The Nonsense Before The Long Goodbye
I am L.
I will soon be killed by Kira.
By Light Yagami.
By my… friend.
Besides Watari, I have kept myself distant from people as they did not benefit me in any way, not to mention they were no worth my trust. I never tried to make friends, I never expected for it to happen, and it never did…until Light-kun.
Despite him being oblivious to the way I viewed him, I never ceased to consider him a person of value. I took out of the account the fact that, until recently, he hid himself from me, his father, his father's coworkers, everyone he encountered and even that damned Shinigami. I chose to ignore such detail because in this scenario lying is the only thing you can do. Only an idiot would take it personally. It is not about us, it is all about him.
It is a bit hard to explain why I feel this way about Light-kun, he never did anything to make me feel the way I do, but I suppose what triggered this was that me and him are the same. What differentiates us is our purposes, our pasts. Somehow, even with this major factors that have influenced our lives, still, we managed to remain almost the same person. Just like Yin and Yang. Analogy that hurts me so to make.
We think the same. Which is what led to this. Someone has to sacrifice themselves first in order to enable more viable moves.
He is my friend for the mere fact that he has not acted like one.
That is why he is my friend, because he does not embody the definition of friendship that I have avoided my whole life. Or maybe because I sometimes see myself in him, and I read somewhere that, that is what humans look in their companions… themselves.
Goodbye, Watari. This is for you, who always taunted me for being unfriendly, but how could I make another friend when all my admiration and compassion is directed towards you? Fortunately, your dream has come true, Watari. For once, a snippet of my friendship has gone to someone else.
-L. Lawliet.