The characters are portrayed by the actors of Divergent.

In this story you have to be 18 to do the initiation.
So my OC will be 18 and Eric, Four, Lauren etcetera will be 24.

Chapter one – Party like a Dauntless

Guarding the fence was known to be one of the lower ranking jobs at Dauntless, but my dad loved his job. Dad was gone most of the time, but when he came home he always told me stories about the beautiful fields at Amity and how much he loved being there. Not once did he complain about his job. Hearing him talk so excitedly about something other members considered a shitty job made me love him more.
Mom was a doctor at Dauntless, since dad was gone most of the time she took care of me all by herself. She always told me that I was quite independent and that I didn't need anyone to take care of me. She always joked about me not fitting into Dauntless and sometimes I agreed with her.

"Bellrose if you don't hurry up you're going to miss the train!"

Grabbing my jacket I shrugged it on and quickly dashed through the apartment, passing my mom who shook her head at me and leaving the apartment in a rush. Being in a rush never ended well for anyone, that includes me. I ran right into someone as hard as steel, looking up I gulped realizing I ran right into Max. The main leader did not look that pleased with me, or maybe I was wrong. It was hard to tell what mood Max was in with his expressionless face.

"You should watch where you are going." He sounded rather calm about it, "These halls are quite dangerous already, with you dashing through them while you're looking down instead of ahead is life threatening."

"I'm late."

I should have apologized for bumping into him, but nothing came to mind while I looked at Max. The main leader simply stepped aside, gesturing for me to pass him.

"Well, don't let me stop you then."

I thought he would have preached to me some more, but he stepped aside like a gentleman. Something was definitely not right here. I felt like this was going to come back and hit me in the head when I wasn't looking.

"You're not going to make it if you stand here staring at me."

"Sorry."

Finally an apology! It looked like Max could appreciate it too. Running past him I made it at the train tracks on time, barely though. I had to run, jump and hope I wouldn't fall. Leaning against the wall across the door I tried to catch my breath.

"You okay?" I glanced sideways, meeting my friend's concerned gaze, "I mean girl, for a minute I thought we had to brush your brains off the pavement."

I gave her a slight push, "Hilarious, May, freaking hilarious."

Unlike my friends I couldn't joke about stuff like that, because in all honesty I did fear missing the jump and getting killed. My brains splattered across the streets of Chicago didn't appeal to me. I never mentioned my fears to my friends though. Dauntless were fearless, at least that's the crap we tell other faction members. I didn't believe in the concept of people being fearless. People always feared something. One of my fears was missing the jump, but I was sure I had plenty more.

"What's with you, you on your period?" May asked, folding her arms across her chest, "You're usually a lot more fun to hang out with."

"I ran right into Max when I tried to catch the train." I told her, trying to lighten the mood between us, "He didn't yell or punish me, but I have a feeling it will come back later."

"He didn't yell?" May sounded surprised, "Maybe he was in a hurry too? I'd watch my back if I were you." She leaned closer to me, "These Dauntless leaders always hold grudges." She whispered, "I heard Eric made Logan his personal target dummy after Logan accidently bumped into Eric at the dining hall."

"At the dining hall?" My eyes widened as I got the hint, "Did he spill food all over Eric?'

May pressed her lips together, trying to hold her laughter in as she nodded her head. I could picture it now, food all over Eric while he turned bright red trying to contain his anger. I was sure the young Dauntless leader would have wanted to snap Logan's neck. Using Logan as his personal target was him being nice.

"Logan should thank the lord for still being alive."

May smiled, bumping my shoulder with hers, "Since his punishment is over Logan is holding a party at his house. The parents are away so you know what that means."

Oh, I definitely knew what that meant. Everyone was going to get wasted, school would not be an option the next day. I definitely wanted to go. Who could say no to a Dauntless party? We knew how to have fun without giving a fuck about anything else.

"We're invited so after dinner we're going to his house." May nodded toward said guy who stood a few feet away from us, "I know your mom is not going to allow you to go so we'll just tell her you're staying with me."

"You think my mom doesn't talk to yours?" I asked May, "I'm so screwed if she finds out I lied about staying at your place."

"My mom won't kiss and tell."

I knew May's mom was cool with the partying and the drinking. She was a true Dauntless. I didn't envy May though, because even though my mom was a hardass she wasn't an airhead like most Dauntless members. She told me she transferred from Erudite so I guessed it was her Erudite roots which made my mom so rational.

