But you
By Stephni Warner
April 2000
I came from war
Despondent and alone
The wish for life
All but gone
You sent her
To me unbidden
Asking that
Which was forbidden
You taste
Of fine mulled wine
Filling all the corners
Of my mind
Twas not her
But you
You show me
What can be done
When mind and body
Act as one
You heal me
With your kiss
Each moment
One of bliss
You help calm me
In the night
Your passion gentle
Yet showing your might
Twas not her
But you
Master
Father
Demon
Lover
You who
Each night
Lead me to
Greater heights
Blood and passion
Wrestle as one
At each dawning
Of the new day sun
Twas not her
But you
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You left us
For a time
Perhaps to taste
Another's wine
Soon after
I found
One whose love of God
Was sound
Her arguments
And fasts
Left images
Which would last
Twas not her
But you
I came to her
And spoke of fate
She spoke to me
Of others hate
How could God exist
Asked I
How could he not
Was her reply
What of this killing
And the death
Tis our doing
When all is said
Twas not her
But you
I returned to her
'Pon learning her fate
Hoping to reach her
'Fore twas too late
To free her
I sought
She refused my gift
So all was for naught
She goes with great courage
To martyrdom by fire
A part of me goes with her
As I watch them light the bier
Twas not her
But you
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I returned to
My Sister lover friend
I thought she would stay
Till the end
Nights of passion
Days of bliss
But there was something
That we did miss
Though we
Loved each other
We found we each
Missed our other lover
Twas not her
But you
She was all
That I could hope for
But in the end
I needed more
In sensing this
My sister
Lover
After time
Left me for another
For a time I did
Cry like the rain
And showed mankind
My full disdain
Twas not her
But you
You returned then
To my side
Bringing comfort
Along with pride
We return
To the ways of old
Hunts of passion
Love so bold
Something is missing
I now find
Your love to be
Other than kind
Twas not her
But you
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I soon begin
To seek my own life
One which would soon
Lead to strife
Artisans
Writers
Musicians
Poets
I work with all
To learn and grow
Seeking life
Beyond the pall
Twas not her
But you
Art and knowledge
Has become my balm
That which keeps
My spirit calm
You returned
Then
Wishing to be
A family again
I cannot return
To that
Which has
Been spurned
Twas not her
But you
No longer
Father lover brother
You have made us
Master and other
My keeper
To be
No matter what
It may mean to me
Killing those who
Disagree
Pushing me
Even further from you
Twas not her
But you
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I made a vow
No more killing of just
Killing only the guilty
If kill I must
I return
For a time
Taking that
Which was not mine
Coming to regret
This decision
Made
With such precession
Twas not her
But you
To return to my vows
I seek the sun
Thinking if I regain this
Then I will have won
Fighting the evil
Which exists in us all
Believing any
Who would answer my call
Suffering pain
And agonies untold
In my attempts
To leave your fold
Twas not her
But you
Yet you came
Time and again
To rescue me
From sin
Be it science or magic
That I would try
You would rescue me
From my pride
You would push and prod
Possessive as ever
Angered when I cry
Never
Twas not her
But you
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To find myself
Awash with strangeness
Not knowing
Where this place was
Memory has fled
Making knowledge
Of past crimes
Dead
She comes
To me then
Only saying
She is my friend
Twas not her
But you
You say
The night
Is ours
Is my birthright
I find myself pulled
By two sides
Each saying
The other lies
Each only
Veiled truths say
But it I whose price
In pain must pay
Twas not her
But you
You hold out
Your hand
As one would
To a drowning man
You return to me
That which was lost
Saying for once
There is no cost
My tale is a long one
I am afraid
But I have plenty of time
Forever they say
Twas not her
But you
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She has returned
One you thought dead
After the taking of
Her pretty head
Daughter
Mother
One who wished to be
Your lover
Killing her rescuer
And taking his head
Delivering it up
To you in her stead
Twas not her
But you
Getting you blamed
For her kill
Which only adds
To her thrill
Arrested and questioned
By your son
Added to the insult
Of what she has done
To your knees
You will be
Watching your precious
Community flee
Twas not her
But you
Those that would
By your side stay
Must be the first
To go away
You r precious little
Community
Shall be the
First to see
'Pon them
She shall vent
To show you exactly
What she meant
Twas not her
But you
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She used another
As a goat to a lion
Attacking as I
Attended the dying
She left me for dead
With visions
Dancing
In the color red
Pleasure of death
Pleasure of pain
Pleasure of torture
Again and again
Twas not her
But you
I fight with the strength
You gave to me
Using it
To make me free
With freedom came
Knowledge
Of your own
Pain
Hoping to arrive in time
To save my sire
Lover
From his daughter mother
Twas not her
But you
She has you believing
That I am gone
Has you ready to
Follow along
I arrive in time
To take her first
'For she drains you
To slack her thirst
Together we
Prepare her bier
To finally free her soul
With fire
Twas not her
But you
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We return
To each other's side
Bringing comfort
Along with pride
No longer
Master and other
We are now
Father lover brother
I show you
What can be done
When mind body and soul
Act as one
Twas not her
But you
You keep me fulfilled
Your mind and soul
As a deep pool
Stilled
I give you energy
To continue on
To live each life
To learn new songs
We teach each other
What is true in life
We aid each other
In times of strife
Twas not her
But you
Though fight we shall
With the coming tide
We now have learned
To one another abide
We calm each other
In the night
Our passions gentle
Yet filled with might
You of fine mulled wine
I of honey and spice
Together renew
Our love of life
Twas not her
But you
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