A/N: This fic was written for the 10/27/07 Saturday Night Writing Challenge at the Fox House Forum. The word prompt is trick. This is a Cameron POV.
Disclaimer: Not mine. Never have been, never will be. sigh
Crush
When does a crush stop being a crush?
When does interest become obsession?
Where is the line?
Maybe there are no answers. Maybe the answers depend on who is asking, or who is answering.
If that's the case, how can I find my answers?
Everyone thinks about other people. Human beings as a race are social animals. Our interactions with others help define us.
Who we are, how we think, why we do things and what will become of us.
And we all think about the opposite sex. Men think about women. And women think about men. Sometimes its good, sometimes its not. And sometimes, it's really inappropriate.
But no matter what you're thinking, as long as it stays in your head, you're safe.
Right?
Maybe not.
When does what you're thinking stop being safe and become dangerous?
Does it have to do with what you're thinking?
Who you're thinking about?
How often you're thinking it?
Whether the fact that you're thinking it interferes with the rest of your life?
Or is it really safe as long as you don't ever act on it?
Right now I can't stop thinking about someone.
I'm always thinking about him.
The more I think about him, the more I want to stop thinking about him. I shouldn't be thinking about him at all.
I tried to tell myself it was normal; tried to trick myself into believing it was okay.
Just like anybody who discovers someone who stimulates you. Someone who is intelligent and you can discuss anything with, from whether or not God exists to what the top ten TV and movie cars of all time are.
And that just like with any other friend, as the newness wore off it would get less obsessive and more comfortable.
Just like any other friend.
I lied.
Everybody does.