Summary - Set just after the end of the episode, ''Centennial Charmed'' from Series 5. Paige realises she might have made the wrong decision by vanquishing Cole, because she starts to miss him. How will this end? Will Cole come back? And will they get together? Just read if you want to find out.

A/N: This is my newest story, for the first chapter I've used the song ''Silence'' by Sarah Mclachlan.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from this story, if I make one up you'll notice it. Neither do I own the song Silence, I just borrowed it for this chapter!

The truth within.

1: Silence.

Paige orbed back into the Manor, each hand holding one of her sisters. ''I still can't believe he's really gone.'' Phoebe said, letting go off Paige's hand.

''He really is Pheebs and he won't be coming back this time.'' Piper replied. Paige let out a small sigh, he wasn't coming back. They, or maybe acutally she, had just vanquished Cole, for the 2nd time and this time foregood. But had it been the right choice? Of course It had been the right choice, Paige, stop worrying and be happy. She told herself, though something in her mind kept nagging about it. She hated Cole didn't she? Then why couldn't she just be happy?

''Thank you so much, Paige.'' Phoebe said, hugging her baby-sister tightly. ''Huh, what?'' Paige said, coming back from her reverie. She hugged back, though not really knowing why she was being hugged. ''Thanks, for getting him out of my life.'' Phoebe let go off her sister again and smiled. ''Oh – uh Yeah, you're welcome.'' Paige said absent-midendly. Why couldn't she let go? ''Paige, hunny? Are you feeling okay?'' Piper askied, her voice carrying a slight tone of worry. Paige smiled slightly to herself, that was Piper, always worrying. ''Yeah. I'm just, a little confused you know. – I mean he's finally gone. I think I'm just going to bed, I need to lie down.'' She said with a slight sigh.

Give me release
witness me
I am outside
give me peace

Piper nodded, ''Okay sweetie, you've had a rough day. Do you want me to make you some tea?'' her oldest sister offered. Paige shook her head, ''No thanks, I just need to think.'' She smiled slightly at Phoebe, who seemed very happy and then made her way upstairs slowly. Stop thinking about it Paige, and get on with your life. She told herself as she walked into her bedroom and closed the door carefully. What was wrong with her. Her biggest enemy was dead, again there was no more Source and Piper was pregnant, so many good things were going on. Then why couldn't she just be happy? Paige walked over to her large four poster bed and sat down on it.

She smiled slightly as she remembered how Cole had helped her to orb, he had scared her which had made her disappear in a swirl of blue lights and that was how she had found the trigger.

God, stop thinking about him, Paige. He is a cheating, lying bastard with no feelings. She thought, but then remembered how sweet he had been to her when he had been stripped of his powers.

He had actually stood up for her. Paige shook her head in an attempt to get rid of her thoughts, but nothing worked. She sighed heavily and got up, I need to find out why I'm thinking this. She said to herself and walked over to her bedroom door. Paige locked it quietly and made sure none of her sisters came upstairs to check up on her, then she orbed out.

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides.

Only a moment later, Paige's appearance started to take form in the large dark room. She had orbed herself into Cole's old bedroom. Paige looked around the room and took a deep breath, it felt slightly awkward to be here. It was really quiet and really dark, Paige could barely see the shape of the nice bed that took up half the space of the room by standing in the middle of it. She walked over to the lightswitch and tried to turn the light on, but nothing happened. Power must've been cut off. She thought as she made her way over to the bed slowly. She didn't exactly know why she had orbed herself into Cole's old apparment, but now that she was here she felt calmer and her mind wasn't racing as much anymore. Paige took place on the soft bed carefully and let her porcelain white hand run down the neatly made sheets, she smiled slightly to herself,

Funny that there are actually guys out there who don't make a mess and clean everything up after themselves. Her eyes started to adjust more to the darkness now and something shiny in the corner of her eye caught her attention. Paige got up and walked over to the nightstand of Cole's side, it had been a picture that was calling for her attention. A picture of Phoebe and Cole. It was a nice one, posed though. Cole had wrapped his strong, well-built arms around Phoebe's body and they were staring lovingly into each other's eyes. That picture was definitely more than a year old, and all that time Cole had never given up on Phoebe.

In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

Paige let out a strangled sob as she realised what was wrong with her. She had fallen in love with Cole. She had never really hated him, she had just pretended so that she could hide her real feelings inside. And now it was too late, too late to admit everything to him, because he was gone, dead, vanquished and he was not coming back.

