1 Title: How It Should Be
Disclaimer: I don't own anything (although owning Chad would be nice). Please don't sue I have no money!
Summary: Read and find out. I suck at summaries and will give away the story if I give one.
A/N: This is my first GG fic. Please give me feedback!!!
How it Should Be
Part 1/?
U Got it Bad
Rory felt like she couldn't breathe. It hit her all at once when she got home from the play. *Tristan's gone.* Just like that he was out of her life. As she lay quietly on her bed she couldn't help but wonder why she hadn't done anything. Why she hadn't told him that she didn't care about Dean watching them, that he should kiss her anyways. Tears were welling up in her eyes when she realized she would never get the chance to tell him how much she really did care about him and that she never hated him. *I will not cry over Tristan. There wasn't anything there. He never thought of me as anything more than Mary, someone to tease and torment.* She knew it wasn't true, but still she tried to convince herself it was. Everytime she had looked in his eyes she had seen something burning deep within there and longed desperately to find out what it was. *I can't do this to myself. I have Dean, and he's not going anywhere. He loves me and I.* She couldn't even finch the thought which upset her even more. She was choking back sobs. She knew she wouldn't be able to stop crying if she let herself now. So she forced herself to think of anything except Tristan. It was no use her brain didn't seem to want to listen to her. *Why hadn't we ever gotten to the kissing part in rehearsals? I wanted- no needed to feel his lips on mine again even if it was for school and he never thought of it again. I need him in my life. He challenges me like no one else does. He never let's me rest when we're at school, but that's half the fun. Just having him there to argue with was enough.* Realization struck Rory like a bolt of lightning.
"I love you Tristan," she whispered into the night. Finally she allowed the tears to flow. Crying herself to sleep she kept wondering what she was going to do about Dean.
********
Rory got up slowly; last night she had had the strangest dream. It was right before she and Tristan were supposed to do Romeo and Juliet. He had come up to her and Paris and announced he was going to military school for braking into a safe. Then he had left without even giving her a goodbye kiss. Tears pricked her eyes when she realized it hadn't been a dream that Tristan was really gone. He was gone and she didn't know what she was going to do. Furiously she tried to wipe the tears away that were falling down her cheeks. It didn't work and she was still crying when she walked downstairs after her shower. Lorelei looked up from her coffee when she heard Rory enter the room. Immediately she noticed the tears.
"Hun, what's wrong?" She asked, walking up and wrapping her arms around her daughter. Rory just buried her head in Lorelei's shoulder. For once in her life Lorelei was speechless. She had never seen Rory this upset, not even after that party when she had finally decided to wallow over Dean. When Rory managed to calm down considerably Lorelei sat her down at one of the kitchen chairs. "Ok so are you ready to tell me what's got you so upset?" Rory shook her head.
"I can't talk about it right now. I just need to sort some things out." Even though Lorelei knew Rory should talk about it she wasn't going to push. "That's fine, but when you do feel like talking I'm right here." Rory nodded. She ate a pop tart, and grabbed a cup of coffee that she ingested quickly before grabbing the keys to the Jeep and heading out the door.
Throughout the ride to Chilton Rory kept her composure fairly well. Her mind too consumed with thoughts of school and the road infront of he. When she saw the looming building ahead she almost broke down, but refused to let any of the Chiltonites see how upset she was over Tristan's departure. After parking the jeep she rushed into the school, making a beeline for her locker. She heaved a sigh of relief having yet to run into Paris, yet she knew her luck wouldn't last much longer, and eventually the Ice Queen would find her. When she shut her locker Paris was standing on the other side staring at her coldly.
"Speak of the devil." She muttered under her breath. If it was possible Paris' stare got even colder.
"What did you say?" She snapped.
"Nothing Paris. What do you want? I'm really not in the mood to argue with you today."
"I just thought you should know that we got an A on Rome and Juliet."
"Thank you for telling me, now if you'll excuse me I have to get to class." Before she had a chance to get away Paris grabbed her arm.
"Just ONE more thing. Are you happy? Are you happy he's gone? Are you happy that Tristan's gone so now I don't have a hope of a chance?" At the mention of Tristan's name Rory felt herself start to break down.
"I have no idea what your talking about Paris. Just leave me ALONE!" She yanked her arm away and sprinted down the hall.
The rest of the day dragged by for Rory, who spent most of it in a daze, not being able to keep her head on schoolwork. When the last bell rang she gratefully trudged to her locker before heading out to the Jeep and back to Stars Hollow.
