Hey yal started a new story. I've been working on it for awhile, showed it to some ;0 lol and I'm finally ready to post it. It is confusing, and believe me it's only going to get more confusing, but I thought it was a pretty cool idea. Hope you like it. Later!

Lola

The Lizzie Nightmares

The Beginning of an Even Bigger Nightmare

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18

This night seemed different, even magical compared to all the other as I watched her from my window. She got out of the car and into the rain and thunder. Her blonde hair seemed to stick out compared to all the darkness surrounding her. It brought a smile to my face seeing her here and my heart skipped a beat.

"Uh……….hey" she said to me when she arrived at my apartment door. She sighed and blew a strand of hair out of her face. The porch light shined on the two of us and the water dripping from her face now glowed making her skin look all so glassy and fragile. She frowned and looked down, once again her hair falling in her face. She laughed and rose her head up slowly, again locking eyes with mine.

I smirked closing my eyes as I laughed softly to myself, "It's okay Lizzie. Come in" I opened the door to her and she explained to me as she walked inside turning her head away from me.

"I am sooooo sorry Gordo. You see I got to my dorm and they told me they were remodeling and they couldn't let me in for another MONTH or so, which I think is very unprofessional and I don't know why they wouldn't have told me in advance after I'd driven a thousand somethin' miles to get to my college, but anyway I tried to find a hotel but all the ones I found where either not vacant or way too expensive for my taste. So I didn't know what to do, and then I thought, I still remembered where you lived from when I'd visited you a few times. And I-I'm sorry," she paused to look back at me.

I let out a soft laughed and sat down in the leather recliner. I told her to take a seat on the couch, motioned for her to go on. She smiled sweetly taking off her wet coat, "I just didn't know if you'd want me to be hanging around in your apartment like this-Probably to busy with sophomore college stuff, too good for a lowly freshman like me"

I laughed and watching the water as it dripped from her hair onto the floor; her expression totally oblivious to my thoughts and reaction to her every movement, "Lizzie, it's entirely the other way around. I'm honored to have you in my humble apartment building"

She grinned, "Thank you Gordo"

"You're welcome and stay as long as you need, it gets lonely around here. I could use a friend"

Her smile dropped and bent down to leaned in towards me, "Really? Lonely? Well, I wouldn't have ever thought. I guess everyone at Hildrege imagined you as "Mr. Big Man-On-Campus". I wished I could have called you more, I'm sorry" said Lizzie, true sympathy in her voice.

Although she did hurt me-not really keeping close contact with me after I left the year before, to go to college a year early, I knew she meant it and was grateful. She didn't know how I felt and I guess that's mainly my fault. I shrugged, "No problem McGuire I survived. Besides you're here now and that's all that matters"

Her smile returned and a grin replaced her once worried expression, "I'm glad college hasn't changed you-you're just as "Gordo" as I remember" she laughed

I frowned and scratched my head, "Is that good?"

"Very" she grinned and I blushed. After a moment of silence and awkward exchange of smiles we both laughed.

She started to say something but I interrupted her, "Hey why don't you just wait till tomorrow to fill me in on what's been going on and you can get so sleep for now. You must be tired"

"You're sweet," she smiled, "and thanks I'm exhausted" she said and collapsed face first on the couch, pressing the side of her cheek to the pillow.

I laughed and watched her for a second as she rested awkwardly on the couch. I sighed reminding myself of who I was, who she was, and who we where together telling, and told myself it'd be like that forever and until the end of time. I shrugged and stood up from my seat. I went to the couch and sat on her legs. She moaned grabbing the nearest pillow and hitting me with it.

"Hey babe, you gotta move. This is my bed for tonight"

"Uh!" she groaned, turning over awkwardly to face me, "but where am I supposed to sleep?"

"In the bedroom"

"Oh Gordo, no. It's okay, I can sleep here it's no big deal"

"Lizzie, you're my guest and my best friend, it's fine"

She rolled her eyes, "Yeah, I'm your uninvited guest and 'barley ever calls' friend. How wonderful" she sarcastically replied

"Yeah well," I grinned, "what can I say, it's just you. Can't turn you down-can't let you sleep on a couch"

She laughed, "I like you Gordo,"

I blushed but she continued, "You're a really sweet, cool guy" she smiled, "and you're pretty cute"

I laughed in disbelief, "Where'd you hear that?"

