Well, this is my first attempt at writing FanFiction in about 11 or 12 years. Yes, I am old.

Just an idea that came to mind one day, maybe won`t go any further than this, maybe it will. Who knows. If it continues, will probably be more on the dark side, at least in the beggining. Rated M for possible smut, language and drugs.

I don`t own anything related to OITNB.

"Piper? I'm home!"

Silence.

"Shit."

Alex hangs her coat and her bag by the door and walks over to the bathroom, already knowing what to expect. Piper is sitting on the floor, arms around her legs, her face buried in them, sobbing quietly.

"Pipes?"

"It's negative."

Alex slides down the wall beside Piper and trows her head back against the wall, wrapping an arm around her wife. She already knew it had come to this – another IVF attempt, another negative result. They'd been trying to have a child for about 13 months now – all attempts failed. It didn't make sense – all of Piper's tests were supposedly normal, she was healthy, had enough eggs, their donor(which took about 127 files to find one that met both hers and Alex's criterias) was also healthy and had already fathered a few kids. Why wasn't it working for them?! They wanted it bad enough, they should be able to conceive a child. It seemed they were cursed.

"It's ok, Pipes."

"No, it's NOT! I'm tired of getting the same results over and over again, Alex! What, am I not good enough to be a mother? Maybe there's a god up there that thinks I'm not worthy of having a child, maybe I'm too-"

"Don't. Stop. I mean it. It's not your fault"

"Then whose fault is it? The fucking donor? Maybe we should lower our standards and go for some loser that needed the sperm money to pay for cable tv and the porn channel, then! Granted he only uses that fucking dick for masturbation, so the universe might consider giving him the right to procreate?"

"Come on"

Alex gets up and extends her hand to Piper, who doesn't grab it immediately. "Come here." Piper takes her hand, still avoiding any form of eye contact; her eyes red and puffy from crying for a rather long time. She's tired, depressed and hopeless. They head to their bedroom and hop into bed, Alex spooning her and drying her tears with the fabric of her sleeve.

"It'll be okay, we can get through this. We can try again or maybe consider other options-"

"Please shut up"

"I'm serious, we can adopt, we can choose a kid that looks exactly like you, no one will know"

"Alex, we're not 'shopping' for a child, you can't just pick one like you do with a shirt at the fucking GAP"

"You know I didn't mean it like that"

"Yeah?" – Piper asks while standing up – "Then what the fuck do you mean, Alex? That we have to find a kid that not only doesn't have your DNA but it doesn't have mine, either? That it's that easy? Just go in and pick a cute one and take it home, hell, if it doesn't behave or poops too much we can just take it back and pick another one? We're talking about a fucking person here!"

"For god's sake, I don't care about it not having my freaking DNA, Piper! I know a child would make you happy, why does it have to come out from you? I mean seriously, why do you wanna keep going through this hell?! It's fucking expensive and it's only making you a mess every time that damn stick says it didn't work! I'm sick of seeing you so miserable, kid"

The blonde woman looks at her wife and you can instantly see the hurt in her eyes. She can not believe she just heard such harsh words from the one person she expected to support her through all of this. She turns around and leaves the room in a storm, slamming the door shut.

"FUCK!"

A couple hours later and Piper has yet to return home. As the night came down, the temperature ice cold now, it looked like it was going to snow. Alex swallowed her pride and decided to head to their red Prius(which they both hated, by the way, but it was a gift from Piper's parents and they had to other ways to afford a car they could actually buy with their own money.) and text Piper, hoping she wouldn't have to wait long or wander around too much around town, looking for her.

From Alex: Where are you? I'm on my way to pick you up. It's late.

From Piper: We're running out of money, you know. We barely have enough for another try and I doubt it'd be different and actually work this time.

From Alex: Babe, just let me pick you up and we can talk over a glass of wine…

From Piper: No talking. Pick me up at the liquor store in 10.

From Alex: Get me two of whatever you're having. I'll be there soon. X

Alex pulls up in front of the liquor store and honks, impatiently waiting, until Piper comes out of the store without a coat and carrying two huge brown bags, a sad look on her face, shaking a little. She gets into the car and drops the bags on the floor, rubbing her hands together in front of the heater while Alex gets a sweater that was forgotten on the backseat and hands it to Piper, who immediately puts it on.

"You're gonna catch a cold, if not pneumonia. Why couldn't you at least grab a coat?!"

Piper just shrugged and kept her eyes focused on the front mirror. Alex sighed; this was going to be a long night, a long week and god-knows-how-long this torture of seeing her wife completely broken down would last, and there was nothing she could do to make things better, so she just put the car in rear and started driving towards their loft. Piper just walked in front of Alex, leaving her the task of carrying the heavy bags inside. She noticed that, for once, the blonde didn't take her shoes off to walk inside, didn't bother to hang her coat, nothing. She was completely out of it, overwhelmed with sadness and hope that it was nothing more than a nightmare; She really, really wanted to have a child and deep down, she knew Alex wanted it just as bad, even though she did her best to hide the deception on her face every time they got a negative result.

The brunette followed inside, putting the bags on the small kitchen counter. God, this place was SMALL. Good were the days they spent at the penthouse and 5 star hotels.

"Ciroc, huh? Interesting choice. Should I bring the shot glasses?"

"Not strong enough. I need a double shot, no ice"

Alex chuckled. Despite the bad news they received that day, she couldn't help but find every little thing about Piper completely adorable.

"Your wish is my command, ma'am"