She traced her finger down the photograph and bit her lower lip, trying to fight her tears back. Now that she had admitted this to herself she could feel all the hurt. Hurt because Cole had never loved her back, because he had been so happy with Phoebe and he had never wanted to give up on their marriage.

Hurt because he was gone. She put the picture back down on the nightstand and laid down on Cole's side of the bed, grabbing his pillow and hugging it tightly. Why had she never been able to admit it? Maybe they would've had a chance. Oh don't be ridiculous Paige, he hated you. He even tried to kill you a several times. You never wouldv'e had a single chance. A small voice in the back of her head said.

But what about the time when she and Phoebe had switched bodies? He had kissed her, or actually her body, though he had known it had been Phoebe who was inside of her body. Paige shook her head and breathed deeply, inhaling the typical scent that was on the pillow. Cole's scent.

Passion chokes the flower
'til she cries no more
possessing all the beauty
hungry still for more

And Paige was no longer able to fight her tears back. She started to cry quietly and let the tears flow from her cheeks onto the soft pillow. This was impossible, she was in love with a man who had always hated her. Her sister's ex-husband, he was a demon and most importantly, he was dead.

There was no way of this desire ever being fulfilled,

but the more Paige thought about never being able to have him, the more she loved him and the more it hurt.

She pulled her knees up to the pillow and just laid there, crying softly because of a love that would never come true. She didn't care if her sisters would find her bedroom empty tonight, because she didn't want to leave this room. It was the only thing that could made her feel near Cole again, even though she had always said she wanted him out of their lives, now she didn't want anything else more than being with Cole. Being able to see those gorgeous blue eyes of him again, or his stunning white smile. She let out a quiet sob and closed her eyes, not wanting to let go.

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

The next morning Paige was awoken by streams of sunlight that shone through the window upon her face. She blinked a several times before her eyes adjusted to the bright light and sat up. Remembering where she was she looked next to herself, hoping that.. – but all there was, was the once so white pillow, that was now covered in a several stains of her mascara. Paige stretched slightly and took the cover off the pillow. She got up and walked over to Cole's large wardrobe. Not sure if it was appropriate to look in somene else's closet, she opened it carefully and found a row of several expensive suits and ties.

She smiled slightly to herself, Cole had always worn suits, he rarely appeared in just a jeans and an easy shirt. She stood onto tiptoes and reached for a clean cover for the pillow, but couldn't reach it because she was too small. Paige, being frustrated, rolled her eyes and held up her hand.

''Cover!'' she called and only a moment the top cover appeared into her hand with a swirl of blue lights. Powers come in so easy sometimes.

She thought as she closed the wardrobe again. She made her way back over to the bed and gave the pillow a new clean cover and she put it back on it's place.

There now all I have to do is make the bed and no one will notice I've spent the night here.

She thought and she neatly made the bed like Cole had done that only 2 days before.


In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

Paige looked at the bed and smiled, it looked just like it had looked yesterday night. Last night she had gotten an idea, she was going to summon Cole, if it worked and then tell him what she had felt for him all this time. Perhaps that would make her feel better. Though she knew he didn't feel the same for her, she wanted him to know. Paige looked around the room one last time and then orbed out.

''Paige! Paige why is your door locked? Open up!'' Piper's voice said through Paige's bedroom door.

She knocked a little harder, ''Pai-..'' her voice trailed off when Paige opened the door. ''Yeah?'' she said. ''Hey, didn't you hear me knocking?'' Piper asked her baby-sister. ''No, sorry – I ..I just orbed home, my charge needed me earlier.'' Paige blocked her doorway so that Piper wasn't able to see that bed that hadn't been slept in. ''Oh, okay well I just wanted to let you know that breakfast is ready and if you feel like it I have french toast for you.'' Paige smiled, this was why she loved Piper, well not only because of her cooking abilities of course, but because she was so caring. She was like the mother of the Manor.

''Okay, thanks I'll be down in a minute.'' Paige told her.

Piper nodded, apparently satisfied with that answer and disappeared around the corner again. Paige smiled slightly and quickly sorted her hair and her face out, there were still some mascara left-overs on her cheeks from last night and she removed them. She smiled slightly to herself in the mirror, Tonight I'll try to summin Cole.

She thought and then walked out of her bedroom, closing the door behind herself quietly and not noticing the slight magical breeze that came through her window and played with the curtains.

I have seen you
in this white wave
you are silent
you are breathing
in this white wave
I am free

A/N - I hope you liked it and I reaaaaally like/love/adore reviews, so pls hit the little blue button and let me know what you thought of this chapter! I'll try to write chapter 2 soon, but it won't go fast as I have 3 more stories to do. xxxx