Those Beautiful Blue Eyes
By: Makayla Johnson
I'd hold you close, if I didn't think it would just bring you more pain. You know I'd help you, if only I had the strength to stand up, voice the importance of your very existence. For years I've known you, I've grown to love you despite the few rough times we've had.
When I looked at those bright blue eyes, I immediately fell in love.
Those eyes, kind and bright like the sky on a sunny day, brought a smile to my face instantly. But I saw something else in those icy blue eyes. I saw fear. Your fear for the world around you was obvious, clear as day. You showed the reluctance of a child entering a new place, but I paid no attention to that.
Instead I smiled; and opened right up to you. And you were able to show your true nature. Happy as can be, playful, curious, naïve, and (as everyone ever said) cute. Friendly when given the chance and the greatest friend a person could have if given time.
Those sparkling blue eyes, so full of hope and dependence.
Years ago, when I looked at your eyes, I say energy, happiness, and love for the ones around you. You could take care of yourself, even if you were afraid. But now… it's as if all I see is pain and a broken being. You're so sure that those around you will protect you, keep you out of harm's way and never let you fall.
I see them backing away slowly as you fall. I see them lying, pretending they won't be happy once your gone, relieved. And I'm sorry I can't shove them out of the way and run to your side, catching you before you disappear forever. I'm sorry I'm chained down and unable to protect you from everything you've ever feared.
I don't want you to become just another memory in my head. That memory isn't as safe as some may think. I want to have to picture you in my mind just to see you again. But I will.
Please try. Try to stay with me so I don't have to go through this. But as much as you may say you'll try, I know your chances are slowly witling down. So, my dear, just know that I'll try to keep those beautiful blue eyes forever in my memory… until I see you again.