Mending a Broken Heart

Chapter 1 Leaving

Staring off into space, I looked to the ceiling letting the last of my tears fall from my face. It had been a month since I had returned. Seven, seven long years, at first it was odd, but now it almost unbearable. The death of my father had not truly sunk in, but two weeks ago it hit me harder then it should have. The room now a mess from when I threw a fit a few days ago was gathering dust. I broke my things, ripped up my clothes, what did any of them matter now, material things where replaceable. About the only untouched things were the presents my father bought me. They were the same as the day I found them, for some reason I could not bring myself to open them.

I have not been out of this room for what feels like forever, when was the last time I ate or bathed for that matter. At some point I closed the curtain and locked window, even had the lock changed cause Natsu had a key. With all that I have been through with Fairy Tail this seemed so wrong, being a depressed pile of mud. I know if I just asked, they would all be here... he would be here for me. I tucked my head into my knee's and wanted to cry, but I had already used up all of my tears. I didn't want them to see me like this, I already felt like the weakness in or team let alone the guild. What good was I to anyone, always wishing to be more useful to them. More than anything, yet what use was I now.

Natsu came by every day, almost like clockwork. He would call my name on the other side of the door, softly asking me to come out. I would sit on the other side of the door, imagining he was holding me tightly. I would hear his footsteps fading down the hall, they stop for a few moments before leaving again. Every time wishing to just open the door and run to his arms. Where he would hold me and tell me everything is all right. Yet I can't bring myself to do it, he his the last person I want to see me like this. If only he could understand just how much ... nevermind.

In all reality I had no right to be this messed up, it is almost as if when my father died something in me just snapped. My headstrong cheerfulness, locked away in a small box that I can not seem to find the key for. Almost like when mama died. I lifted my head from my knees, as an idea popped into my head. I got over that I can get over this, just need a little time… Maybe a lot of time, but I can do this.

I stood quickly with my new resolve and head to the bathroom, after a quick shower I rushed to my desk. Pulling out paper and grabbing a pen I started to writing. Finishing I slowly set the pen down and went to get dressed. Grabbing my bag packing it quickly, a few sets of clothes, my book, food, and some money. Clipping my key to my belt I look back at the desk. Reading the note over and over, finally setting it down, grabbing the pen.

"P.S. I love you all, never forget that."

With that I folded it neatly into its envelope and left out the door.

Dear Makarov

This may be selfish, and I hope you can understand. After everything that has happened, I am weak and unstable. Right now I am no good to any of you. I am leaving, with that I am uncertain of when I will return, but believe me I will be back. This is the hardest thing for me to do writing this letter, but it would be harder to say goodbye. Plus this is not a real goodbye. I am going to train I will get stronger come back a better person, one you can be proud of. Sorry, see you soon.

Your friend

Lucy

P.S. I love you...CRUMPLE

Makarov squeezed the paper in his hand, only one thing came from his month. "I was always proud of you."

Mira looked at the master as his face raged with anger, only when a tear fell did she ask, "Master what is wrong?" He looked to her then back to the paper, he stared at it for a long time then handed it to Mira. At first she felt she should not take it, but the look on his face told her he need someone else to read it. She uncrumpled the paper and read, she covered her mouth, tears falling with the paper to the floor.

"You will tell no one of this," he paused "DO NOT LET NATSU FIND OUT!"

At first she was shocked, slowly claiming and nodding her head, "What are we going to tell everyone?" She asked choking up tears.

Staring up at the ceiling he answered, " I sent her on a mission to help rebuild a town... I will have to make it seem like it will take a long time. I do not need any of them going crazy."

"What about when they do start to worry?" She asked, wiping away her tears before anyone noticed.

"That is for a later time." Makarov said jumping from the counter to the floor. Mira watched as he sluggishly climbed the stairs, hearing his office door slam. Lucy... she thought to herself as tears still welled up inside her.

Natsu was on his way to Lucy's house full of determination. Happy walking next to him with a big smile on his face. "Today is the day Happy!" Natsu said with excitement.

"AYE!" Happy yelled.

Natsu pumped his fist into the air, "with these I'll get in!" In his clenched hand there were lockpicks. Though surely he was not sure how to use them, but he did not care. After two weeks without Lucy he would do anything to get her out of there. He could hardly contain his happiness, with a quick jump Natsu went into a sprint. Happy pulled out his wings and followed. Running up the stairs he pulled out the lockpicks, rushing for the door. Where he stopped dead in his tracks,"how do I use these things?" Thonk, he heard hitting the wall. Happy had flown into it, then fell to the floor. He looked at him puzzled, Happy looked up frustrated.

"NATSU!" Happy yelled. Natsu jumped back a bit, before leaning down to help Happy up. "If you do not know how to use them then how are we going to get in?" Happy stated.

Natsu sketched his head and looked at the things in his hand. "Well I will just have to try." He sated with a huff.

After about twenty minutes he was sick of it. Gripping the lockpicks in his hand, he threw them down the hall. Happy gave him a disappointed look, and went to get them. Natsu sat in front of the door hand on his chin. "Why did she have to go and lock the window, change the locks. AAHHHH I would just break the door, if it would not get me killed." Happy came back and set the lock picks next to him. Taking a look at them and then back to the door. "That is it, she is going to kill me for this, then again I don't care any more." Natsu stood up quickly, " Fire Dragon Breath Roar..." He started loud then quietly said it as he leaned into the door knob. It melted, bits and pieces falling to the floor. With a wide grin he pushed the door open.

