Your killing me with your words.
You think I'm fine? You think I'm happy?
DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH!!
Your killing me everyday.
I hate you...Hiei. I hate you. I try, I really do try dam*it!I try to be nice, to get you to accept me, to like me. I respect you, more than you could imagine. But no, I'M TRASH TO YOU!
I wish to say to your face, at least *I* have not killed, but that wouldn't do you justice. You've changed. The only thing that hasn't changed is that you hate me.
Every day, I fall...I fall further and further away from my life. I'm dying and you don't give a f*ck! You kill me, every time, every word. I try not to show the hurt, but it's there. You don't know how much...how much I just wish I could die.
Die.
Just die.
I want the pain to stop...I want it to stop! I can't take it. Your killing me, and all I can do is accept it. All I can do is wait for it to finally consume me. Then it's a strait path towards the razor blade. I've thought about it. I've thought hard about it.
It's not just you, but every time you say something, someone else must too. You start it. You start the pain I receive, this pain is worse than stones...YOU DON'T KNOW ME! WHY DO YOU HURT ME?!
I know your better than me. Your strong, your not afraid, you have a greater pride than I. Just leave me alone...please...Please Hiei just leave me alone. I can hardly take it...I can't bare any more words. Please...just make it stop.
Stop Killing me with those words. Those eyes, that sneer. Please stop. Make it stop.
I want the pain to go away.
~*~
Hiei placed down the journal he found lying on Kuwabara's desk. His eyes were wide, and his mouth dry. He...he didn't know. He didn't know what his words were doing. He didn't know.
He looked over at Kuwabara who slept on the floor.
Hiei had shown up injured, and unable to carry himself to Yukina's for help. Kuwabara bandaged him up, and gave him some of his life energy, he gave as much as he could until he himself, fainted.
Hiei woke up, and found Kuwabara just like that. He hadn't bothered to move him, just left him there, and spotted the journal. Now that he read it, he wished he hadn't seen it.
He looked over at Kuwabara, and picked him up, placing him gently in his bed. He pulled the covers over Kuwabara, and went into his bathroom. He came back with blades, and threw them out the window. Pain on his face.
When Kuwabara woke up, he and him needed to have a talk.
Hiei wanted to stop killing him, because after reading Kuwabara's words...
Kuwabara's words were killing him.
You think I'm fine? You think I'm happy?
DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH!!
Your killing me everyday.
I hate you...Hiei. I hate you. I try, I really do try dam*it!I try to be nice, to get you to accept me, to like me. I respect you, more than you could imagine. But no, I'M TRASH TO YOU!
I wish to say to your face, at least *I* have not killed, but that wouldn't do you justice. You've changed. The only thing that hasn't changed is that you hate me.
Every day, I fall...I fall further and further away from my life. I'm dying and you don't give a f*ck! You kill me, every time, every word. I try not to show the hurt, but it's there. You don't know how much...how much I just wish I could die.
Die.
Just die.
I want the pain to stop...I want it to stop! I can't take it. Your killing me, and all I can do is accept it. All I can do is wait for it to finally consume me. Then it's a strait path towards the razor blade. I've thought about it. I've thought hard about it.
It's not just you, but every time you say something, someone else must too. You start it. You start the pain I receive, this pain is worse than stones...YOU DON'T KNOW ME! WHY DO YOU HURT ME?!
I know your better than me. Your strong, your not afraid, you have a greater pride than I. Just leave me alone...please...Please Hiei just leave me alone. I can hardly take it...I can't bare any more words. Please...just make it stop.
Stop Killing me with those words. Those eyes, that sneer. Please stop. Make it stop.
I want the pain to go away.
~*~
Hiei placed down the journal he found lying on Kuwabara's desk. His eyes were wide, and his mouth dry. He...he didn't know. He didn't know what his words were doing. He didn't know.
He looked over at Kuwabara who slept on the floor.
Hiei had shown up injured, and unable to carry himself to Yukina's for help. Kuwabara bandaged him up, and gave him some of his life energy, he gave as much as he could until he himself, fainted.
Hiei woke up, and found Kuwabara just like that. He hadn't bothered to move him, just left him there, and spotted the journal. Now that he read it, he wished he hadn't seen it.
He looked over at Kuwabara, and picked him up, placing him gently in his bed. He pulled the covers over Kuwabara, and went into his bathroom. He came back with blades, and threw them out the window. Pain on his face.
When Kuwabara woke up, he and him needed to have a talk.
Hiei wanted to stop killing him, because after reading Kuwabara's words...
Kuwabara's words were killing him.