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From the first second I took a breath everything was confusing. The first thing I saw was Stefan, but it didn't feel the same, something was different.

"Elena, Elena!" I heard someone saying my name, shouting my name. The door flung open and Damon came running through with Meredith hot on his heels.
"No, Damon. You can't go in there!"

When I looked at him worry was evident on his face. I closed my eyes and I saw something.

We were standing alone. On the road, I had just gotten off the phone to Bonnie when I saw him. A handsome, strange, dark man; it was Damon. He called me Katherine. We talked a bit and he compelled me. He compelled me to get everything I was looking for before he vanished into thin air.

I opened my eyes, and I was back in the present.

"I met you first?" I said to Damon, questioning, even though I knew the answer.

Stefan sighed and looked hurt, just like a mother would be when her first-born child says dad as her first word.

He took three long strides and sat down in the chair next to the bed I was on. I took this time to look at my surroundings. I was in a room, clearly a hospital. I saw everyone I loved but they all looked sad, upset, like someone had just died. I saw Jeremy and Bonnie; they looked like they were trying to not make eye contact with me. Caroline was there too, but alone. Tyler! Oh no. I remembered Caroline's call saying that Tyler didn't make it. I looked at her in heartache. Then I looked at Stefan. Really looked at him. He had red-rimmed eyes, from crying I presumed. He also didn't look at me.

I then remembered about Matt.

"Elena…" I heard a voice. The blood was pounding too loud in my ears to hear the rest. My head was spinning. I couldn't even make out whose voice it was.

"Where is Matt?" I said in a voice that was barely above a whisper, but everyone heard me and stopped talking.

"Elena, he is fine. He's in another room in a stable condition." Meredith replied.

I looked over to Damon, he was the only one looking at me. He was the only one that looked somewhat happy.

"Will someone please explain to me what is happening? Why can no one even look at me?" I demanded. I needed answers.

Meredith coughed, clearing her voice. "When you collapsed earlier today, everyone was so panicked I didn't want anyone to know how bad your condition was so, I healed you. With vampire blood. Damon's to be precise." Stephan growled under his breath at this and Damon looked almost smug.

"Go on." I said wearily.

"When your car went off the bridge and Stephan came to get you, he saved Matt just in time. Any later and he would have died, but he couldn't get to you in time Elena. There was nothing he could have done."

I knew what this meant. And by the looks of everybody's faces, so did everyone else. I was a vampire. Well, I was becoming a vampire, in order to complete the transition I needed to drink blood. Human blood.

Stephan spoke up at this point. "I could teach you to survive like I do. I can teach you to drink animal blood. It's not that bad. You wouldn't have to hurt anybody."

"And then what?" Interrupted Damon. "Be like you are? In pain everyday. Having so hard to control herself. Having the urge there every second of every day for the rest of her life."

"I need some air." I muttered. I also needed to confront Damon about that memory I had earlier. "Damon?"

"Sure."

I walked outside of the hospital room and saw nurses and doctors walking around everywhere. My throat suddenly became burning. I could see everyone's veins in their neck more prominent and distinct. I could smell the sweet smell of something that was almost whispering for me to have a drink. Just a sip wouldn't hurt anyone right?

I fought against it.

"Damon … I, I need to get out of here. Now."

I couldn't concentrate on anything. The burn was so strong. The smell so sweet. I felt someone grab my hand, Damon, and I let him drag me out. I felt a big gush of air and suddenly I could breathe again. I was in the forest, away from civilisation. It was dark, probably around 10pm. All I smelt now was the trees and the earth. I closed my eyes and took a big breath when I let it out I saw something else. My eyes stayed closed and it was like I was watching a movie. A movie of me, and Damon.

"I love you, Elena. And its because I love you that I cant be selfish with you, why you cant know this. I don't deserve you, but my brother does. God I wish you didn't have to forget this. But you do."

I opened my eyes and was brought back to the forest.

"You compelled me to forget." This time it wasn't a question.

"I'm sorry Elena. I needed to tell you but I guess I was just … scared. Scared of the rejection I knew I was going to get. I feared it." He replied, knowing exactly what I was talking about.

"Damon…"

"No I know, I know. Trust me, I know. I have heard it all before. You love Ste—"

"Let me finish. You shouldn't have made me forget Damon." A stray tear came from my eye. "I went with Stephan, chose Stephan because I thought it was the right choice. Everyone told me that it was the right choice." Another tear. "But now I have to go with what I think is right. What I want. And the truth is, that I love you Damon. I always have." I looked at the floor as more tears fell. I felt two arms wrap around me and I hugged him back. We stood there for what could have been hours, just standing there, wrapped in each other's arms. And finally he spoke.

"You do not know how long I have dreamed about this Elena." He sighed and then stepped back a bit.

My eyes were red from crying and so were his.

"We have a lot to talk about." He said.

"I don't want to go back in there yet." I replied. I took his hand and smiled at him, he smiled back.

"Then we wont." He responded.