"She is going to be mad." Happy said behind him, flying into Natsu back, "Natsu, why did you stop." Happy said flying around him, he stop and lost his wings at the sight of the room. It was trashed, yet there was a thick layer of dust covering everything. Tears started to wheel up in Happy's eye, it look like she had not been there in days. Did she get hurt? There is stuff all over the floor she lover her stuff. Did someone break in and take her, he shook his head. Trying to stop all the horrible ideas that were popping up. Happy looked to Natsu, backing away quickly. He blazed and the anger on his face was... terrifying. "Natsu..." Happy said, he turned to Happy and quickly clamped down.

"Sorry..." Natsu said beading down to pick Happy up. "It smells like she has not been here for a few days..."

"She will be back right..." Happy was unable to control his fear, and his tears exploded. He dug his face into Natsu chest, whaling. "She just at the guild or took a job right." Natsu wanted to tell him yes, but the smell the room gave off said differently. He could smell her losing herself. All he could do was hope Happy was right. Walking to the door he looked back at the room. Imagining Lucy standing in the middle of the room yelling at them for breaking the door. Then he shut his eyes tightly and close the door.

Natsu stormed into the guild and ran up to Mira, "Have you seen Lucy?"

Mira stared at him trying her hardest not say anything. It had been three days since they had gotten the letter. She had hoped that the job that Natsu took would have taken longer. After all they finally convinced him to take a job without Lucy. "I am not sure you should go ask Master..." She tried her hardest not to seem upset, Natsu always seemed to notice these things. He stared her down, shaking his head and running up to Master office. Happy came and landed on the counter, he was still upset snot, and tears covered his face. She grabbed him and held him close, feeling him relax a little. Soon he fell asleep in her arms. Mira look up to the office, would he be able to calm Natsu down.

"Gramps!" Natsu said rushing into his office. Makarov sat looking out the window, he knew this would happen at some point. "Luce...Lucy is gone!" Natsu said frantically.

"I know." He said, not turning to look at Natsu he could not bare to see his face. Natsu body felt heavy, and was about to drop. "I sent her on a mission to help rebuild a town, she needed to have something to get her mind off... well you know."

"Then why did she not take me... why did she not say anything to me...why?" Natsu said as all his spirit leaked out. "She did not even say goodbye, or see you soon."

"Go home Natsu." Master said. Natsu was ready to speak out, but nothing came. Makarov heard Natsu slunk out the door, then run down the stairs. He yelled to Happy that they were leaving, and that was that. Master turned back around as Mira entered the room. She looked at him and rushed over.

"Is this really okay?" Mira said, holding back tears herself.

"No, but what else can I do, if he goes after her... she has already been gone for a few days. If this was right when she left I most likely would not have be able to not tell him the truth. If I say anything now it will be like when he first started looking for Igneel. I say do not tell him, but truly you can not tell anyone from that team. You remember how they all were the first time they thought she left." Makarov sighed and wiped his tears. "What ever am I going to do with these children of mine."

On the other side of the door Wendy and Charle, where standing. Quickly Wendy ran away from the door before they noticed she was there. She looked at the door to the guild. "Charle do I tell them?" Wendy asked.

Charle looked at Wendy and shook her head. "I do not know, but I have not had any bad images of Lucy so I am sure she is fine." She stated pating Wendy's head. Wendy sank into herself and tried not to cry. Where was Lucy, the master sounded like she was not coming back.

Natsu walked back to his house in silence, Happy walking slowly behind him. He finally managed to stop crying. Natsu knew something was wrong. The guild smelled like Lucy had not been there in weeks. How did she even see the Master if that was true. Would she really have just gone on a mission without saying anything to him. He knew one thing they never… never did anything without each other. He sketched his head, all this was giving him a headache. Without realizing it Natsu had become very attached to Lucy. There has not been more than a few days that they would not see each other. The closer to his house he got the more he wished to see her. When, when did it hurt to not see her...

"Happy.." Natsu said slowly.

"Hmm," Happy answered.

"Why does this feel so wrong?" He asked. Happy had no words, he just stared up at Natsu and shook his head. Natsu open the door to his house…. and found it clean. He dropped to his knees and started pounding his fist into the floor. She was here right here, he could still smell the sweet smell of her shampoo. As he hit the floor a small piece of paper fell of the table. Natsu quickly went to grab it slipping and almost falling. He look at the neat handwriting and smile.

Natsu and Happy

Left you a little present you pigs! Really learn to clean up you mess sometimes… Thanks for everything see you soon.

Lucy

Natsu read it over and over again, no matter how many times he did it felt wrong. Her handwriting at the last sentence was shaky. Something was wrong Gramps, Mira, even Lucy they were hiding something from him. He might not have been the smartest person in the world, but he just knew. Standing he grabbed a few things and shoved them into his pack. If Gramps and Mira were not going to say anything he would just go ask Lucy in person. There are only so many broken down towns.

"Happy we are leaving!" Natsu said.

Looking up at Natsu Happy smiled, "AYE!"

This is my first fanfiction, I am a little scared, but I hope you all will enjoy it. Hopefully I will have chapters up fast since I have a lot of free time. Review please, would love to know what you all think.

Figured with how hot headed Natsu is he would not just sit around and wait, do you guys agree with that?