a/n: This is the first Songfic to accompany my fic, Den, ai hod yu in. I suggest you check it out, but you can read these pieces as standalones. Each chapter of my fic will have at least one Songfic to accompany it. Most will have two, one from Lexa's POV and one from Clarke's POV. They will explore the emotion of the story and events in a way not told in Den, ai hod yu in. Partially I am just doing this for fun, but they add another dimension to the story.

Song: Prayer in C – Lilly Wood and The Prick (Original not remix)
Chapter: Gonplei (Fight) – Chapter 1
All songfics take place after the chapter it's accompanying and before the next chapter.
POV: Clarke toward Lexa
Notes: This deals with Clarke's feelings of being betrayed after Mount Weather and slowly feeling like she can no longer forgive Lexa in part due to Lexa not making contact with her.
Disclaimer: All quoted song lyrics are not mine and are under the rights of their respective owner(s).

"Yeah, you never said a word.
You didn't send me no letter.
Don't think I could forgive you."

Exhaling was difficult. Inhaling was even worse. Every breath was just a painful reminder that no contact had been made. Once Lexa was gone, she was gone. Never once in that week since the battle at Mount Weather had any word from the Commander been received, and that broke everything Clarke had built up.

"See our world is slowly dying.
I'm not wasting no more time.
Don't think I could believe you."

The more days that past, the more set in her decision Clarke became: All the words Lexa told her before she left weren't true. The Commander did not care about Clarke. And the blonde herself had no more reason to believe any word that had ever come out of the woman's mouth.

"Yeah, our hands will get more wrinkled.
And our hair will be grey.
Don't think I could forgive you."

Each beat of her heart was a reminder of the way it would pound in her chest at Lexa's shows of power, compassion, and mercy. But it was also a reminder that she was closer and closer to her last beat, and in that moment she was certain she could never forgive the Commander until her last heart beat.

"And see the children are starving.
And their houses were destroyed.
Don't think they could forgive you."

Flashbacks to the missile hitting Ton DC were the worst. Nothing could save Clarke from the carnage displayed in her mind. Each picture started to ingrain itself deeper within her mind, and with each image placed neatly in front of her closed eyes the thought of Lexa ever earning her forgiveness became a far distant memory.

"Hey, when seas will cover lands.
And when men will be no more.
Don't think you can forgive you.
Yeah, when there'll just be silence.
And when life will be over.
Don't think you will forgive you."

Ice started to run through Clarke's veins with every step she took. The bitterness and anger she felt froze solid in place, and not only was Clarke's forgiveness on the line. But the ability for the Lexa for forgive herself.

"Don't think you will forgive you."