Not Strong Enough…
Chapter 1: Desires
Edited by me; all remaining mistakes are mine. These characters are not mine; just borrowing them. They belong to their right owners;SM, and E. . This story will be told in Christian's POV. There will be Ana outtakes later in the future. There will be a mention of some Twilight names in this story, but no Edward and Bella. This is a Fifty story with a little of Twilight.
After a wild night of passionate full blown sex, Ana got up from my bed. She was looking for her night clothes, to get dressed again. I looked at her from my bed, my left arm tucked underneath my head, propping it up.
"What's the matter, Anastasia?" I asked watching her.
She looked right at me as she slipped her cami on.
"We shouldn't of have done this... what must you think of me? And stop looking at me like that way!" she snapped angrily.
I smirked back at her. "Oh come now, don't tell me you didn't enjoy our sexy romp? Especially after you teased me," I replied cockily.
She growled. "You are impossible, Mr. Grey! I can't find my panties! Where in the hell are they?" Ana asked as she circled the room looking for them.
Hearing her say, 'Mr. Grey' made my dick twitch again. However; I just loved teasing her.
I whistled to her; spinning her delectable panties on my finger. "Right here, baby. Why don't you cum and get them? Oh wait...I had you to come already...twice!" I revealed wiggling my eyebrows to her.
Anastasia looked at me in horror. "Shit! Give me those!" she demanded.
"Oh I will give it to you all right, how about a third round?" I asked cocking my eyebrows to her.
"Damn it, Christian, that's not funny!" Ana growled out, as she tried to grab her panties; however I wouldn't let her.
I laughed at her; rather amused with her behaviour. "Oh feisty little thing aren't you?"
Finally relinquishing her panties to her. I got out of the bed; the very one we had amazing sex in, I walked over to my jeans which were on the floor. As I was putting them on I saw her gawking at my ass.
"See something you like?" I asked her, buttoning them up.
"You're not going to wear any underwear?" she asked breathlessly.
"Nope. It makes it more accessible, if you know what I mean," I replied, cocking my eyebrow to her.
Anastasia was pacing the floor back and forth. "What have I done? What have we done? Kate's going to kill me!"
"Like you haven't wanted that for a long time, Anastasia? You can't tell me that you didn't want what happened between us tonight. After all those nights of parading around in those skipping little nightie outfits around me. Talking about me to all your girlfriends. I only gave you what you wanted; what we both wanted for a long time. Besides...Kate will be fine," I said, looking at her. I had dressed in a shirt and jeans by then.
I had approached Ana as she stood before me. Damn, she's sexy as hell!
"How do you know how she will feel? And what do you mean you have heard me talking to my friends about you?" she asked looking at me.
"Anastasia, my daughter will be fine. She's eighteen, just as you almost are. As far as what you've told your girlfriends about me, trust me I've heard the whispers and the giggling between y'all. It wasn't that hard to hear especially when I would be in the study doing my work while you girls hung out in the great room. I believe hearing you refer to me as 'sex on legs' and I just proved it tonight."
She gasped as she turned bright red. I leaned in towards her as I whispered, "Damn, I love the way you blush, baby. Such a fucking turn on."
Her blue eyes looked into mine. "What's going to happen between us now? What's next?" she asked shyly for the first time.
I sighed, I didn't want to fall for Ana as she was still so young. I tried to stay away from her, I did. But God help me I couldn't stay away any longer. I was going insane with want and need for her.
I reached out and held her face in the palm of my hands. I gently whispered, "We can be anything you want, baby. Tonight was not a one time thing for me. I want more," I explained.
"Really? You want more with me? But...you can have any woman you want, Christian."
"That may be true...but it's you that I want. I haven't been with anyone since…" my voice trailed off. Wow! Has it really been that long for me? No wonder I came like a teenager earlier.
"Since?" Ana asked.
"Since Kate's mom passed away."
"You mean you haven't slept with anyone since... I find that hard to believe."
