Making certain.
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Santana had never had her heart broken before. It actually hurt, physically and painfully hurt. How could Brittany do this to her? Choosing Artie over her! The worst part was that she couldn't blame Brittany, not completely. It was Santana who had insisted that sex wasn't dating. It had been Santana who had continued their relationship behind Artie's back, convincing her friend it wasn't cheating. It was Santana who had forbidden all talk of emotion and love. Santana had been lying to Brittany for years, just as much as she'd been lying to herself.
Santana was terrified by the possibility that Miss Holiday was right and she was a lesbian. The question was, did she really find other girls attractive or was Brittany the only girl for her.
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Sitting in Glee Club Santana let her mind wander. She started checking out the other girls to try and get a handle on the real issue – just how gay was Santana Lopez.
Rachel was busy talking to Mr Shue, probably brow beating him into giving her yet another solo. Rachel Berry was annoying as hell and she dressed like Pippy Longstockings but Santana had to admit she had an astounding voice. She also had a great body and legs to die for… so moving on.
Quinn was sat beside Finn watching Rachel like a hawk, as if at any moment she would come sweeping in and stealing her man. Now Santana had always admired Quinn and, right up until the whole baby-gate scandal, had secretly wanted to be her. Quinn was pretty and popular, she could be all innocent one minute and turn it right round to smoking hot in an instant. One day in celibacy club, when they were discussing the best ways to tease boys, Quinn showed them one look that had given Santana chills; in fact she was getting goose pimples right now thinking about it… so okay next!
Lauren Zisess was on the back row flirting with Puck and no, Santana didn't find her attractive. She couldn't help but admire the girl's confidence and boy was she strong! But no, Santana didn't fancy her… that was a relief.
Mercedes was at the piano with Brad going through some music. Now Mercedes was one hot momma – every song she sang she hit it right out of the park. Santana thought she was amazing, and when they sang together they were spectacular. She found herself admiring the diva's curves, remembering the Sweet Transvestite number, when they did Rocky Horror, where she got to run her hands all over them… and so moving on again.
Brittany was dancing with Tina and Mike. They were working on the choreography for Nationals. Brittany was super-hot; sweet and god damn sexy all at once. True she was as daft as a box of frogs sometimes but that just made Santana love her more. And she did love her, she loved her smile and her eyes and her kisses and her fingertips… and this wasn't helping.
Finally to Tina - she had a pretty smile and an infectious laugh; she was a great dancer and a sweet singer but to Santana she was always in the background. Did she find her sexy? She did have a good very good body…
Santana must have been checking her out for a little too long because it took her a moment to register that Tina was staring right back at her. Santana's cheeks started burning with embarrassment. She quickly looked down at the notebook in her hand, trying to hide her discomfort. She glanced up a few seconds later to find Tina had gone back to dancing with Mike and Brittany.
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Okay that was a close one! But one thing was certain, with a score of five out of a possible six, there was a definite probability that Santana really was as gay as a pink parade. She wasn't really sure how she felt about that.