Everything happened so fast, my life happened so fast. The lies come out to play at this very second, we didn't know what was going on. We just wanted to believe that everything was going to be okay, were going to be okay. My stomach twists, i felt like i was going to throw up. I bent over, trying grab for a wall. Lucas quickly grabbed me as i struggled, i felt his grip on my arm. I took a deep breathe, If i didn't; i would have passed out. I took another deep breathe but the air seemed to be thinning, the room became to spin. I have felt the death of someone that you love but not like this, this was different. I dropped down to my knees, covering my hands over my face. I knew this was coming, I knew that this was going to happen but it came to fast. I didn't have the time with him that i should have. I could hear Lucas cry over, he was trying hold himself together and me, it must be hard for him. You hear the scream of my cry through the hall of the hospital, everyone tried to look away but they couldn't help but see someone become completely damaged. The doctor tried to help but didn't want any trouble, I kept screaming like I was shot or in pain but i was in pain. Why does it hurt? It hurts so bad, it really fucking hurts.
"What happened to my son!" I screamed, i completely knew what happened. The doctor looked at me with questionable frown. He was thinking of the words in his head, hes been through this and knows what these people are going through.
"I'm sorry." The doctor could only say to me. It wasn't enough for me, that's not what i wanted to have in my head. None of this was okay or was going to be okay.
"No." I bent over, curling my body. My chest became heavy inside my body, I felt slow and weak. I cried, oh I cried hard. I screamed, when death comes...you dont feel it at first. It doesn't immediately hit you with full force, ha no. First the memories come, the time that you spent with that person. All the time that you wasted with that person but...mine wasn't wasted...mine was well spent.
I remember the first night I told Lucas, the first night I told him that I was pregnant. It was winter, a very cold time of the year. The leaves were frozen up, the lakes were frozen because of the snow and the temperature dropping on us. I wrapped my hands around my body, my hands were frozen. I couldn't move my toes, my nose was completely red. I walked to the back of the house, knowing Lucas was there. The red door shinned in the light of the street lights, I touched the door remembering the easier times. I never gave up on Lucas and he never gave up on me. Peyton was still madly in love with him at this time around because we were seniors in high school. I knocked on the door, Lucas opened it; quickly. I kept my eyes on his and I saw a shadow in corner of his room, i looked up at him and back towards the room. I shoved him out the way, Peyton was on his bed; looking at his lap top. She looked at me with a welcoming smile, i rolled my eyes at her.
"Lucas can I speak to you, alone?" I hated seeing her with him, Peyton looked up at Lucas and walked out of the house. Lucas chuckled, i think because of the face that I was making. I took off my jacket, snow fell to the floor. Lucas walked over to his bed, pushing me towards him. "I'm pregnant." I said with rush of air, Lucas was taken back from the news. He slowly took his hands off of my waist, thinking about his life.
"Are you sure?" Lucas bit his lip, I walked over to his long mirror. I've been hiding the secret from him for a while because i didn't know how else to say. I raised up my shirt, there was bump like I've eaten a little and it wont go down. Lucas saw the curve of my stomach, he was going to have a son. "Haley's pregnant too." Lucas whispered still looking at my stomach. I walked over to him with my shirt still raised, he placed his hands on my stomach. "What are we going to do?" Lucas asked me.
"Were going to be the best parents in the world but right now...we need to tell our parents." Brooke softly said to him.
"Let's skip step two." Lucas kissed my stomach.
The cracks on my wooden floors screamed for attention. I rose my heel from the floor, I tip toed to the corner of my room. I looked down the hallway, there was not one human in sight.
"Boo." Lucas whispered, touching my waist. I jumped a little, i turned around to see his beautiful blue eyes. Lucas looked down the hallway as what i did. We looked at each other, wondering where our son was. "Where is he?" Lucas asked me.
"I dont know, do you think hes still asleep?" I narrowed my eyes, Lucas looked at the hallway again.
"I guess," He looked at his watch that i bought him. "Why would he be sleeping on his birthday?" Lucas looked around, we slowly walked to his room; having our backs against the wall. The floor screamed again but louder this time, i looked behind me. Lucas closed his eyes, hoping not to make another sound. I turned back around, I leaned towards the door and I could see a body shaped under the covers. Lucas handed me a Nerf gun and he had one also. We walked slowly in the decorated room of Jamie's, taking every step carefully. I could feel my heart racing, beating out of my chest. The smile on my face couldn't move. I looked up at Lucas, he had this grin on his face. Lucas quickly pulled the covers off of the bed, reviling a basketball and pillows. He wasn't in the bed, I stepped back; he was tricking us. Lucas looked up at me, Jamie was around here somewhere.
