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WARNING: This story may trigger because it will contain adult themes, self-harm, rape, swearing and smut

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN DAN AND PHIL they are real people so I have no control over them, also these events have never happened to them.

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chapter one- the meeting

Dans p.o.v

People say life is like a roller coaster it has it's ups and downs but right now to me all there is are drops, long and never ending, on a constant loop, just like my life which is just one massive hell hole.

I have no friends because honestly who would want to be friends with a freak like me.

Why do I screw up everything ?

That's why I am here. Looking up at the gates of my new high school; I had to leave my old school because not many people can accept who I am. The bullying was agony. the daily beatings i received were just about bearable as well as the mental abuse, i wish they would have just left me alone. Well standing here isn't going to get this day over any faster. It's not my fault people enjoy using me as a punching bag just because I'm gay. Looking round; I think I might be better off just keeping myself to myself. If only I was invisible then life would be a whole lot simpler.

Phils p.o.v

School.

I can't think of anything that brings me more torture than this one place does every single day of my life. Preparing for another day torturous abuse. This all because I'm gay. Yep that's right gay, and the best part is I don't have the strength to fight back because if I did it would only be worse for me in the long run. I'm the schools freak and the thugs favourite prey.

Well here goes nothing. I plug my headphones into iPod and press play as muse blared out the speakers into my ears, pull my hood up to cover my face in a hope that they won't spot me making my way into the building, with my head facing the floor as to not make direct eye contact with anyone. Assuring myself that I won't come into contact with my tormentors.

Dans p.o.v

This place is bigger than it looks, as I enter the building. Achieving stares from everyone I passed in the corridor. Of course everybody noticed the new kid, it's mid term. I can't believe this, I am already drawing attention to myself and I haven't even spoken one word yet, good going dan, seriously good going. I picked up my walking pace trying to get to my first lesson with out drawing attention to myself by keeping head down, avoiding all eye contact.

Narrators p.o.v

Phil hurried down to first lesson, attempting to keep his head down and avoid abuse for as long as he possibly could. He didn't notice the strange boy coming up towards as he checked over his shoulder, as they collied together and sent each other to the floor.

'Well done dan seriously have a fucking round of applause for being a clumsy idiot and drawing attention to yourself on your first day by walking into someone, seriously well done' dan thought to himself as he stood up trying to regain his balance from before. Everybody is staring at us... Great. Not only is he the new kid but everybody is now staring giving him unwanted attention.

Dans p.o.v

I swear these people have no lives, seriously they are just stood there looking at us as though we are a circus act gone wrong, have they never seen a collision of people before? obviously not. Well the corridor is starting to clear now, so that must mean lesson is gonna start and I'm going to be late.

'I see your blind as well as a faggot are ya ha ha ha' what? Oh i see they must be the dicks of the school, and that they are quite clearly homophobic but are they talking to me? How did they know I was gay? They can't possibly know I'm gay, do I look gay? Were they even talking to me? Then i noticed the boy i walked into still on the floor, he looks like he is unpopular, they must of been talking to him. This is the first time I noticed him, I mean really noticed him. His features standing out boldly so I couldn't miss them, the guy I walked into, he is gorgeous and perfect, his crystal blue eyes and jet black hair, how could anybody not like him? Wait... What am I saying? I can't like him! I hardly know! Scratch that I know fuck all about him! I don't even know his name, but I will do when I talk to him. He curled up into ball and started to cry. Did I hurt him? I am such a terrible person, making someone who is clearly vulnerable cry, great start! I offer my hand out to help him up, he buries head further into his chest and cries

'D-don't hurt m-me p-please'

'Hey are you okay? I promise i'm not going to hurt you i just want to help you and I'm sorry I didn't mean to walk into you, I was trying to avoid eye contact with everyone and I wasn't looking where I was going and I'm dan by the way'

'Yeah i guess so, and it's fine I was doing the same and I'm phil. Your the new kid right?'

'Yep, that's me'

'You know it is a bad idea talking to me, right?'

'No I didn't, why is it a bad idea?' What could possibly be wrong about talking to him?

'As you can already tell I'm the schools punching bag, and if they see you talking to me then they will hurt you too, and I don't want that to happen to, although I have just met you I wouldn't wish this upon anyone'

This sounds like me at my old school. Well I'm definitely not going to stop talking to him, I have finally found someone like me and understands the pain I have been through.

'I have never met someone like me before'

'What do you mean?' His face filled with confusion and tilted his to one side, making him look adorable.

'I was in your situation at my old school, people aren't very accepting are they?'

'no I guess they aren't, I suppose I know that one' he said shyly, is he shy talking to me? Wow that floor looks uncomfortable I should probably help him up

'would you like some help'

'help?'

'well yeah your still on the floor , I was wondering if you wanted help getting up' did he forget he was on the floor? Man I have to stop asking so many god damn questions

'oh right, yeah please' I offered out my hand to phil to pull him up, he took hold of hand climbed back on to his feet. His touch is amazing. It's beyond anything I could have imagined. I think this going to be a good day.