased an endless dream with no end to the suffering.
I couldn't save you in my dream and when I awoke I knew. I knew that dream where I couldn't save you would become a real tragedy. I didn't see lying beside me and I just knew it would end like it did, with you gone from my sight for now. I feel blind and heartless just the way you described me the first time we met and yet that time I fell in love. I fell in love with you and now I can't seem to breathe without you right beside and I feel like my world just blew over. You can't explain it well with words and yet what I feel now is horrid.
Naruto did you ever feel like this, I wonder? Those days I left you without warning just because I was afraid of these feelings I felt for you. I hope it never felt like this, like I do now. I never knew I could have any feelings toward anybody and yet here I am crying over my lost friend, my brother, and my love! I wouldn't be able to live knowing I caused you so much pain, how did this happen to you, my love? I am glad you aren't here to see me this way and though I am hopelessly depressed about your disappearance I can't help but to be happy of this pain. It is bringing me bliss to know that I am suffering for all the wrong doings I have committed in the past.
My love, my sweet I would never let you get hurt by anyone and I dearly hope you know of this. My sweet I can't think of hurting you not in a decade or two and yet I know I have. Just like what has happened to you I wish that to never happen again to you and to for your well being to be as complete as it had been the night before this tragedy. Please be you when you come back and if you don't I swear to my soul to never let the search for you end! Naruto, my sweet love be alright, be safe and most of all be with me!