How Far Chapter 1: 1 Sara Sings, a csi fanfic

How Far – Chapter 1

The lab had exploded and Greg was in the hospital. Sara had a few cuts from the glass. At the end of shift Sara walked past Grissom's office and saw him sitting on the edge of his desk. "You got a minute?" she asked.

Grissom looked up from the business card he held in his hand. It was for a doctor that could do his surgery. "I was just leaving," he said looking at Sara.

"Yeah, the schedule says you're off tonight."

"I am."

"Me too."

"You should be on paid leave."

"I'm fine."

"You were fortunate and I'm not talking about the explosion."

"You… Uh… You talked to Brass."

"And Nick."

"We got the guy."

"Is that all you have to say?"

"Would you like to have dinner with me?"

Grissom thought about it and then almost laughing said, "No."

"Why not? Let's… Let's have dinner. Let's see what happens."

"Sara," Grissom sighed. "I don't know what to do about this."

"I do," Grissom looked at her confused. "You know by the time you figure it out, it really could be too late." Sara left Grissom standing in the doorway of his office.

About two years later Sara and Grissom investigated a murder in a mental hospital. Grissom knew about Sara's past and wasn't sure how she would handle this case. He also knew that she wanted to work these kinds of cases so she could face her past. When Grissom and Sara were looking at things in the nurse's center Grissom had left Sara in there alone at one point. One of the mental hospital's patients came in with a broken part of a pot he had made and threatened Sara with it. The door was locked. Grissom begged for the man trying to unlock the door to try harder. Grissom looked terrified. Then the patient's mother came to the window, she was also one of the nurse's there. The patient then pushed the broken part of the pot to his neck and the door opened and Sara ran. Grissom was terrified he didn't know what to do. At that moment though he knew he needed to talk to Sara before it was "too late". The conversation they had had about two years ago kept going through his head.

"Would you like to have dinner with me?"

"No."

"Why not? Let's… Let's have dinner. Let's see what happens."

"Sara, I don't know what to do about this."

"I do. You know by the time you figure it out, it really could be too late."

He didn't know when he would talk to Sara but he knew he had to. Next thing he knew Nick disappeared and they were frantically looking for him. When they found him Grissom thought quickly on how to get them out after Hodges called Catherine and informed them that the box could blow up. They got Nick out safely. This was the second time Grissom was scared about something within a month. He couldn't stop thinking about what if it was Sara buried alive instead of Nick. He couldn't stop thinking about in the mental hospital how she could've died. He needed to tell her about his feelings for her, but how and when?

A couple nights later the team went out for drinks and it happened to be karaoke night at the club they were at. Grissom decided to go along so he could get closer with his team that he had just gotten back. He decided things would be different now. After a few beers in all of them Greg decided to do karaoke. Everyone enjoyed it. After a while Nick said, "Sar, how about you go sing us a song?"

"No thank you Nick."

"Come on we've all heard you sing around the lab," Nick looked at her and she couldn't resist.

"Fine." Sara stood up and went to the stage. She picked a song and went to the mic. She didn't even need to look at the screen for this one she knew it so well. The music started and then Sara started to sing.

There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back

Grissom watched in awe. He had heard her singing quietly in the lab but here she sounded amazing.

There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end

Sara was staring at Grissom trying to make him understand the words she was singing. Grissom noticed she was staring at him and realized that she meant the words coming out of her mouth.

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

Sara felt tears building up in her eyes but she held them in.

There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be

Catherine looked from Sara on stage to Grissom across from her in the booth then back at Sara. She couldn't help be think Sara was singing what she felt and Catherine felt sorry for her.

Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon

A single tear left Sara's eye as she stepped from the stage and she quickly wiped it away. She sat back down next to Nick in the booth. Everyone in the club was cheering and clapping for her. "See it wasn't that bad. They loved you. We all did," said Nick as she sat down next to him.

"Yeah, whatever. Who's next?" said Sara.

Catherine looked around at the team. Everyone had sung but Grissom. "Griss… Your turn."

"I don't sing," said Grissom.

"Come on, Griss. None of us do but Sara," said Warrick as he smiled in Sara's direction. Sara looked at him and looked like she was going to kill him then smiled.

"I don't know."

"Come on…" said the rest of the team.

"Fine," said Grissom as he stood and went to the stage.

TBC... What will Grissom sing? Okay I know what he's going to sing. I will write the next chapter but I might not post it right away, so I can leave you hanging for awhile.