She laughed, "What do mean 'where'd you hear that' " she answered mocking my low voice, "I said it! But hey, I'm not the only one. After word got around school that you where going to college a year early, everyone thought you where so cool," she laughed "Kate claimed that she'd gone out with you a couple times"

She laughed as I made a disgusted face, "Please, ugh, tell me they didn't believe that"

"Well they did," she paused to let out another laugh, "but Miranda and James helped me clear up the rumor"

"Oh yeah," I threw up inside at the sound of his name, " 'James' "

She squinted her eyes in confusion by my expression but continued, "Yeah….he's really a sweet guy, and did I tell you? He got a scholarship to that college, Ohio State to play football! I was so happy for him. We had this whole big party to congratulate him. I was just so sad when he had to go, I miss him. I don't know why you don't like him that much Gordo"

I cringed.

Though the time I'd been separated from Lizzie, she'd managed to find a boyfriend. One I don't know anything about. Whether or not if he was worthy of Lizzie or if he was one of whom I can trust. Although I think no one could ever be any of the things I said or in any way at all "Lizzie worthy" the main reason was because the guy that Lizzie was crazy in love with-wasn't me.

I sighed and stood up, feeling now uncomfortable talking about this with Lizzie, "Uh huh………..well listen, uh, let me show the room. We can get the stuff from out of your car tomorrow. You need to get some rest"

She nodded and yawned getting up off the couch, "Okay" she said yawning again. She blinked a few times and then kept her eyes shut again falling back onto the couch.

I shook my head and offered my hand to her. She groaned and reluctantly she took my hand and I helped her up. I took her hand in mine leading her towards the room. I felt my palms start to sweat but Lizzie, in a dreamily daze, didn't notice my nervousness. I continued walking and as I arrived the door of my bedroom, I came to a stop. Lizzie leaned her head on my shoulder, still finding a place to rest.

I shivered feeling her soft hair wrap around my neck and smelling her flowery, clean, innocent scent. I smiled, she reminded me of home. I took in a deep breath trying to take her and all of my memories of home back in. I slowly inched towards hers and rested my head atop of hers. I lightly kissed the top of her head when she made soft moan and left my shoulder. She fluttered her eyelashes and opened her eyes to her new surroundings.

"Oh sorry Gordo, I guess I really am tried"

"Go to sleep" I instructed her opening the door to her

She tired to laughed, still sleepy and not fully awake, "Yes Sir" she answered and walked inside. She turned back to look at me once more, "thanks Gordo" she smiled

I returned the smiled, "You're welcome, good night"

"G'night" she answered and pushed the door half way closed.

I walked gruffly back towards the couch, a million thoughts going through my head. I switched the off the light after finding a small blanket and found my way over to the couch. I sank into the couch and lifted the blanket over myself. Taking in a deep breath, I shut my eyes and discovered that night somewhat sleepless.

I woke up to another crash of thunder, panting and sweating heavily. I put my hands to my face trying to assure myself I was, this time, really awake. I took a deep breath and stood up. Strips of lightening shown through the window and I jumped at the sound thunder. I walked towards the only place that would give me either comfort or another most horrible regret. Which would lead to another sleepless night, but she was worth it.

The sounds of thunder slowly faded as I walked into the hallway. I peeked open the door to my bedroom where she slept. I watched her for a moment taking hold of the door knob that was holding me back. I watched her body gently rise and fall as she breathed and I let go of the door, walking over to her. I sat at the end of the bed and nervously reached my hand to her head. I gently stroked her hair and ran my fingers down her side. Being so close to her and feeling her warmness of her silky skin made me gasp for air. She shivered as my hand touched her skin and I reached for a blanket lying next to me. I covered her with it and she nuzzled closer to her pillow. I smiled and made myself leave her side. I closed the door shut and stared at it trying to hold on to the feeling of her presence.

As insignificant as those series of moments seemed, later I would come to realize that it was the most important moment of my life and the biggest mistake I had ever made. And even as big as the mistake it was at the time, it didn't compare to the pain of regret I felt afterwards.

As strange as it seemed,

….this was the beginning of a Nightmare.

To be continued…