We sat up against one of the trees. I thought about everything. I knew I was happy with my decision. And I knew that if I didn't feed soon I was going to die, so I started with that.

"Damon, will you help me?"

"With anything. What do you need help with?"

"I need you to teach me to … um … to feed." I said, ashamed.

"Of course. Do you want me to go and get a blood bag?" He said, after happily sighing.

"No, I want you to teach me how to do it properly. With a person." I stood up and brought him with me before finishing. "You need to stop me before I drink too much and I am going to heal them after. And you need to teach me how to do that compelling thing properly. Agreed?"

He smiled and nodded his head. "Agreed." He stopped and cocked his head to the side. "Just in luck, there is a girl coming our way, probably a hiker. Are you ready?"

I thought about it before answering. I sighed and nodded my head. "Ready as I will ever be."

"Lets go then."

Still holding my hand, Damon led me towards a girl who was setting up a tent. Probably around her late 20's, early 30's. She looked at me, smiled and then looked at Damon. Damon walked up to her and said something to her.

"Don't move. Don't scream. Don't be afraid." He then bit her neck. So gracefully he could have been kissing her. I got a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. Jealousy? Could have been. It ended quickly though and he walked back over to me.

"Together?" He whispered, as he put his hands on my shoulders.

"Together." I breathed back. So quiet only vampire hearing would have picked it up. He slid his hands down my shoulders, down my arms, and gripped one of my hands. He walked me over to the lady and he didn't need to say anything else.

That sickly sweet smell from the hospital was back. Not as strong but it held the same effect. I latched straight onto her neck. The feeling of having blood to satisfy the burn in my throat was incredible. I drank. I drank as much as I could. I put one hand on her head and one hand on her arm to try and get her closer to me. It soon finished and I felt two very strong hands trying to pry me off. But I was strong too. I kept fighting until I heard a voice. Damon's voice.

"Elena, you have to stop. You're killing her. Come on. Stop."

It took everything I had to stop drinking and pull myself away. I stepped back and looked at the girl. Her eyes were closed and the only thing holding her up was Damon. I got this indescribable pain in my gums. I started moaning and Damon let the girl fall to cradle me in his arms.

"It hurts!" I screamed. "Make it stop, Make it stop!" I shouted. I started crying.

Damon was whispering soothing words in my ear. I kept screaming, kept shouting until the pain stopped. Something in my mouth was different. I slid my tongue over my teeth and felt my new fangs. I smiled, knowing that the worst was over. I could also feel the veins I knew I had on my face. Damon looked at me. He gently touched the veins with an awestruck expression.

"Beautiful." He whispered.

He soon shook himself out of his daze and helped me retract my fangs and the veins on my face.

"Just breathe. Soon you will be able to do it effortlessly." He smiled as I concentrated. Before long they were gone.

Then I noticed the girl on the floor.

"Oh god!" I shouted. "The girl."

I ran over to her and knew that she was alive; I could here her faint heartbeat. After seeing all the vampires in my life do it, I already knew what to do. I bit my wrist and held it up against her mouth. She drank some of my blood and I saw the bite mark on her neck disappear. She stood up and looked confused.

I looked back at Damon and he raised his eyebrows. "That was great. I think somewhere in you, you know how to do this bit."

It was true. I did. I looked at her, straight in the eyes. I concentrated on getting her to do what I wanted.

"You do not remember us. The only thing you remember is that you were out here setting up your tent. That's all you remember."

"That's all I remember." She said, dazed. I had seen enough compulsion to know that it had worked.

She stumbled off and went right back to setting up her tent.

"Wow, that was so cool!" I exclaimed, as I ran to Damon, way faster then I meant to. I crashed into him and ended up knocking him over, me going with him. We were on the floor in each other's arms, laughing hysterically.

"I guess you don't know your own strength." He laughed. "Or speed!"

We laughed some more and then he jumped up dragging me with him. "Do you want to test it out?" He said, as he winked at me.

"Would I ever!" I laughed.

"Okay, now all you got to do is –"

I didn't hear the rest of his sentence. I was already running at full speed through the forest. It was so much easier then I thought. I evaded trees carefully and made sure no one saw me. I heard Damon come up behind me and I giggled as I pushed myself to run further. He tackled me to the ground and we went rolling at least 20 metres. I wasn't even tired or hurt, at all.

When we finished rolling on the floor, I ended up on top of him. Giggling, I looked into his eyes and all I could see was love and affection, with a bit of lust thrown in. I did the next thing that came into my mind. I kissed him.

He looked a little thrown off but soon recovered. I had been longing to kiss him ever since the hotel. I had been replaying that moment in my head ever since it happened. He was the best kisser. Better then Matt, better then Stephan.

Caroline was telling me about this one day. I was so horny.

"Do you want to come back to the house?" He said after we stopped making out.

"Yep." I replied, we got up and ran all the way back to the boarding house. It was quicker then any car would have been. No wonder he hardly drove one...