"What can I say, Anastasia? I'm a one woman kind of guy. That doesn't mean I haven't had offers, but no one I ever wanted; until you. Listen, we will keep this under wraps at least until you turn eighteen which is a month from now."
"Okay, if that's what you want, Christian." Ana said as she started to walk away. She opened the door as I closed it again, trapping her between me and the door.
"Ana," I said, huskily. "What's wrong? You act like you are upset. Did I say something wrong?"
She was turning shy on me all of the sudden as she turned her face away from me. I gently lifted her chin, so I could see those beautiful blue eyes.
"Come on baby, talk to me." I urged.
"It's just when you said we will keep quiet for a month, I just…"
"What? You can tell me."
"How can we stay away from each other when I'm over here all the time with Kate."
I smiled. Lord this girl will be the death of me. "Is that what you're worried about? That I'm going to stay away from you? Well rest that pretty little head of yours, I didn't say we'd stay away from each other the whole time. We will get our moments. Did you really think that I could leave you alone, after tonight?"
She nodded her head to me.
My face was so close to hers. There is no fucking way I couldn't stay away from her anymore. "Oh, baby, baby...I can't stay away from you anymore. I'm not strong enough."
"You mean it?" she whispered.
"Anastasia, what does this tell you…" I whispered. My lips met hers, it was a gentle kiss at first. I waited for her to open to me more; when she did, I slid my tongue in to taste her. She moaned, as I continued my slow ministrations in her mouth. I groaned, as soon as I did, Ana growled, pulling me even closer, wrapping her arms around my neck.
I pulled back slightly, "Jesus, you will be the death of woman!" I kissed her hard and passionately as I dominated her tongue with mine.
"Fuck! What are you doing to me?" I asked continuing our make out session. I had to stop as I was getting a hard on again. I broke this kiss panting.
"We need to stop, Anastasia," I said out of breath. "Kate and the rest of the girls will awaken soon, plus I'm getting hard again."
Her eyes looked into mine, they were full of lust. "I can help you with that."
I groaned again. As much as I would love that we need to cool off. Just as I was about to say something, we heard, "Ana! Where did you go?" Kate called out interrupting our moment.
"See what I mean? Now go. Tell her you were in the bathroom."
"What about your um...problem? I can help with that…" Ana said as she then slipped from my grasp as she turned the tables on me. Pinning me between her and the door. Fucking hell this woman was a magnet for me! I shook my head in awe of her.
"Oh don't worry bout me, baby, I will rub one out in the shower thinking of you. Now go."
She wouldn't let go yet. Her eyes looking into mine she asked, "Do you do that often?"
"Ana! Where in the hell are you?" Kate asked, getting annoyed she couldn't find her friend.
"Jesus, Ana, will you just go before she finds you in here," I bit out frustrated as hell.
"I will once you tell me how often," she purred and kissing on my neck. Damn she's such a seductress!
"Ana!" Kate yelled just outside my bedroom door.
"Christ! Ana, please your fucking torturing me here," I whispered trying not to lose control. I heard my daughter's footsteps recede.
"I want to know. Do you rub it out thinking of me while you are doing it?" Ana asked getting bolder by the second as she ground into me and licking my earlobe.
"Fuck!" I growled out not being able to take it. "Yes! Okay, yes, I think of you while I'm doing it. Now go."
"That's all I needed to know," she said as gave me a hard peck on the lips; before leaving my room.
Once she was out the door I leaned on it, my head spinning out of control. What the hell was she doing to me? I knew I should stay away from her. But I couldn't...not anymore. She was like a magnet to me, always pulling me in.
After my wife, Elena, passed away, it's just been my daughter Kate and I. Kate and Ana had been inseparable since age of nine. They grew up together. After Elena died, I kept myself away from women a long time. I saw Ana grow up into a beautiful woman.
I would see her every weekend as she came to stay at our house on the weekends. Anastasia started developing when she was thirteen and didn't stop. The rest of her body filled out giving her some curves. Damn, it was getting to hard to look away. Then again every time I looked her away, she would keep staring at me. Our eyes would lock for a time; that I would literally tear my eyes away from her.
