This is my first fanfic, so I just want honest feedback, not flattery or useless flames. You can flame if you feel it's necessary, but just tell me what's wrong.
This is kinda unhappy, so you've been warned. There is no slash love in this (sorry f/f fans ) or romance of any kind (yet, we'll have to see). The love mention in this is strictly friend to friend.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Teen Titans belongs to DC Comics and whoever has the animation rights.
Thanx, and if you would review, it would be really nice.
Maigaryu
Key
"Talking"
'Thinking'
Lyrics
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Conflict (Everybody's Fool)
Raven sat alone in her room. Trigon was hassling her again, and she was starting to feel sick in the perfect silence. But it was better than going out. Starfire was out there, and she was even more sick of the other female Titan.
Not because of her cheerful exterior, she could put up with that (for short periods of time), but because she had seen that's just what it was, an exterior. She had looked deeper than usual into those green on green eyes and had the shock of her life.
There was a sorrowful, down-to-earth, very intelligent Starfire under all those constant smiles and naïve words. Star was living a lie. And Raven hated liars.
Perfect by nature
Icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Raven had had so many lies in her life, that she took people she trusted lying very personally. That's why she had gone postal on Robin after the whole "Red X" thing. But she wasn't going to think about that right now. Thinking about Red X would make her angry all over again, and that wouldn't help her Trigon-induced headache.
But Star living a lie? That hurt.
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Sure, Raven herself had issues, but at least she didn't try to pretend like everything's okay.
Through the haze of a fresh wave of pain and hatred, Raven could sense someone coming up the hall to her room. 'Oh shit', Raven couldn't suppress the groan that came to her lips. 'Starfire.'
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
'I can't deal with this right now, I can't…'
KNOCK KNOCK
"Raven?" the hesitant voice on the other side called. And there was only one reason that the empath allowed her to enter, really, even answered at all.
Starfire sounded far more subdued than usual.
"What do you want?" Damn. Her voice was strained, and the words more clipped than usual.
Star hesitated before speaking. "You…did not seem well when you left the room. You looked…" She seemed reluctant to push forward, but finally did, "…ready to cry. I was worried." Her eyes were fixed on the carpet between them.
Raven couldn't help but blink at that. Star had seen her leave? She didn't think anyone was paying attention to her exit. It always took several minutes (if at all) for anyone to notice she was gone, usually when they turned to her for something. "You know more than you let on, Starfire." It wasn't a question. The truth that both of them knew but had never said aloud hung between them.
So did Raven's bitterness, and Starfire had no idea why, or what to do about it.
Without the mask where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
"I know your father is hurting you." There was no trace of the usual Starfire now. "I want to help you Raven. But I can't if you wont let me."
Raven was suddenly furious. "The only way could even try to understand is if you've been in similar pain." She snarled, her words almost daring Starfire to contradict her. The venom in her voice, which would have the old Starfire cowering behind the door, didn't even make her flinch. She stood firm, her eyes resolved.
"You're right Raven, I've never been mentally abused before," Raven's eyes widened in shock and horror (how had she known?) "So I can't really understand. But I'd still like to try, if you'd share with me. I'll always try to understand, because you're my friend, and I love you."
Raven sat stunned for a moment, and was almost compelled to talk with her.
Almost.
It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
Unfortunately, she was still to angry at Starfire to want to talk with her. "Well, I'm not in a very 'sharing' mood right now. Leave." She turned her back on the other Titan, a clear dismissal.
Starfire turned to go, but as she was going through the door, she heard Raven's whisper.
"Never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're Everybody's Fool."
Knowing there was nothing she could say to that, Starfire quietly closed the door.
((End Conflict))
A mask is only a mask so long as you wear it and it doesn't wear you. Once you forget where the lines exist, who then is real and who pretend?
"Everybody's Fool" by Evanescence