"Are you nervous?"

Frowning I tilted my head sideways to meet May's gaze, "Nervous about the party?"

"No, stupid!" I rolled my eyes at May for her outburst, "The aptitude test next week."

The aptitude test was the last thing I wanted to think about. I didn't know what to expect from it, something told me that I wasn't a true Dauntless, that I didn't belong there. So instead of looking forward to initiation like most of my friends I dreaded it. The test was supposed to help you discover which faction you belong to so it shouldn't be something you feared, you should welcome it with open arms, but I was afraid the test would tell me what I knew deep down.

"Earth to freaking Bell-" May waved her hand in front of my face, trying to catch my attention, "We're here."

Pushing myself away from the wall I followed May, jumping out of the train when we reached our destination. Whenever Dauntless jumped out of the train all eyes were on us. I knew people thought we were insane for moving through town the way we did.
May grabbed my hand and ran with me through our gate, the passage was clear so we didn't need to push anyone aside so we could enter the building without breaking away from each other.

"We have faction history classes, May." I protested when she ran right past the classroom, "May!"

"Lockers first."

We didn't need to grab anything from our lockers so I was certain May was up to something. Whenever she planned something I had to stay alert. Her plans were always devious and never ended well for me.

"Stay right here." She pushed me against my locker and held up her thumbs, "Be brave!" She snickered as she walked away from me, leaving alone by the lockers.

I didn't need anything from my locker, but when I wanted to walk away I noticed Logan making his way through the crowd to reach me. The confident look in his eyes said enough. Evil May knew what Logan was planning and she helped him instead of her best friend. It made me want to choose Dauntless during the choosing ceremony just so I could kick her ass during initiation.

"Bell." Logan greeted me with that sexy smirk girls at Dauntless came to love, "I'm throwing a party tonight."

"I heard." His smirk didn't make me swoon like most girls though, "May and I are dropping by."

"Cool." I could tell the fact that I didn't stutter or bat my eyelashes at him made him want to try even harder to be charming, "Is it weird if I ask you to be my date?"

"It's kind of weird." I admitted, "But sure, why not?" It would be my chance to find out why girls were swooning over Logan the way they did.

We walked back to the classroom together, ignoring all the stares we received as we entered the room. May who was grinning like an idiot winked at me. I shook my head at her and took a seat next to the devious girl.

Dinner at the dining hall went by fast. I thought things would become awkward between Logan and I, but we actually managed to entertain each other. He needed to head back to his apartment to set things up for the party. Instead of going to May's to get ready for the party I went along with Logan to help him with getting his apartment ready.

"You sure your parents won't freak out when they notice all their beer is gone?"

Logan grinned, "They know about the party, Bell. I just had to make sure everyone stays away from the good stuff." He pointed to a cabinet, "It's all stored in there. So if you need something stronger you know where to look."

Rolling my eyes at him, I gave Logan a playful push. I had no problem with people drinking and having a good time, but I didn't need alcohol to have a good time, I could do without it just fine as well. Logan stalked across the living room and headed to the door, opening it so people could walk in when they wanted.

"So now we wait." I sat down on the couch.

Logan took a seat next to me and placed his feet on the table in front of us, "Now we wait." He grabbed onto the remote control for the stereo and turned it on, "I'm grabbing a beer, do you want one?"

He was already on his feet, walking to the refreshment table where bottles of beers were stored along with some snacks.
Handing me a bottle he sat back down next to me and sipped from his beer. The silence between us wasn't awkward, if anything I quite enjoyed his company while we listened to music and drank our beer. I knew that minute of silence would soon be over though.
Logan was the popular kid in our class, people loved flocking around him and listen to every word he said, even if everything he said was bullshit.

"Logan, dude!"

And gone was the minute of silence, just as I predicted. A bunch of guys walked into the room, heading straight for the refreshment table to grab some beers. They all looked surprised when they spotted me on the couch.

"Who is the chick?" The blonde guy who I recognized as one of Logan's close friends, Braden.

It took everything I had not to snort at his question. I raised my bottle up in some sort of greeting and tried to force a smile upon my face.

"Bellrose." I answered before Logan could.

Braden raised his bottle in a greeting as well, "Braden."

Logan and his group of friends stayed by the refreshment table, having some guy talk. I tried to eavesdrop from the couch, but it was hard to since the music blasted through the room. All I heard were mumbled words which I couldn't piece together to make a sentence.
When other peoples started to fill the room I felt less awkward, because the guys clearly needed a minute together.