But now she was nearing eighteen, after all those years of long looks, I couldn't take it anymore. My resolve wore thin. I still couldn't believe how it all came out.
I stepped into the shower as and remembered every detail of last night. It all started in the kitchen. All the girls were asleep, I was up late working, when I heard a noise in the kitchen. I went to look; and there she was. My breath caught on how scantily clad dressed she was.
She had on a thin cami top with short shorts that showed off her thighs. Her creamy long legs. Her ass filled out the shorts and it showed off some skin as she reached for a glass. I leaned against the door jam and just watched her. I saw she was listening to her Ipod; she must have been listening to a prerogative song as I saw her hips sway back and forth.
I growled to myself as I warned myself to look away. 'Grey stop looking! She's way too young for you and she's your daughter's best friend.' But I couldn't look away. Everything about her pulled me in.
Anastasia gasped as she saw me. "Christian!" She said breathlessly as she pulled her ear plugs out.
Her eyes met mine, I'm sure she could see the lust in them. I walked to her slowly, my eyes on her like a predator; she stayed put right in front of the fridge.
"Anastasia, if you don't want this you better walk away now! I don't have it in me to walk away from you. I'm not strong enough..." my voice trailed off, as I looked in her hooded blue eyes.
She whispered, "Then don't."
I pounced. Hard. Her back hit the fridge with a bang. My lips were on hers like a moth on a flame as my body pushed her harder into the fridge.
I allowed the water drip down my body as I took the soap; lathering up my hands and grabbing my cock. My palm gripped my shaft as I remembered everything about last night.
I don't know how we made it up the stairs and to my room. It all happened in a blur. I was surprised we didn't wake anyone up with all the loud banding we did. We knocked some art off the wall as we maneuvered in my bedroom. Even my lamp went crashing down as we bumped into it. I had Anastasia on my dresser as I trapped her there with my body.
I pulled her closer to me, grabbing her ass and removed her from the dresser to the bed. Before I knew it our clothes were off. I was on top of her, my lips never leaving hers. I used my fingers to test if she was wet.
"Holy fuck, Anastasia, so wet for me," I gasped out.
I reached for a condom, sliding it on, going back to her entrance. "This will hurt baby, I'm sorry."
Her eyes looked into mine as she nodded.
I felt how wet she was with my cock, but nothing prepared me for what I was about to do and feel. As soon as I was in, I could feel how tight she was since she was a virgin. Knowing I was her first, made me proud. I went further, until finally being fully sheathed inside of her.
"Holy shit, Anastasia, this feels amazing!" I growled out.
I saw her tear up, I almost backed out but she stopped me. "It's okay. Just give me a moment."
That I did. I wanted to move, but I wanted her first time to be a great experience. She surprised me by moving her hips, making me move. Oh God, Lord in heaven, this feels so damn good! Before I knew what was happening she was moving with me. Our thrusts were in sync, that we were rocking the bed! I'm sure by now my veins were popping out in my forehead; the sexual tension between us was so intense!
"Ung! Fuck so close!" I breathed out as I moved my cock faster with my palm thinking about our first time together. My eyes shut as i breathed out raggedly.
I felt her pussy clench my cock, knowing she was close. I reached down and pressed on her clit while thrusting. She was writhing beneath me.
"Oh God!" Ana cried out in pleasure.
"Who? Say my name, Ana, say my name!" I commanded as I was close.
I must have hit the right spot because all of the sudden I felt her come. She came hard as she came shouting my name in the room. "Christian! Oh...oh….Christian!"
That was all it took for me. I slammed into her once more and spilled right into the condom! Well better yet I squirted my cum all over the shower wall as I released again! After finishing my shower, I panted and leaning in the shower head.
"Holy shit! That was amazing!" I panted turning off the water.
I grabbed a towel from a nearby hook, drying myself off. I went into my bedroom to get dressed. One thing for sure, Anastasia Steele sure can make a guy come. I went to join the girls in the kitchen for breakfast.
