I travelled back so Alisha would fall in love with me. I travelled back so we could be together. I just travelled back, and left the girl I love buried in the woods. She's the only one we didn't want to bury. She's the only one we stopped and cried for. She's the one I need to guarantee my future with.
I left her, beautiful but dead, and she's buried with some of the others. Now I can see her, chatting to present me and the others. She's telling them the gear stick story, and I can hear her laughing. It's different. It has a bitter edge to it, and I suppose that's because of the community service, and not being able to touch anyone. But that'll soon change.
Getting to know her again is the highest on my list of priorities. But before I start on getting to know her, I have to get my immunity power. I need to fix up my flat and get it ready for future Simon and Alisha to live in. I need to save Nathan from being stuck in a coffin underground, despite the annoying prick he is. I need to send them that stupid message so they can find him wanking. I need to save Curtis from being strangled. I need to do everything to direct them towards everything that needs to happen.
On the bright side, I know that I can't lose her again. I've already seen her die. I can't see it again. I know I'll die saving Alisha. It's kind of sick that I can't wait. I know the sooner this happens, the faster I can meet my Alisha in whatever comes after life. I can hold her in my arms, touch her again.
I can tell her she's beautiful. We'll never have to watch each other die again. I know she'll be there when I did. Both versions, future and present. She'll be waiting. Knowing Alisha, she'll of travelled back with me, and will be watching my every move, waiting to see if I fuck up, so she can grin and say "That's my Simon."
She'll send me a sign, telling me that I'm doing it right, I'm sure. And then I'll meet her on the other side of the bright white light. And I'll tell her I love her.
I'll stay with her forever, just like I planned.