********
Rory parked the Jeep, and then walked into Luke's. As she sat down she thumped her head down onto the counter. She then held her hands up like she was begging for money. Luke walked up, looking at her strangely.
"Uh Rory? You're beginning to scare the customers."
"Coffee." Was the only response she gave.
"Not until you tell me what's wrong. Because something obviously is." Rory groaned.
"Bad day, now will you please give me some coffee."
"Fine," he huffed. "You do know that this stuff will kill you one day right?" Rory smiled.
"I know, but I'll love every minute of it." Luke muttered something under his breath before walking off to serve the other people in the diner. Rory gulped down the coffee just as Lorelei burst through the door.
"COFFEE!!" She exclaimed.
"Hi mom, it's nice to see you too." Rory laughed.
"Hey hun. You feeling better now?"
"Yeah actually I am. Luke gave me coffee with almost no arguments." Lorelei gasped.
"What did you do??"
"Thumped my head onto the counter." Her mom looked thoughtful.
"Too painful. I'll just use regular tactics." She cleared her throat. "Oh Luke!!" He walked up.
"You hollered?"
"Coffee please," she flashed him a grin.
"Alright, here you go." He said putting a mug in front of her and filling it up. Lorelei looked at him like he had three heads.
"Are you feeling alright??" She put a hand up to his head. "You're not running a fever." He brushed her hand away.
"I'm fine. Just felt like giving you the day off from begging for coffee. If you're complaining about it I could always take it away." He reached towards her mug. She snatched it away quickly.
"No I'm not complaining. Why would I complain about getting coffee?" Rory looked at the two and smiled. She wondered how long it would take her mom to realize how in love Luke was with her. Suddenly Luke's expression soured.
"Bagboy." He snapped bitterly. Rory stiffened at Luke's nickname for Dean. Lorelei noticed the reaction, but for once she kept her mouth shut.
"Hey Rory." He greeted happily, kissing her on the cheek.
"H-hi Dean." She murmured. *Come on Rory you can do this just pull yourself together. * Dean put his arm around her waist and Rory had to force herself to repress a shudder.
"Whatcha doing tonight?" He whispered into her ear.
"Nothing," she muttered. She knew what was coming next.
"Want to got to a movie tonight?"
"Sure, I'd love to." She replied through clenched teeth.
"Great!" Dean exclaimed, totally oblivious. When he was gone, Rory felt like she was going to be sick.
"Mom, I'm gonna head home. I'm not feeling very good, can you take the Jeep?"
"Yeah sure babe." Lorelei replied sympathetically.
After handing her mom the keys to the Jeep Rory practically sprinted home. By the time she got there she was gasping for breath, which was only partially because of running. Emotions were flowing through her so fast she couldn't think straight. Finally when she calmed down slightly she began to get ready for her date. *What's wrong with me?* She thought looking in the mirror. *This shouldn't be happening. I'm not supposed to care this much. He's not supposed to make me feel this way. * By the time Dean came to pick her up she was still arguing with herself. She still had no idea what she was going to do.
The drive to Hartford was spent in silence. When they got out of the car Dean grabbed Rory's hand, and she flinched. At his look of confusion she smiled.
"You startled me."
Rory ad a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach as they walked into the lobby of the theater, still she let Dean lead her through the throngs of people. Looking around she grimaced, seeing people she knew from school. They were whispering in small groups, but she couldn't make out what they were saying. *Probably gossip about Tristan. *
The movie seemed to drag by for Rory, who couldn't keep her thoughts straight. She almost sighed in relief when the closing credits started to roll.
Rory squinted so her eyes could adjust to the brightness in the lobby. *I can't go home yet. If I go home there's nothing for me to do to keep myself occupied. Not being occupied means thoughts of Tristan. * Quickly she grabbed Deans arm. Effectively stopping him from walking out into the parking lot.
"Dean, I'm not ready to go home yet." At his dumbfounded look, Rory began grasping at straws trying to come up with reasons not to go back to Stars Hollow. "Can we go for ice-cream? Please?"
"Uh sure. Do you know a place we can go?" Rory thought quickly.
"Yeah. There's a place just down the street." Rory had been trying really hard all night to hide how upset she was, but as they sat down in the ice-cream parlor Dean finally picked up on it.
"Rory is something wrong?" Panic filled her eyes.
"Yeah of course I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be?"
"I don't know, but you've been tense since I picked you up."
"It's nothing, just stress form school. You know how it is." Jut at that moment their milkshakes arrived. Rory was grateful for the distraction and dived enthusiastically into hers. Dean stirred his distractedly.