I gasped when May suddenly plopped down on the armrest next to me, almost making me spill the content of my drink. She handed me a cup and nodded toward Logan.

"He said he wanted you to have the good stuff."

Placing my half empty beer bottle on the table in front of me, I carefully sipped from the cup. The liquid was strong, burning my throat and warming my belly. I had no idea what it was, but the liquid definitely did it's job. A minute ago I was still clear, now my head was spinning, making me feel like I knocked back ten bottles of beer.

"Easy, Bell." May laughed, grabbing onto my shoulder when I moved forward.

With her help I got to my feet, looking into the cup of doom which Logan prepared for me.

"This is sooooo strong." I told May who laughed again.

"Clearly!" She took my cup from me and sipped from the stuff as well, "Fucking hell!" She squealed, "What the hell is it?" She placed a hand against her forehead, "I feel like I just walked into a wall or something."

I couldn't agree more with her. May who loved to get wasted actually handed me the cup back and brushed me off.

"If I drink more of that my night's over."

I followed her gaze when I noticed the gleam in her eyes. Smirking when I saw her flirting with Braden. I didn't like the guy that much, but I knew May didn't care about personality. She just wanted to have a good time and forget about the consequences.

She pointed toward Braden, "I'm over there if you need me."

I took another sip from the liquid of doom and headed toward Logan who watched me every move. His smirk broadened when I closed in on him, his arm wrapping around my waist while he pulled me against his body. I pressed my free hand against his stomach and slowly trailed it up, letting it rest against his chest.

"How is it?" I followed his gaze to the cup I was holding.

"Strong." I answered, taking a huge gulp from the liquid and handing it back to him, "You can have the rest."

Logan took the cup from me and knocked it back in one go. That was such a bad idea, it was a miracle he was still standing on his feet after that. I closed my eyes when I felt his lips press against my neck and clutched onto his shirt while I enjoyed the feel of his lips traveling up my jaw and slowly heading toward my lips. I trailed my hands up his shoulders and dug in when I felt his lips press against mine.
The kiss was wet and sloppy, but I still enjoyed it. It was a drunken kiss, which actually made me forget about everyone else in the room.
In the background I heard some guys cheering and calling crude things, but I was too caught up in making out with Logan that I didn't pay attention to their childish behavior.

Logan pulled out of the kiss and pressed his forehead against mine, "Let's go somewhere private."

In the back of my mind a little voice screamed to me to get away from him, but my body was longing to be touched by Logan. I let Logan grab my hand and lead me down the hall. He opened a door which I assumed led to his bedroom, and locked it behind him once we were inside the safety of his bedroom.

"Logan we-"

He pressed his lips against mine again, swallowing my protests. I instantly wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my body against his. The sounds of our heavy breathing filled the room, we were both clawing at each other trying to get as close as possible to each other as we could. Logan walked us to the bed and let me fall on top of it. Carefully he took my boots off and let them fall on the ground, kicking his own boots of in the process as well. Slowly he crawled on top of me and settled between my legs.
The little voice in my head was drowned out by the thumping I had after drinking that liquid of doom. The room was spinning and everything Logan did to my body felt freaking amazing. His fingers left a burning hot trail over my stomach while he pushed my shirt up. Within a second my shirt went over my head and got tossed on the floor as well.
His lips claimed mine again while he devoured me . He unzipped my pants and slipped his fingers into my panties. I should have stopped him right then and there, but it was hard when I couldn't focus on anything else but him. My whole body trembled when his fingers brushed over my clit. He rubbed the sensitive bud and deepened the kiss, his tongue fighting mine for dominance.
I tried tucking on Logan's shirt so he would lose it. I needed to feel his bare chest against mine, though I was still wearing my bra. I just needed to touch his bare chest.

"Logan…" I whined, moving my head to the side so he'd stop kissing me for a second, "Shirt. Off-" I threw my head back when the intense burning feeling in my core started to build up, "Now!"

Chuckling, Logan pulled away to toss his shirt aside and slipped his hand back inside my panties. It hurt when he slipped a finger inside and my whole body stiffened.

He hushed me, "It's okay I'm going to make you feel good, I promise."

He started to move his finger in and out of me, setting up a rhythm and after a while it did feel good. That burning sensation in my core started to build up again. I was about to reach that toe curling orgasm till Logan slipped another finger inside of me. It didn't hurt as much as before, but it still made me feel uncomfortable.

