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A/N: Another post Rescue story. I love Olivia and I think she deserves better than what happened. Vivian needs to relinquish complete parental rights. Please review. Love, Lawabidingchild.
Loss of Heart
Central Park is so bleary. Its cold and ungodly snowy. I've never seen this before; not even as a child.
When I was a little girl, I was beaten and abused by my alcoholic mother. I always tried to run, but in the end, coming back to her was everything to me. I wanted to try and get a mother that would love me for who I really am. The mother that raised me, taught me everything, and kept me out of the cold wasn't the mother that I wanted. I didn't have that.
But I was given the chance to give that to someone who was also looking for it. And I lost that chance at the same time.
Parents aren't people that give birth to you. Maybe in the biological sense they are, but not in the familial sense. I was so close. I've always wanted a child. I wanted someone I could give a second chance to. Well, maybe that won't happen.
I can look around. All I am is a cop surveying the area. I could be that mother over there, carefully watching her child slide down the large playground equipment and being there to comfort her when she falls. I could be chasing my son through the snow, tossing snowballs at him with little mercy. But I'm not. I'm not a parent. Who was I fooling?
New York City never seemed so lonely.