What I've Done

By: esmtz

Stefan had never before felt as devastated as he did just then. He had just woken up feeling different than he normally did before his memories came rushing back at him. His eyes widened in horror as he turned around and saw that Bonnie was crying over Enzo's dead body. He was still in the house that held Elena's coffin and Stefan felt his heart shatter as he realized what he had just done while his humanity switch had been off. It wasn't just about what he had done just now but what he did during the past couple of months. He was completely hurt and broken when he realized that not only had he killed so many people and even turned a girl into a vampire and then killed her but he without hesitation killed Enzo right in front of Bonnie just so he could get inside the house to get at Elena to kill her. The guilt was starting to eat away at him as he opened his mouth to say something but he found himself unable to say anything as he saw how hurt Bonnie really was as she cradled her dead boyfriend's body. Stefan wasn't aware when Damon finally showed up at the house. He had a shocked expression on his face when he saw Bonnie holding Enzo's body just outside the house.

"What happened, Bonnie?" Damon asked as he got closer to her.

"Stefan happened." Bonnie replied angrily, "He killed Enzo, came inside the house and was just about to kill me just so he could get to Elena but I managed to give him the cure to stop him."

Damon looked at her completely shocked.

"Stefan's human?"

"Yeah. He won't be a problem for us anymore."

Damon was about to ask her where his brother was but he almost immediately noticed him inside the house. He saw the broken expression on Stefan's face making him wince.

'This is not going to be good.' Damon thought as he headed inside towards his brother.

"Stefan?" Damon asked as he slowly approached his brother who was still on the floor.

Tears fell freely down Stefan's face as he started crying uncontrollably. It was obvious that he was trying to hold back his sobs but he was failing miserably that he ended up completely sobbing. Damon looked at him worriedly as he slowly kneeled next to him. He hadn't expected for this to happen otherwise he would have been completely furious with his brother for almost killing both Bonnie and Elena. The problem now was that now that Stefan had his humanity back he was going to be feeling nothing but guilt and despair. Damon slowly tried to rest a hand on his brother's shoulder but Stefan violently pulled away the moment he felt something on his shoulder. Stefan buried his face in his hands and kept crying. Damon was really worried as he had never seen his brother cry like this before at least not since their mother's supposed death. He had absolutely no idea about how he could possibly comfort Stefan. He did know that this was his fault like always and Damon was determined to try and fix it. Once again Damon tried to put a hand on Stefan's shoulder and this time he didn't pull away.

"Hey, Stef? I need you to look at me. This isn't your fault alright. I'm the reason why all of this happened in the first place. If I had just left that room back at the armory instead of looking for Elena none of this would be happening right now so go on tell me that I screwed up really bad this time and that you blame me for once again getting you into trouble." Damon said trying to get him to look at him as he gently shook his shoulder, "Stefan?"

Stefan finally looked up looking at Damon like he couldn't believe that he wasn't attempting to kill him for what he just tried to do to Elena. He didn't say anything for a few seconds because he already knew that there was nothing he could say to make everything that he's done okay. Stefan shook his head having to finally admit to himself that he himself was the real monster. Normally he would have blamed Damon for making his life worse but this time Stefan knew that it was all on him.

"…Just leave me alone, Damon." Stefan softly said as a tear fell down his face.

Damon shook his head as he pulled his brother towards him and hugged him as tight as he could without accidentally hurting him.

"I'm sorry, Stefan. I'm really, really sorry." Damon said as he continued to hug him.

"Don't apologize to that monster, Damon!" Bonnie said angrily as she continued to look at Enzo's body.

Stefan winced as Damon turned his head to look back at Bonnie.

"He's my brother, Bonnie!" Damon told her glaring at her.

"I don't care!" Bonnie replied as she gently laid Enzo's body on the ground before she got up and turned to walk closer to Damon and Stefan, "He killed Enzo and he didn't even think twice about wanting to kill me to get to Elena! He's killed who knows how many people over the past couple of months AND he even tried to destroy Mystic Falls! The way I see it he deserves to die!"

Stefan looked at her sadly having already known that there was no way that she was ever going to forgive him not that it mattered because he was NEVER going to forgive himself for what he did anyway. Damon kept glaring at her.

"His humanity switch was off, Bonnie because of me and because of the deal we made with Cade. It wasn't his fault that he did what he did and besides I've just as easily killed as many people as he did and if I recall I also tried to kill you too so why aren't you mad at me?" Damon asked.

"Because you didn't kill Enzo, try to kill Elena or threaten to destroy Mystic Falls! Besides the situation was different. You were under Sybil's mind control whereas Stefan made the choices that he made to kill us all!" Bonnie told him, "He went after Elena, Damon. Elena. You can't possibly tell me that you're ok with forgiving him after this!"

Stefan knew that everything that Bonnie was saying was the truth. He didn't deserve to live and frankly he really didn't want to live anymore not after all the damage that he caused not that he had anyone to return to anyway. All his life especially during his years of being a vampire all he's ever done was made everyone's lives, whoever came in contact with him, worse than what their lives should have been so to him it was better if he just disappeared from their lives.

'I'm sorry, Caroline but it's better for you if you never see me again.' Stefan thought thinking about how much he loved her but knew that she would be better off with someone else.

Stefan made a move to get up but Damon kept him from moving at all. He turned his head to look back at his brother.

"You're not going anywhere, Stefan." Damon told him.

In all honesty Damon was afraid that Stefan might do something stupid if he let him go off by himself. Not caring that this was going to hurt Damon Bonnie used her witch powers to separate Damon from Stefan. Damon was surprised to find himself pinned against the wall before he realized what happened.

"I see you got your witch powers back, Bon Bon." Damon said as he tried to move.

Bonnie looked at him seriously but also with a little bit of regret before turning her attention to Stefan.

"If I ever see you again…"

Stefan nodded as he stood up.

"I got it." Stefan replied as he started walking towards the front door.

Damon started to panic as he struggled to break free of the hold Bonnie had on him.

"Let me go, Bonnie!" Damon said before shouting after his brother who had just ran out the door, "STEFAN, WAIT!"

Author's Note: A bit sooner than I thought but here, here's another story featuring Damon and Stefan. I have to warn you though I have not seen any of the episodes from season 8 of TVD I've seen only clips so if I have something wrong about the details in this extremely short story then I'm sorry. This should just be a two part story but who knows I doubt it'll be longer than that so yeah I hope you guys like it. Sorry that once again Stefan is suicidal but I mean come on the show is nothing but Stefan saving Damon so I figure it gives me more of a reason to keep writing stories that show Damon as the savior for once since the show is almost over very disappointing by the way but at least they know when to end unlike Supernatural I mean Jesus 12 seasons?! Sorry rambling over next chapter will probably be up sometime next week.