"Oh no." Lucas whispered.
"Ahhh!" We heard a scream, Jamie was at the door; shooting us with his Nerf gun. Lucas fell back, landing on Jamie's bed. Jamie looked at me, carefully raising his nerf gun. "I'm sorry mom." He said slowly.
"It's okay, pumpkin. Just do it." Those were my last words, he closed my eyes and screamed as the dart hit me.
The air brushed through my hair, making me breathe in the cold. The streets of Tree Hill had amazing people walk all over it, the life of this town was amazing. I grew up here and I made my life here, I couldn't think of anything better than this place. I turned to my left, entering my store with danger in my eyes. As I walked in, I looked at my mother and Millicent. There were people already in my store, shopping for clothes. I held on tight to my purple purse, matching my black dress. My mother walked up to me, I puffed my chest a little; so that I could stand strong. I hate my mother but shes being a great grand-mother to my son Jamie, I cant keep her away from him.
"I'm going over to the Haley and Nathans house for Jamie's birthday," She smacked her lips, looking at me up and down. "Why are you having his birthday party there anyways?" She crossed her legs and her arms. I huffed.
"Because Haley and Nathan wanted to do something special for Jamie's 4th birthday." Brooke shot back, I rose my eyebrow. I tried to get a little smart with her, She shouldn't be asking questions about my son. Victoria stood back a little, she cleared her throat.
"I could have thrown him a party." Victoria slowly said to me. Her voice was a little low and shaky.
"Maybe next time mother." I whispered, I gave Millicent a look and she started to grab her things. I turned around and walked out of the store with Millicent beside me. She caught up to me as I walked to my car, Millicent grabbed her preset from the backseat from my car and walked to the passenger side.
"Your mother was a pain in my ass." Millicent huffed.
"Tell me something that I dont know." I rolled my eyes, I only could imagine what my mother is going through right now, getting on peoples nerves and having every issue with my designs.
"I think she just needs a man in her life." Millicent shrugged, I sharply turned my head towards her. My eyebrows narrowed. She was talking about sex, disgusting. I shiver with the thought of my mother having sex with another man.
"Disgusting." I pulled off into the sunset, ready for my son to have the best day of his life.
I pulled up into Haley's driveway, the whole house was decorated. The theme was dinosaurs, it was absolutely perfect. I gave her the money and she helped me out, believe it or not but she was more creative than I was. I came out of the car, completely shocked how this was thrown together. Millicent walked past me and walked inside, I could hear everyone gathering around and welcoming her in. Lucas came out of the house with his arms up in the air.
"So," He walked over to me, looking up at the house. "What do you think?" Lucas asked me, I looked up at him. He couldn't have done this?
"You did this?" I whispered to him, he looked up at the place again and down at me. He nodded, closing one of his eyes from the sun beaming on it.
"Yea, Haley helped but mostly me." Lucas shrugged, he noticed that I didn't answer the question. "So?" He said excitedly. He put his arm around my shoulders, pulling me in closely.
"This is amazing, How does Jamie like it?" I bit my lip. Lucas chuckled.
"I thought he was going to pass out." Lucas smirked from the look on Jamie's face. I looked up at him, he made my heart race every time. I never felt loved like this before, he was the only person that I wanted to be with and now I have everything that i could ever wish for. He was warm...warmer than the sun.
"I love you, Lucas Scott." I confessed again. His face brightened as he smiled, eyes lit up even twinkled. He looked delighted that I said that to him, pleased. He had that one dimple on his left cheek. His mouth quirked at the corners. He grasped my hand and pulled me in closer. I stared deep into his eyes, suddenly seeing what I have seen years ago. Every time i look into his eyes, he makes me fall in love with him all over again. He leaned closer and whispered "i love you" then he kissed me with much enthusiasm and meaning with every second that passed. We kissed until i had to pull away for a breath. He chuckled a bit and, cradled me into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me as we slowly walked to the house.
