I couldn't stand it. I hated what was going on. And as much as I wanted to do something about it, I couldn't. Edward is not a child. He is grown, and mature. Probably the most mature Cullen in the family. But it is getting to me, as much as I hate to admit it. He's my "little brother", in a way. I love him dearly, and the pain he goes through when Bella spends time with that ... that mut ... is hard for me to bare. He thinks he hides his feelings so well, but I've learned over the years to read into his body language, his ever-so-slight facial expressions, the flash and glimmer in his eyes, and to read inbetween the lines
He deserves so much better than Bella. She treads upon his heart with no more thought than she gives to a mosquito that shes swatted. She knowingly puts her heart in danger when being around that shaggy dog, but she does it anyway. Being a vampires mate is a serious thing ... considering our nature. And she acts like it's no big deal that she fritters her time away, falling more and more in love with that beast. The worst part about it is she is only semi aware that shes doing it . If Edward didn't love her so much, I'd kill her myself.
I watch from the sidelines, listening, and watching (when they're around), how it works with them. She mainpulates him, curling him around her little human pinky, making outrageous demands, and expecting nothing more than to get her way. What a selfish child she is. She cares nothing about what makes my brother Edward happy.
He can't help it what era he grew up in, or how he was raised. It's just part of his nature to be such a gentlemen, despite the thirst for blood. He tries desperately to hide it from everyone, and most of the time I think I'm the only one who actually sees just how sensative Edward really is. Of course, he hides it really well, especially from Bella. But he doesn't fool me. No, not in the least. But he says nothing so he won't hurt her. It would be nothing less than she deserves. If only... -sigh-
I wonder how Edward can love her; she is such a petty, whiny, creature. Yes, she is quite beautiful. But that does not make up for her other faults. What could he see in her? Is he drawn to her because he cannot hear her thoughts, and is thus compelled to be with her just to know these thoughts? I just don't see it. I can't stand to see him everyday, so enamored with this pathetic specimen, Bella. He deserves so much better than her, it is utterly ridiculous. It makes me thankful that I have Emmett. At least we deserve each other. At least we equal each other. At least we compliment each other. It's just so pathetic, if only there were something I could do!
I'm surprised Edward hasn't broken down my mental block already to see what I'm thinking. I only let him hear the thoughts that won't hurt him, but it gets more and more difficult everyday. As painful as it is for me to watch my dear, sweet brother Edward be hurt almost on a constant basis, he still loves her ... and I need to come to terms with it. But I will never forgive her for the pain she has caused him in this short time. Albeit, never is a looong time ...