"Raven, today is literally to the DAY 5 years we've been up here, which means that its now safe to go back down to Earth. Everyone is more than ready to get back down and out of this ring. I know you must be too." Bellamy reminded her, as if she could possibly forget. They'd all been counting the days - literally, in the halls of the ring, they had row after row lines representing days in space.

Home. Any of this ringing any bells?" Bellamy said, clearly trying to stay cool, while it was clear he was desperate to get home to Octavia and maybe...just maybe Clarke.

Stay calm, don't lose it. But wasn't she suppose to be the brains up here? he thought with irritation.

Glancing to where Raven was sitting at her work station, a sea of mechanical looking devices, wires, motherboards and other strange looking tech spread out before her, she wasn't looking at him, he wasn't sure she was even listening. There was also a huge list of chemical equations and some other stuff way above his head written on a dry erase glass.

"Raven?" he said, clearing his voice.

Almost to herself, quietly Raven said: "We forgot something", and turned to him, meeting his eyes, hoping he'd know to what she was referring.

Bewildered, and not hiding it, Bellamy gaped at her.

What in the world could she think we forgot? Other than Clarke, that is, but he shoved that painful thought aside.

"Remember when we were getting ready to do this ?

"Yes, of course. You know I remember it all. Hell, its all I've BEEN thinking about all this time. Can you just get to the point? What is the problem?" he demanded, placing both hands on the table, staring down at her bowed head. He was beginning to worry.

"Right before we left, we had what was left of the hydrazine transported from Arkadia to the island to power this rocket" she began, and stood up from her work area. She limped over to the window, looking down on the scorched earth. Once blue, white, green and beautiful, it now looked like a fireball.

Saying nothing, Bellamy allowed her to continue, not liking her tone or the direction this conversation seemed to be headed, on today, of all days. He didn't follow her to the window. He spent many hours staring out when he was alone.

"When Clarke came back," Raven went on, trying not to notice Bellamy wince visibly at the mention of their friends name, "You'll recall that they lost one barrel on the way to the lab."

Now Raven turned and met Bellamy's gaze, willing him to understand, so she didn't have to say it. His expression, not getting what she was saying, changed. He sucked in a breath.

"Raven..." he said cautiously, trailing off, denial now evident in his eyes.

"When I ran the simulation, with us crashing into the ocean, there were no casualties, we survived, with the original anticipated fuel shortage the best we could hope for was this landing into the ocean."

She walked away from the window and back to Bellamy.

"We only just survived with what little fuel we had left...BEFORE you guys lost a barrel. I don't know if I can do it without that hydrazine"

She stared him in the eyes.

Knowing he understood.

"Are you saying that we're stuck up here?" he said in a low voice, taking a step towards her, looking angry.

Raven didn't answer right away.

She glanced around the room, as if the answer were out there, and she could fix this.

Finally, she met his eyes and said, "I don't know..."

Thanks for reading. First fanfic I've written in quite a while...first show other than Bones!

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