Missing

Disclaimer: I don't own YGO or Evanescence or the song "Missing".

NOTE: Song lyrics

Ryou's thoughts (and actions and speech in his POV)

Ordinary actions/speech in 3rd person/none POV

Chapter 1 –

Please, please forgive me,

I'm so sorry…but looking back I can't see why I didn't do this sooner.

But I won't be home again.

I'm never coming back, Bakura. Never.

Maybe someday you'll look up,

Maybe tomorrow…maybe in a year.

And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:

Still hung-over, no doubt.

Like you are every morning, only to get completely pissed that night.

"Isn't something missing?"

It might take a while for you to realise, so I left you a note.

You won't cry for my absence, I know –

You've never cried for anyone, not even yourself.

You forgot me long ago.

You always seem to wake up with concussion of what you did to me in the morning.

Am I that unimportant...?

I didn't know I meant so little…

Am I so insignificant...?

I didn't know…honest…

Isn't something missing?

Don't you see?

Isn't someone missing me?

Can't you tell I'm not there anymore!

Even though I'm the sacrifice,

You said you'd do anything for me.

You won't try for me, not now.

What a lie.

Though I'd die to know you love me,

To have even one night without raping and the smell of alcohol on your breath…I'd give anything to fall asleep and wake up in your arms.

I'm all alone.

I am now…I'm running away, Bakura.

Aren't you proud?

Isn't someone missing me?

Will Yugi and the others notice? Will they wonder what's wrong when I don't turn up at school?

Please, please forgive me,

I'm so sorry it came to this.

But I won't be home again.

I'm never coming back to you.

I know what you do to yourself,

You drink yourself stupid, then hurt the one you love.

I breathe deep and cry out,

I'm going to scream it…I'm sat in an alleyway somewhere in New York.

Isn't that full of suicides waiting to happen?

"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

There, I yelled it.

Even though I'm the sacrifice,

I'll sacrifice my life, my friends, my school…anything to get away from seeing you, the one I love, like that.

You won't try for me, not now.

You will never try for me.

Though I'd die to know you love me,

I'd give anything. Even my life. Even my mind. Anything.

I'm all alone.

I'm so alone…is this what you felt in the Ring?

Isn't someone missing me?

Aren't you missing me, Kura?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,

I'll cut and slash until I die or go numb…whichever comes first, really.

Knowing you don't care.

You never cared if I bled before.

And if I sleep just to dream of you

Which I'm sure I'll do. I'll dream of you being the old you…the one I fell in love with.

I'll wake without you there,

And you won't be able to hurt me when I tell you what I dreamt.

Isn't something missing?

Am I missing to you, yet?

Isn't something...

-THUD!-

An elderly man looked round the corner, wondering what the "thud" had come from. He gasped.

Crimson blood spread across the ground towards him…

…coming from the slashed out wrist of a teenage boy.

A note was clutched in his good hand.

The man took it, too curious to care about police.

'Dear Stranger –

My name is Ryou Bakura. I come from England, but for the last few years I have been living in Domino City with my lover, Bakura, and my friends. Please don't let authorities find this. I don't want Bakura to go to jail.

Tell him I love him, if you can…and tell him…it was me missing.

Now he's alone.

Sincerely, Ryou Bakura.'

Hmm, so depressing. Oh well. Please review, much thankies for reading, naioka1992 - xoxo