A/N: J.K. Rowling's wonderful mind owns the entire Harry Potter world, not me. I don't even have a mailbox there):

Chapter One- Total Eclipse of the Heart

I promised myself I wouldn't fall for him. I told everyone that I wouldn't. It would be a stupid pairing, really. Sirius Black and me? It's just too weird. Yeah, yeah, Lily Evans started to go out with James Potter and she promised everyone that wouldn't happen. But these are two completely different stories. I mean really. Sirius Black and I? Never gonna happen.

But then why did I agree to get a drink with him at the Three Broomsticks? Crap… This is not going to end up well. He's a playboy, that's what he is. He's played plenty of girls before, and now he's going to do it to me. No. He won't. I won't let it get that far. I'll do something he never saw something. I'll cut off the date. Now that will send him for a tail spin!

"Hey," his sexy voice startles me. Jeez, this boy really is smokin', isn't he? His straight, black hair swoops across his forehead so perfectly, I just want to push it away and plant a kiss on those perfect lips of his. Of course, I don't. Because he's just sexy. That's all. I don't have feelings for him whatsoever.

"Oh, hey, I actually was just thinking about you," I reply.

"Yeah, well I do have that effect on women," God, sexy and arrogant. That's a deadly combination. He takes a seat, "We still on for tonight?"

Oh! My perfect opportunity! "Oh… Crap, Sirius… I actually have that Potions essay to do," Yes! So suave, May, so suave.

"We had an essay?"

Now is a time when I'm actually glad Sirius is a slacker, "Yeah, I think you were asleep or something." He puts a pondering face on but then it quickly changes to a look that looks like what I said actually made sense.

"Oh… Okay," he stammers, "Well, then. I guess some other time?"

"Yeah, absolutely." Not in a million years.

"Okay," his usual smirk is back, "Cool," Then he walks out of the library. Gosh, I'm surprised he even put a toe in here.

"Was that Sirius Black?" I turn around to see a little girl from Gryffindor. I think she's a second year.

"Yeah,"

"Oh, my gosh, he is so cute. Did he just ask you out? I heard you said you couldn't. Are you crazy? Do you know what I'd do to get a date with Sirius Black?" See what I mean? He has an effect on girls. And he's not afraid to play to his advantage.

"Yeah, but it's different. We're friends."

"So? He's so sexy!"

I give the little girl an awkward smile and then pack up my things. I leave without saying good-bye. Geesh, that was weird.

"May!" I hear Lily call my name, and for once, James isn't glued to her hips—or lips for that matter.

"Hey," I say and she leads me to the Willow tree by the lake.

"Did you just blow off Sirius?" Holy flapjacks, news spreads fast!

"Oh, no, I didn't!" Yes, I did. But I don't want to tell Lily because then she'll tell James and James will tell Sirius and then this will all turn into one big mess. Believe it or not, I actually like Sirius' friendship. I happen to like it a lot. "I just have a Potions essay," I make sure I tell her the same lie I told Sirius.

"Oh that's BS, May!" she replies, "We haven't had a Potions assignment in weeks! And plus, Slughorn loves you, he wouldn't care if you skipped class for the rest of the term!"

Crap. Now I'm screwed. I should just tell her the truth. "I just don't like him like that," I half-whisper. You never know what Sirius lover is lurking in the bushes.

"Well, that's what I thought about James at first, but now look at us!" Yes, because Lily Evans and James Potter is the ideal couple.

"Lily, don't do that!"

"Why, because you know you'll end up liking him?"

"Because he's mean! And everybody seems to think he's this sex god, but really all he is, is mean! I mean have you seen what he's done to some of the girls he's dated?"

Lily looks like I have a good point, but she doesn't give up, "That's because he didn't like them, May!"

"What if he doesn't like me, Lily? Have you ever thought of that?" Now I'm angry and I have no idea why. I'm not mad at Lily, no, she's amazing, that girl. I'm mad at Sirius. I'm mad at him for hurting all of those girls while not having a care in the world.

Whatever. I don't need to explain anything. They're my feelings, and I'm the one that has to deal with them, not everyone else. I get pick up my stuff and start walking away.

"Wait, May!" I hear her call, but I don't look back. I know I shouldn't be such a bitch to her, but I hope she will understand me later.

I sass the password to the Fat Lady and she reluctantly opens the door. I go straight up to my room without saying hello to anyone.

Soon enough, Lily comes up to the room. I know what's coming and I feel almost bad, "I'm sorry, May… if you don't want to go out with Sirius, you don't have to… He just told me that he really liked you, and I thought you'd be good for him."

See? She says she's sorry when it isn't even her fault. "No, Lily," I start, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been such a bitch." Lily gives me a look that makes me sorry I said the b-word. She's awesome, that Lily. I'm supposedly the 'wild child' of our class. Lily's the angel, and the Head Girl. But we've been really great friends since I can remember. She keeps me in check so I don't do anything irrational, and sometimes I get her to let loose for a little bit.

"I do think you'd like him, though, May," Lily continued while pretending to brush lint off of her clothes.

I roll my eyes and start to paint my nails an electric blue color. I hear Lily comment that this nail polish is too bright, and I chuckle. She's so innocent, it's adorable. She then walks downstairs to meet up with James.

When my nails are finally dry, I go downstairs too, planning to deny the fast that I was every angry today. Lily, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter are all sitting by each other and they're all laughing. Sirius is making hand gestures, and I come to a conclusion that he's telling a story. He always has the funniest stories. Honestly, I have no idea where they come from.

Then he sees me, leaves the group and ushers me to a table. He sits down, and I do the same. "Hey," he says.

"Hey," I say.

"You don't really like me, do you?" He asks and puts on that dashing coy smile of his.

"I like you plenty, Sirius," I respond and put my elbow on the table. I then continue to twirl a piece of my hair. I suddenly realize what I'm doing and stop.

"Then why don't you go out with me? I'd treat you good, you know." Of course you would. Until you get over me. I smile and shrug my shoulders. "C'mon, May! How could I ever hurt you?" Then he reaches over the table and touches my face.

"Okay!" I blurt out, "I'll go out with you!"

"All righty, I'll see you tomorrow," he says and stands up, "Hey, no cancelling, either," he warns and points a finger at me. I melt a little inside and I promise I won't cancel. He walks away with a little smirk on his face. In the corner of my eye, I see Lily give him the thumbs up sign. That's when I realize what I did.

I let Sirius Black dazzle me.