I don't own Beyblade…

I like to see my broken mind, which means I'm capable to feel…

~oO08( Playing With My Mind )80Oo~

By Kiray Himawari

I'm not good at writing suicide notes and I know there are a lot of mistakes, but right now grammar is not my strength. Of course I know some people think this is the last of me, but no. This is the beginning of my freedom, because I will not have to see me myself falling in a sea of hate. They'll cry, but it will be just a few days, after that the calm after storm. So, I don't have to worry about, all of us will be fine; they alive and I dead. Probably I sound like a depressed person, but I'm not. I just have very hurt my heart. All the pain I believed was unreal is there with me every minute of my breath. I don't have things to worry about, only my fucking mind.

I can see a lot of children in front of me; they are playing to be the line of real world… I hope they don't see my body give up of life. I feel it's time to go… I feel the need to sleep and dream with tomorrow. I close my eyes and the world starts to disappear. The sun shines in the highest of sky, clouds playing to be candies or animals, and the children stare at me, they are worry because they know they will disappear. They will not play with my mind again… I will be free of these hallucinations so soon… My heart aches, my breath fails and my eyes open to see the end…

White and soft walls are my prison… I don't know why he fixes his eyes on me… Please, stop it, don't see me… And suddenly the pain is gone….

─ Kai, ─ he says ─ you will be fine. Sleep and rest, maybe tomorrow all your nightmares will have gone.

I know he lies. Tomorrow I will feel and see those children again and the torture of happiness will kill me just like yesterday. I know I'm dying and there is no escape.

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Sometimes those voices echo on his mind, why do those voices speak to him? He does not want to be with someone else, he does not want to feel that sadness in his system… He does not want to live with himself, so he broke down… and now he's playing with his mind.

~oO080Oo~

Hi, I hope you like this short fic, it's my first time at writing in English, so I'd like criticisms about grammar and all those things, you know... Thank you very much :)