I turned around and tried to fall asleep… but I couldn't, not with her so close to me. I completely gave up in my attempts of getting some rest when she also turned around and passed her arm around my waist, pressing further into me, with her warm breath against my neck.
It was too much for me to take and I didn't quite understand why. The butterflies in my stomach that I couldn't get rid of, the unhealthy speed of my heart at every touch, the insane heat running through my body when we kissed cheeks, the way my mouth became dry whenever she pressed her forehead against mine. It was too much for me to understand.
It took me some while to find out what all those emotions meant; still I wanted them to be just something that would pass by, something temporary. So I chose to believe it was just a whim and it wasn't going to last. But that night when I was wide awake, so aware of her hot breath against my neck, I knew I was just fooling myself.
"Sweet dreams, Spenchey" her warm lips brushed against the back of my neck. A tear escaped my eye and rolled down my cheek, a tear that meant I didn't want to be in my skin anymore, a tear that held my complete sadness, a tear that wash away all the lies I've been telling myself. A tear that cleared all for me.
I was deeply in love with my long life best friend…and she loved me of course I knew that but there's a big difference between love and being in love, and she was not in love with me.
A few more tears formed in my eyes.
"Sweet dreams, Ashie"
My voice trembling, along with falling tears and a grasp that only holds me tighter.
A|N. so yeah, I know is very short, but is more like an intro because I'm plannig on continue this story I have some ideas that might work. and if you find bad grammar or something than I apologize, cause inglish is my second idiom...not first, hahaha so seriously if you could help me with my suking grammar that would be great. oh and please please review, I want to know what you think of this story, well I will live you now, have to go and eat lunch ^_^ bye!