"I thought that with Tristan gone you would have basically a stress free life at Chilton."
"Yeah you'd think." She murmured. Just then the door opened and in walked Paris, followed closely by Madeline and Louise. *As if my day couldn't get any worse. The clouds open up and god says ha! * Quickly she slurped up the last of her shake.
"Dean can we go? I should be getting back. Mom wants me to help her with some stuff for the Inn." Rory didn't want to go yet however; she couldn't risk Paris seeing her. He nodded still looking at her like she was keeping something from him, and they slipped out quietly.
Rory lent her head against the window. The cool glass helped calm her nerves slightly. As it had for most of the day, Fate decided to hate her just as they were driving into Stars Hollow.
When you feel it in your body
You've found somebody who
Makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like your ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past-you wanna let it go
I've been there done it fucked around
After all that this is what I've found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby.
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
When you say that you love em
And you really know everything that used to matter
It don't matter no more
Like my money all my cars
(You can have it all back)
Flowers cards and candy
(I do it just cause I'm.)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can
See I've been there done it fucked around
After all that this is what I've found
Every one of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
BREAKDOWN
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
The song ended, and Rory burst into tears. Dean looked over at her, seeing her distress he grabbed her hand.
"Rory are you alright? What's wrong?" She sniffed.
"I'm fine, just a bad day coming crashing down on me all of a sudden." She noticed they weren't headed in the direction of her house. "Dean, where are you going?"
"I thought we could stop by Luke's and get a cup of coffee."
"No I told you I had to get home and I meant it." She was getting even more upset.
"Come on Rory, Lorelei won't mind." she cut him off.
"NO! Take me home!! NOW!!" She yelled. Fresh tears streaming down her face. Abruptly Dean turned the car around and drove towards her house.
Immediately when his truck pulled up to the curb she jumped out. She began running towards her house not bothering to respond to him calling her. She reached the door but because of how open. Just as she was about to give up, it finally opened and she rushed inside. Slamming the door shut she collapsed on the floor and curled herself up as small as she could. With all her might she tried to will the tears away even though she knew it was no use. Her life was spiraling out of control and she was powerless to stop it.
End part 1, U Got it Bad.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything (although owning Chad would be nice). Please don't sue I have no money!
Summary: Read and find out. I suck at summaries and will give away the story if I give one.
A/N: This is my first GG fic. Please give me feedback!!!
How it Should Be
Part 1/?
U Got it Bad
Rory felt like she couldn't breathe. It hit her all at once when she got home from the play. *Tristan's gone.* Just like that he was out of her life. As she lay quietly on her bed she couldn't help but wonder why she hadn't done anything. Why she hadn't told him that she didn't care about Dean watching them, that he should kiss her anyways. Tears were welling up in her eyes when she realized she would never get the chance to tell him how much she really did care about him and that she never hated him. *I will not cry over Tristan. There wasn't anything there. He never thought of me as anything more than Mary, someone to tease and torment.* She knew it wasn't true, but still she tried to convince herself it was. Everytime she had looked in his eyes she had seen something burning deep within there and longed desperately to find out what it was. *I can't do this to myself. I have Dean, and he's not going anywhere. He loves me and I.* She couldn't even finch the thought which upset her even more. She was choking back sobs. She knew she wouldn't be able to stop crying if she let herself now. So she forced herself to think of anything except Tristan. It was no use her brain didn't seem to want to listen to her. *Why hadn't we ever gotten to the kissing part in rehearsals? I wanted- no needed to feel his lips on mine again even if it was for school and he never thought of it again. I need him in my life. He challenges me like no one else does. He never let's me rest when we're at school, but that's half the fun. Just having him there to argue with was enough.* Realization struck Rory like a bolt of lightning.
"I love you Tristan," she whispered into the night. Finally she allowed the tears to flow. Crying herself to sleep she kept wondering what she was going to do about Dean.
********
Rory got up slowly; last night she had had the strangest dream. It was right before she and Tristan were supposed to do Romeo and Juliet. He had come up to her and Paris and announced he was going to military school for braking into a safe. Then he had left without even giving her a goodbye kiss. Tears pricked her eyes when she realized it hadn't been a dream that Tristan was really gone. He was gone and she didn't know what she was going to do. Furiously she tried to wipe the tears away that were falling down her cheeks. It didn't work and she was still crying when she walked downstairs after her shower. Lorelei looked up from her coffee when she heard Rory enter the room. Immediately she noticed the tears.
