Sultry and Suspicious

by RetardButYouLoveIt

Sherlock was just getting used to his new life back, But is someone from his past about to reappear and turn everything upside down? AU Sherlock/OC John/Mary Mystrade Mentions of Drug abuse, suicide, self-harm

1. Prologue

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or any of the Sherlock franchise

Prologue:

I can feel myself falling into the abyss as I insert the needle, the cocaine giving me the breathless feeling I long for.

This is far more comforting than thoughts of him- No, don't go there, conceal, ignore, it's all fine.

I can feel every particle washing over my skin, the tingling in my fingertips grows and wraps around my arms then further throughout my body like a vine seeking purchase on a tree, as though if I were not there they could not survive or withhold themselves.

I try to recall the days so long ago when I did not need this, when I was happy and things were wonderfully imperfect, but it's too late, I'm too far gone. It's too much, too soon, too late.

I'm always too late.