"Relax, baby." He whispered in my ear, "If you relax you'll enjoy it more."

I wanted to reach that toe curling orgasm again, but I wasn't into it as much as I was before. Logan didn't seem to care though. He quickened his pace, his thumb now rubbing over my sensitive clit. When he started to rub my clit again I slowly reached my toe curling orgasm again. I closed my eyes and held tightly onto Logan while I tried to focus on that feeling.
He hit something deep inside of me which made me explode like a firecracker. I threw my head back and a loud moan escaped me, echoing through the room.
It might be my imagination, but I think I heard some chuckling right outside the door. Logan had locked it, or at least I think he did. That sound though, it pulled me right out of this trance.
Placing my hands against his shoulders I tried to push him away, but somehow he didn't get the hint and pressed his lips against mine again. I wanted to call myself a strong, independent girl who didn't fall for stupid things like that, but I did. The minute he kissed me I forgot about the sounds outside and focus on Logan and his kissing.
Logan slipped my pants down my legs and somehow managed to do that without breaking the kiss, I had to applaud him for that since I couldn't even get his shirt off without being a complete disaster. He finally pulled away from me and cupped my face in his hands, the momentarily gentleness was in contrast to everything else he did the minute we locked lips. It definitely caught me off guard.

"You're so beautiful, Bell." He whispered, brushing his thumb over my lower lip, "So fucking beautiful."

He started to unzip his pants, the sound echoing through the room. I knew that it was my last moment to walk away, but I'd lie if I'd say I wasn't curious to know what everyone was always raving about. Logan wasn't a bad guy to lose your virginity to.
Before he tossed his pants to the floor he grabbed a package out of his pocket and got rid of his pants and boxers. He focused on rolling the condom onto his erection which even though wasn't that big still made me nervous.

"You need to relax, Bell, then it won't hurt."

I inhaled deeply when Logan rolled my panties down my legs. May raved on and on about her first time, she said it was fucking amazing. So I really didn't understand why this made me so nervous.
Then I felt his tip press against my entrance and really tried to relax. It didn't prepare me though, because he slowly slipped in and it hurt so fucking bad I just wanted him to stop. Logan held firmly onto my hips as he started to move, whispering my ear how much he liked it. After a while it didn't hurt that much, but unlike Logan I didn't enjoy it. The sounds he made alerted me that he was close. Then he quickened his pace which made me feel uncomfortable again and finally he stopped moving, a loud groan echoing through the room. He collapsed next to me on the bed and closed his eyes, trying to catch his breathing. Grabbing onto his shirt I slipped it over my head and glanced at Logan.

"Where is the bathroom?"

For a minute I thought he had fallen asleep, but then he pointed to a door at his right. I quickly walked to the bathroom and cleaned myself up as much as I could. Unlike the other girls my age I didn't get the appeal to the sex, it wasn't that great and kind of messy. Once I was cleaned up I peeked out the door and was grateful to hear Logan's soft snoring. Thank god he fell asleep, right now I didn't want to face him. What would I tell him? Thanks for the bad sex? Grabbing my pants and underwear off the floor I carefully slipped it on, trying to be as quiet as possible. Slipping my boots on I tiptoed out of the room and closed the door behind me. My worst nightmare came through when everyone turned to look at me with knowing eyes. Without giving them much attention I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of the strong stuff Logan was supposed to keep away from his friends. He screwed me and not in a good way so I deserved something in return.

"Where is Logan?" May was suddenly in front of me grinning at me like an idiot, "Did you two…"

"Where is Braden?" I asked in return, trying to change to subject.

May shook her head, "He is around." She grabbed onto my shoulders, "Did you?"

I pulled away from her and headed out of the kitchen, "We'll talk later."

Not giving her time to react I dashed out of the apartment, trying to dodge everyone who came into view. Somehow I managed to escape the scene without anyone stopping me. I couldn't go home though, mom would know I lied to her and she'd give me a long speech about trust and ridiculous Dauntless parties where girls like me always got in trouble. I couldn't go back to May's place either because her mom would probably find it odd I didn't come home together with May. So I ended up at the chasm.
Taking a sip from the bottle I sat down near the edge and observed the water. When the silence hit me, everything that happened today washed over me and before I knew it the tears streamed down my face and I couldn't do anything to stop them. I took another sip from the strong liquid, knowing I needed to let it all out so I could move on tomorrow. I probably looked ridiculous in an oversized shirt which clearly wasn't mine, drinking and crying at the same time. Thank god everyone I was close to was still getting wasted at Logan's party.