"Hun, what's wrong?" She asked, walking up and wrapping her arms around her daughter. Rory just buried her head in Lorelei's shoulder. For once in her life Lorelei was speechless. She had never seen Rory this upset, not even after that party when she had finally decided to wallow over Dean. When Rory managed to calm down considerably Lorelei sat her down at one of the kitchen chairs. "Ok so are you ready to tell me what's got you so upset?" Rory shook her head.
"I can't talk about it right now. I just need to sort some things out." Even though Lorelei knew Rory should talk about it she wasn't going to push. "That's fine, but when you do feel like talking I'm right here." Rory nodded. She ate a pop tart, and grabbed a cup of coffee that she ingested quickly before grabbing the keys to the Jeep and heading out the door.
Throughout the ride to Chilton Rory kept her composure fairly well. Her mind too consumed with thoughts of school and the road infront of he. When she saw the looming building ahead she almost broke down, but refused to let any of the Chiltonites see how upset she was over Tristan's departure. After parking the jeep she rushed into the school, making a beeline for her locker. She heaved a sigh of relief having yet to run into Paris, yet she knew her luck wouldn't last much longer, and eventually the Ice Queen would find her. When she shut her locker Paris was standing on the other side staring at her coldly.
"Speak of the devil." She muttered under her breath. If it was possible Paris' stare got even colder.
"What did you say?" She snapped.
"Nothing Paris. What do you want? I'm really not in the mood to argue with you today."
"I just thought you should know that we got an A on Rome and Juliet."
"Thank you for telling me, now if you'll excuse me I have to get to class." Before she had a chance to get away Paris grabbed her arm.
"Just ONE more thing. Are you happy? Are you happy he's gone? Are you happy that Tristan's gone so now I don't have a hope of a chance?" At the mention of Tristan's name Rory felt herself start to break down.
"I have no idea what your talking about Paris. Just leave me ALONE!" She yanked her arm away and sprinted down the hall.
The rest of the day dragged by for Rory, who spent most of it in a daze, not being able to keep her head on schoolwork. When the last bell rang she gratefully trudged to her locker before heading out to the Jeep and back to Stars Hollow.
********
Rory parked the Jeep, and then walked into Luke's. As she sat down she thumped her head down onto the counter. She then held her hands up like she was begging for money. Luke walked up, looking at her strangely.
"Uh Rory? You're beginning to scare the customers."
"Coffee." Was the only response she gave.
"Not until you tell me what's wrong. Because something obviously is." Rory groaned.
"Bad day, now will you please give me some coffee."
"Fine," he huffed. "You do know that this stuff will kill you one day right?" Rory smiled.
"I know, but I'll love every minute of it." Luke muttered something under his breath before walking off to serve the other people in the diner. Rory gulped down the coffee just as Lorelei burst through the door.
"COFFEE!!" She exclaimed.
"Hi mom, it's nice to see you too." Rory laughed.
"Hey hun. You feeling better now?"
"Yeah actually I am. Luke gave me coffee with almost no arguments." Lorelei gasped.
"What did you do??"
"Thumped my head onto the counter." Her mom looked thoughtful.
"Too painful. I'll just use regular tactics." She cleared her throat. "Oh Luke!!" He walked up.
"You hollered?"
"Coffee please," she flashed him a grin.
"Alright, here you go." He said putting a mug in front of her and filling it up. Lorelei looked at him like he had three heads.
"Are you feeling alright??" She put a hand up to his head. "You're not running a fever." He brushed her hand away.
"I'm fine. Just felt like giving you the day off from begging for coffee. If you're complaining about it I could always take it away." He reached towards her mug. She snatched it away quickly.
"No I'm not complaining. Why would I complain about getting coffee?" Rory looked at the two and smiled. She wondered how long it would take her mom to realize how in love Luke was with her. Suddenly Luke's expression soured.
"Bagboy." He snapped bitterly. Rory stiffened at Luke's nickname for Dean. Lorelei noticed the reaction, but for once she kept her mouth shut.
"Hey Rory." He greeted happily, kissing her on the cheek.
"H-hi Dean." She murmured. *Come on Rory you can do this just pull yourself together. * Dean put his arm around her waist and Rory had to force herself to repress a shudder.
"Whatcha doing tonight?" He whispered into her ear.
"Nothing," she muttered. She knew what was coming next.
"Want to got to a movie tonight?"
"Sure, I'd love to." She replied through clenched teeth.
"Great!" Dean exclaimed, totally oblivious. When he was gone, Rory felt like she was going to be sick.