"We should probably go inside, Jamie might be looking for us." Lucas blinked. I tapped on his chest with a cheesy smile, I hated that smile but he loved it. We walked in and it was even more beautiful, the backyard was filled with children and balloons, a playhouse. I looked around and I couldn't see Jamie anywhere, neither could Lucas. The troubles that happen here, he shakes me. Lucas let go of me. "I'll go look for Jamie." He kissed my forehead and walked into the back. HONK! HONK! A loud horn was blown in my ear, I screamed in fear because of the sound and the one making it. It was a clown with its creepy smile and creepy walk. It made a goofy laugh that made me shiver. Haley ran up to me, wondering what happened. The clown walked away with a glossy smile.
"What. Was. That?" I lost my breath from the clown jumping at me.
"Eee," Haley tightened her face, making a 'yikes' look. "That is the clown that Nathan brought here." Haley started to lead me into one of the rooms. We walked into the kitchen, I started to make extra juice.
"Have you seen Jamie?" I narrowed my eyebrows, I didn't want to worry but he was my son. Haley started to think, she had her thinking face on.
"No but Nathan might know." Haley poured sugar in the pitcher, I started to stir. "So, how is life?" Haley asked me.
"Ugh, people. Investors." I rolled my eyes, thinking about my mother. "They're just so rude and needy." I whined.
"Brooke, You are not holy either. You-" Haley stopped herself from saying anything mean.
"What Haley?" I smiled playfully.
"You insult people." Haley pushed the words out of her soft pink lips.
"I dont insult people, I describe them." I nodded, Haley let out a small laugh. I leaned on the table, grabbing one of the cookies from a blue plate. Haley frowned at me, I chuckled. I looked down, biting my nails. "Life is not so great." I tried to smile but it wasn't working. Haley opened one of cabinets, looking for a knife.
"How so?" Haley groaned, stretching her legs.
"Jamie has cancer." I hesitated, my voice breaks. Haley dropped the knife from her hands, she walked over to me.
"What?" She lost her breath. I huffed, taking a deep breath in as she took one out.
"My four year old son as cancer." I tried to not cry but my voice told a different story. Haley didn't know what to do or say, she just had that look in her eyes; the worried look.
"What are you going to do?" Haley asked, I didn't answer. "Have guys seen a doctor?" Haley stood up as I walked over to the cabinet, trying to pick up the knife.
"Yes, Haley. Its bad..." I had tear run down my face. "Its really bad." I sobbed, she pulled me in for a hug.
"Your going to get through this and your not doing this alone...you have me, Nathan, Skills, Millicent, Mouth and Lucas. He's going to be okay...I promised." Haley promised me something that she couldn't keep. All of a sudden there was a loud bang, that was very painful to my ears, it sounded exactly like a gun shot. Haley and I fell to the ground, the sound ringed in my ear for minute. My fingers clinch to the palms making a fist, I stopped breathing for a moment, leaving my chest really tight, my eyes become wide as can be, I started to breathe heavy, you could see the my veins bulging out from the neck. My brows drew together as I bit my lip, I coughed from taking in so much air. I could still hear the gun shot in my ear, Haley helped me up from the ground. I ran from the kitchen to the backyard. I stopped, my heart stopped with my feet. Children ran around with fear in there eyes, tears with them. They screamed in terror, running towards the front door. Parents grabbed children and screamed with them, everything went in slow motion. The balloons flew into the air, separating themselves from one another. The play houses were deflating into nothing, cake was everywhere and cups.
"Jamie." I couldn't hear my voice, I guess I whispered. I swallowed deeply, trying to catch my breath. "Jamie!" I yelled out, I took a step forward but my knees became weak. I felt like I was going to throw up everywhere. I looked around, I couldn't see Lucas either. "Lucas!" My voice was raspy, he wouldn't be able to hear me. There was no sound, just screams. I realized panic had set in but had no idea how to calm myself. My heart was racing and I had trouble breathing, let alone figure out what the next rational move should be. All I had was the worst in my head, the two people that mean the most to me...are...I dont know. "Jamie!" I held onto my stomach. "Lucas!" I screamed, my voice was getting louder. I could feel my pulse beating in my ear. "Jamie!" I yelled even louder, taking all my breathe away. Again...no sound. "Lucas!" My scream was more terrified. I couldn't lose them both, I can't.