"Are you going to jump?"

For a second I thought I imagined that voice, because I only heard that voice during speeches by Dauntless leadership. When I glanced over my shoulder I nearly did fall forward and almost died in the chasm.

"We had no jumpers this month and I like it to stay that way." Eric moved closer to me, "So I'm ordering you to step away from the chasm."

"Isn't it the bravest thing to do?" I questioned him, "Falling into the unknown?"

"There are two types of Dauntless. The brave and the stupid."

He was so right, but all the alcohol I had consumed tonight made me a blabber mouth. I should have walked away from Eric before I'd do or say something to upset him. The last thing I needed right now was pissing off a ruthless Dauntless leader.

"Are that really the types?" I asked, raising my eyebrows at him when he took a seat next to me and stealing the bottle from me, "We always say you have the Four kind of Dauntless and the Eric kind of Dauntless."

The look he gave me should have made me fled the scene, but at this moment I quite liked Eric's presence. He made me forget about the horrible evening for just a minute. No one would ever believe me if I tell them Eric made me feel better. That he actually made me smile.

"So are you going to tell me why you're crying and drinking by the chasm? Heard there is an epic party going on-" Eric glanced at his watch, "Which Maxi is going to end right about now."

Okay, now he pulled me right back into that horrible mess. It was embarrassing that the tears streamed down my cheeks again while Eric sat right next to me. There was no helping it though. I tried taking the bottle back from Eric, but he held it up in the air, glaring at me the only way Eric could.

"That's my bottle get your own." I pouted.

I tried to brush the tears away, but they only got replaced with fresh ones so I didn't even bother with it anymore. Eric held the bottle to me, but didn't release it when I tried to take it.

"Give me a reason to give this back to you."

I released the bottle and stared back at the water, trying to let the loud sound drown my thoughts away instead of the alcohol, but that wasn't as effective.

"You know they keep raving on and on about how fucking amazing it is to have sex with someone-" I heard Eric shift beside me, but I didn't care, he asked for a reason so I was giving him one, "I didn't see the appeal though. It's awful, horrible, shameful and it made me feel like drinking and jumping into the chasm."

I felt Eric's eyes observing my face, but I refused to look at him. I spilled something to him I didn't want to tell anyone else, while I knew Eric was the last person you should spill your dark secrets to. Right now I was even wondering if I made Eric up, that he wasn't even there. That he was the voice of reason projected in the body of someone I apparently would listen to. I was definitely losing my mind.

"Then you didn't have sex with the right person."

"So you'll only enjoy it with the right person?"

"No, you'll enjoy your first time better if you do it with the right person." I snapped my head in his direction and watched him take a large gulp from the strong liquid, "After that sex is just sex. Sometimes you fucking enjoy it and other times you just enjoyed it."

So Eric was indeed something my mind made up to be the voice of reason. It had to be. The Eric everyone knew wouldn't say stuff that actually made perfect sense. Then again he was originally from Erudite and they were usually rational people.
He snapped me out of my thoughts when he got to his feet and held his hand out to me to help me up as well. I thought the preaching would start the minute we were both on our feet, yet it never came. He simply turned on his heels and headed to the narrow hallway to leave this place. He stopped right in front of it and glanced over his shoulder.

"You coming or what?"

"What?"

Then I saw that look in his eyes again, "I'll show you sex is not something you should shy away from." He must have seen the look of disbelieve in my eyes because he continued, "This is an onetime thing. I don't want that fucking asshole to be the reason why you never want to have sex again. It can be fucking amazing, Rose."

He knew my name. He actually knew who I was which surprised me more than the fact that he suggested to have sex so I wouldn't be afraid of being intimate with someone else.
Without hesitation I followed after him, not even bothering to ask myself what the hell I was doing. If I was having a weird sexual dream about Eric I never wanted it to end.
When we reached his apartment, he stopped in front of his door and turned around. His eyes narrowing on me as his look suddenly became a lot more serious than before.

"This is an onetime thing. We'll never talk about this ever again, do you understand?" He asked, looking pleased when I nodded, "Afterwards you're going straight home."

"I can't-"

He didn't let me protest, "Home."

I knew there was no arguing with him when he gave me his usual ruthless Dauntless leader look. Only a fool would challenge him when he was like that.

"I understand, Eric."