"Mom, I'm gonna head home. I'm not feeling very good, can you take the Jeep?"
"Yeah sure babe." Lorelei replied sympathetically.
After handing her mom the keys to the Jeep Rory practically sprinted home. By the time she got there she was gasping for breath, which was only partially because of running. Emotions were flowing through her so fast she couldn't think straight. Finally when she calmed down slightly she began to get ready for her date. *What's wrong with me?* She thought looking in the mirror. *This shouldn't be happening. I'm not supposed to care this much. He's not supposed to make me feel this way. * By the time Dean came to pick her up she was still arguing with herself. She still had no idea what she was going to do.
The drive to Hartford was spent in silence. When they got out of the car Dean grabbed Rory's hand, and she flinched. At his look of confusion she smiled.
"You startled me."
Rory ad a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach as they walked into the lobby of the theater, still she let Dean lead her through the throngs of people. Looking around she grimaced, seeing people she knew from school. They were whispering in small groups, but she couldn't make out what they were saying. *Probably gossip about Tristan. *
The movie seemed to drag by for Rory, who couldn't keep her thoughts straight. She almost sighed in relief when the closing credits started to roll.
Rory squinted so her eyes could adjust to the brightness in the lobby. *I can't go home yet. If I go home there's nothing for me to do to keep myself occupied. Not being occupied means thoughts of Tristan. * Quickly she grabbed Deans arm. Effectively stopping him from walking out into the parking lot.
"Dean, I'm not ready to go home yet." At his dumbfounded look, Rory began grasping at straws trying to come up with reasons not to go back to Stars Hollow. "Can we go for ice-cream? Please?"
"Uh sure. Do you know a place we can go?" Rory thought quickly.
"Yeah. There's a place just down the street." Rory had been trying really hard all night to hide how upset she was, but as they sat down in the ice-cream parlor Dean finally picked up on it.
"Rory is something wrong?" Panic filled her eyes.
"Yeah of course I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be?"
"I don't know, but you've been tense since I picked you up."
"It's nothing, just stress form school. You know how it is." Jut at that moment their milkshakes arrived. Rory was grateful for the distraction and dived enthusiastically into hers. Dean stirred his distractedly.
"I thought that with Tristan gone you would have basically a stress free life at Chilton."
"Yeah you'd think." She murmured. Just then the door opened and in walked Paris, followed closely by Madeline and Louise. *As if my day couldn't get any worse. The clouds open up and god says ha! * Quickly she slurped up the last of her shake.
"Dean can we go? I should be getting back. Mom wants me to help her with some stuff for the Inn." Rory didn't want to go yet however; she couldn't risk Paris seeing her. He nodded still looking at her like she was keeping something from him, and they slipped out quietly.
Rory lent her head against the window. The cool glass helped calm her nerves slightly. As it had for most of the day, Fate decided to hate her just as they were driving into Stars Hollow.
When you feel it in your body
You've found somebody who
Makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like your ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past-you wanna let it go
I've been there done it fucked around
After all that this is what I've found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby.
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
When you say that you love em
And you really know everything that used to matter
It don't matter no more
Like my money all my cars
(You can have it all back)
Flowers cards and candy
(I do it just cause I'm.)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can
See I've been there done it fucked around
After all that this is what I've found
Every one of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
BREAKDOWN
You got it you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
You got it you got it bad
When you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad
When you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
You got it bad
When you're out with someone
But you keep on think 'bout somebody else
You got it bad
The song ended, and Rory burst into tears. Dean looked over at her, seeing her distress he grabbed her hand.
"Rory are you alright? What's wrong?" She sniffed.
"I'm fine, just a bad day coming crashing down on me all of a sudden." She noticed they weren't headed in the direction of her house. "Dean, where are you going?"
"I thought we could stop by Luke's and get a cup of coffee."
"No I told you I had to get home and I meant it." She was getting even more upset.
"Come on Rory, Lorelei won't mind." she cut him off.
"NO! Take me home!! NOW!!" She yelled. Fresh tears streaming down her face. Abruptly Dean turned the car around and drove towards her house.
Immediately when his truck pulled up to the curb she jumped out. She began running towards her house not bothering to respond to him calling her. She reached the door but because of how open. Just as she was about to give up, it finally opened and she rushed inside. Slamming the door shut she collapsed on the floor and curled herself up as small as she could. With all her might she tried to will the tears away even though she knew it was no use. Her life was spiraling out of control and she was powerless to stop it.
End part 1, U Got it Bad.