Once in the kitchen, my daughter greeted me. "Morning dad. Want me to fix you some breakfast?"
I looked at my daughter. "No thanks. I will just have toast and coffee. Morning ladies, I hope you all slept well," I said to all the girls who were gathered at the table.
"Morning Mr. Grey! We did, thank you," both Jessica and Angela said, in unison as they giggled. I shook my head.
I saw Ana give the girls a glare, but they didn't see it. She darted her look to me as she sipped her coffee.
"So what do you all have planned for the day, sweetheart?" I asked looking at Kate.
"Oh...I thought we'd go shopping, get our nails done. Basically have a girl day getting beautified."
"Well, you ladies don't have to do much. You're naturally beautiful" I said, looking at them all. "You all have a great day. I'll be in my study working." I replied, grabbing my coffee and leaving the room.
"Kate, I will be back in a bit," I overheard Ana say hearing her follow behind me.
I sat in my chair, setting my cup down when Ana walked in. She shut the door behind her and locked it. I was entering data in my laptop.
"Christian?" she asked, getting my attention.
"Yes, Ana?" I stopped what I was doing; and looked at her. She looked at me pensive.
"Did you have to do that?" she asked, planting both her palms on my desk.
"What? I didn't do anything." I replied, not knowing what she was referring to.
"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You were flirting with my friends in there."
I sat back from my laptop in my leather chair. I rubbed my chin with my hand as I stared back at her. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Was she jealous? Damn, that just turned me on so much that she could be jealous. Quite an interesting development.
"Anastasia, I wasn't flirting with your friends. I was being nice, my usual self."
"That's what I'm talking about. You know exactly how those girls think about you. It doesn't take much for any woman to flirt with you; especially when you come in there looking like that." She replied to me, her voice shaky.
Holly fuck! Is Anastasia really that insecure with herself? I thought I had showed her over and over she's all that I wanted last night.
"Fucking hell, Ana, what do you want me to do? Not say anything at all? That wouldn't be very nice of me to ignore all your and Kate's friends. I'm dressed in casual attire, nothing special. Just jeans and a t shirt."
She sighed as she relaxed. "I know, I'm sorry...I just…"
"You're just what?" I asked back not understanding what was going on.
"I'm just not sure how to act around you now since last night is all. Its different...we're different."
"Sweetheart, surely you know how I feel about you. I showed you twice last night. Do you honestly think I would flirt with both of your friends? I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally. As far as my wardrobe, I wear this all the time when I work from home on the weekends."
"You're right. Anything you wear makes you looks sexy as hell, Christian." Just as soon as she said that she covered her mouth. "Oh my God, I can't believe I just said that out loud!"
I laughed at Anastasia's verbal vomit. I thought it was so damn adorable! I got up and walked around my desk to reach her. My arms reached out for her as she pulled back.
"Ana...come here…"
"No! I'm so embarrassed!" She shied away from me.
"Baby, will you please come here?" I asked gently. She did. I encircled her waist with my arms.
"You are just too damn adorable for your own good." My left hand palmed her face. "I will say this one more time so listen up." Kiss. "I" Kiss "Only" Kiss. "Want." Another kiss. "You." I kissed her that time; sliding my tongue in for good measure. "Is that clear to you now?"
"Yes," she replied, huskily.
"Good. You better get going before Kate gets suspicious."
Ana walked out of my study, I on the other hand couldn't get over what just happened. Anastasia is so beautiful she doesn't even see it. To be honest, I'm surprised she didn't have a boyfriend by now. Well, look out teenage hormonal boys! Ana is mine and I don't share.
A/N: Hey all. Well I hope you all liked the first chapter. As soon as I saw this one picture, and the song "I'm not strong enough...to say no." this awesome plot bunny hit me. Okay lay it on me on what you think. Please be kind. The song belongs to its rightful owner; just borrowing it. There is a video for the story on my Youtube account. Also to see banners for pictures I used for my stories please visit my Karen Cullen Grey group.