Positive. Emily shook the little white stick hoping for a different result. The plus sign was very evident.
"No! No, no, no." Emily whispered as she looked at the pregnancy test. She had been broken up with Matt for three weeks now. She knew exactly when this happened. How could she have been so stupid to have break up sex in the trailer with Matt and not use protection? Yes she was on the pill, but no condom, that was the stupid part. Of course she would be in that 1%.
How was she going to deal with this? Could she really be a mom? And Matt, how was she ever going to tell him this? They were finally being civil and talking again, like before, when they were just partners, but she missed him, she missed him badly. He would think this was a ploy to get him back. What was she going to do? She sank down on the bathroom floor and let the tears spill that she had been fighting for the last 21 days. How did she fix this? How did things get so messed up?
Emily heard her alarm go off again in the other room. The words of the music sang to her heart.
"Cuz' when push comes to shove, you take what you're made of, you might bend till you break cuz it's all you can take, on your knees you look up, decide you've had enough, you get mad, you get strong, wipe your hands, shake it off, then you stand…"
Emily stood and wiped the tears from her eyes. She took a deep breath and decided that this would not break her. She was stronger than this. She would face it head on and tell Matt as soon as she saw him this morning. She got in the shower and quickly got ready for work. She drove to work nervous energy eating away at her. What was Matt going to say when she told him? How did she feel about this? What were they going to do?
Emily pulled into the parking garage across from the federal building and jogged into the entrance 30 minutes late. Something she typically did not do. Frank was the first one to greet her, ready to rub in the fact that miss follow the rules was late.
"Well Lehman, glad you could grace us with your presence. Matt even beat you in, something he's been unable to do since you haven't been there to wake him up."
"Shut up Frank." Emily snapped brushing past him, not wanting to put up with him at this moment.
"At least I didn't tell you that you look like crap. Maybe you and Flannery should just give up this game and screw each other again." Frank laughed as Emily turned and flipped him off before getting into the elevator.
"Very un-lady like Emily." Frank hollered sending up a roar of laughter from the rest of HRT.
Emily leaned against the wall, one hand protectively over her stomach rubbing the now aching area. She ignored the cramp like pains she was feeling in her abdomen as she exited the elevator and headed towards her work area.
Matt glanced up as she sat down. He noticed the dark circles under her eyes as well as the puffy bags that indicated she had been crying, again. Maybe she did miss him after all.
"I brought you coffee this morning. I hope it's not cold by now, you're a little late." Matt teased trying to gauge the situation.
"Yeah, I had a hard time getting started. Thanks." Emily replied turning to her stack of paperwork avoiding the conversation that was inevitable.
The pair worked in silence for a time until Emily's cramps became unbearable. She bit her lip and pushed away from her desk. Matt watched quietly wondering if he should ask. She held her stomach and leaned forward so her head as resting on her knees. Matt couldn't take it any longer.
"Em, are you alright?" He asked, concern lacing his voice.
"No, I feel like I'm being stabbed multiple times. I think I need to get up, but I'm not sure I can move." She whispered in obvious pain.
"Can you walk? I can help you to the bathroom if that's where you need to get to, and then I can get Cheryl or Lia. If you want." Matt replied standing and reaching out a hand to help her to her feet.
Emily leaned against Matt as they walked, arms wrapped around her waist. Matt's arm on her shoulders as they walked. Neither one cared about the office gossip at this moment. Emily stopped just short of the ladies bathroom door and let out a loud sigh and looked at Matt before pushing the door open and going in. As soon as she stood up from her chair, she felt the rush of liquid between her legs. She was bleeding and she wasn't sure what that meant exactly. She let the tears fall as soon as the door was closed behind her. She was scared.
Matt ran to Cheryl's office from the bathroom. He didn't care about the stares he was receiving, just the woman inside that bathroom and what was happening with her.
Matt knocked on the door, but didn't wait for her to answer before pushing the door open and entering, a panicked look on his face.
"Matt, what's going on?" Cheryl asked concerned by the look on her friend's face.
"It's Em. Cheryl, something's wrong. She's in pain and holding her stomach. I don't think she even knows, but you've got to help her. Cheryl I can't loose her, I can't let anything happen to her. You've got to go in there and see what's wrong and then get her help. I can't help; I don't know what to do. Cheryl do something!" Matt babbled pacing the office.
"Matt, calm down. I've never seen you like this. Where is she? I'm sure it's nothing."
"The bathroom. Please hurry." Matt pleaded tears welling in his own eyes with fear.
Cheryl headed out of the bathroom, Matt on her heels, followed closely by Lia who had heard through the grapevine about Matt helping Emily to the bathroom.
Matt debated following the ladies into the bathroom but settled for pacing outside the closed door. He couldn't here anything. He felt like his heart had stopped. He had to know what was going on. How could he have been so stupid as to suggest this break? What a break it was. It was breaking both their hearts. HE wouldn't be in this situation now if he had swallowed his pride and admitted that Emily had done the right thing that night. They couldn't let their personal life interfere or Cheryl would surely split them up, but instead he let it take over and control him. It didn't split up their partnership yet, but their relationship was in shambles.
Lia came out the door and grabbed Matt's hand and pulled him inside.
"Emily's asking for you." She said simply and then stood guard at the door.
Matt saw Emily curled up in a ball on the floor crying and immediately went to her. He brushed her hair away from her face and took her hands in his.
"Em, baby, what's wrong?" He asked showing his feelings with every touch and word.
"Cheryl, can you leave us please? And take Lia with you." Emily said with more calmness than she felt.
"Sure, we'll just show the paramedics where to come." Cheryl replied taking Lia by the hand and leading her to the elevator. Frank heard about Emily and came up in the elevator with the paramedics and Duff, both curious as to what was going on.
"Matt, I, uh, I have to tell you something." Emily began biting her lower lip.
"Em, it can wait. I'm sorry, let's talk about everything after you get checked out. I would never forgive myself if something happened to you." Matt said running his hand over her cheek just as the paramedics came in.
"Matt, I'm pregnant." Emily whispered as the EMT pushed him aside to work on Emily.
Matt was stunned. He had no idea how to take this information.
The paramedics took her pulse and vitals before helping her onto the stretcher. Matt noticed the blood on her jeans and began to panic.
"Matt, I'm scared." Emily admitted as she was pushed through the office hallways to the elevator.
"I'm coming with you. I won't leave you alone." Matt replied looking at his friends and then getting into the elevator following them down.
Frank, Cheryl, Lia and Duff took the next elevator ready to follow the ambulance to the hospital.
"Sir, you can't ride with us unless your family."
"I am. I mean, I was. I mean I have to, I promised her I wouldn't leave her and that's one promise I intend to keep." Matt stuttered a little tongue tied at trying to explain their relationship.
"Please let him come." Emily pleaded before grabbing her stomach in pain.
"Fine, let's go. Just know that anything you tell us he'll here."
Matt climbed in beside the stretcher and brought Emily's hand to his lips.
"I'm here Em, and I'm not going anywhere." Matt promised as the ambulance took off towards the hospital sirens blaring.