Disclaimer...i dont own the characters or setting any of that ish, all belongs to S.M. i do however claim the series of events that unfold in this story. =] Enjoy!
BPOV
I convinced Edward to take me to a party on La Push beach. The Quileute's and the Cullen's made a new treaty to protect all of Forks together. No more "Crossing territories" bull crap. After the battle with the Newborns and Victoria, the wolves didn't seem as hateful toward the Cullen's. Everyone was finally getting along.
There was a huge bonfire burning and tons of alcohol and loud music. No adults were present and everyone was wild. Some people were swimming and some were dancing. Others were cuddling by the fire and there were several couples getting way too touchy-feely.
Edward and Jacob were joking with each other by a keg; it was like a miracle. I never thought I would see the day. Jasper was standing by Edward with that same pained look on his face again. Alice and I were dancing together amongst all the others who were dancing. I had a few drinks in my system and it made me let loose. Surprisingly I wasn't as clumsy as I thought Id be. Alice got closer to me and put her hand on my hip as we grinded against each other to the beat. We stared each other in the eyes and it seemed like everything but the music and us faded away.
She turned me around and I rubbed up against her. I looked at Edward and he had an eyebrow cocked and a small smile on his lips. I didn't know if it was the music and alcohol or if it was Alice that was turning me on so much. It could have been all three.
Edward and Jacob were both watching us intently now. I bit my lip and ran a hand up Alice's waist and their mouths dropped open. I laughed silently too myself and decided to tease them some more while dancing with Alice. She didn't seem to mind it and we had a blast.
After almost everyone drifted off from the party, Edward, Alice, and Jasper decided to take me back to their place for the night. Alice already called my dad and asked if I could spend the night, which he readily agreed for some odd reason but I didn't care. I loved spending time with the Cullen's.
I was way too giggly in the back seat with Alice. We just kept laughing at nothing. Everything was hilarious. Jaspers driving was wild and I kept sliding around on the seat. Alice and I kept falling on each other and it made the situation even funnier.
We made it to the house after a few minutes and Edward helped me up the steps. The rest of the family went out hunting, so it was just us. Alice made a brilliant suggestion to continue the party in the living room.
We turned on some music and continued to party. The dancing lasted up until three in the morning. We had lost track of time. The boys had left to go do something leaving Alice and I by ourselves resting on the couch. My head lay on her shoulder as we sat there. I looked up at her and smiled.
"I love you best friend." I slurred and then I went to kiss her cheek. She turned slightly and our lips collided. I jumped back in shock and she was already on the other side of the room.
"I'm sorry!" She shrieked with a pained look on her face. I just stood there dumbfounded. "Uhm, I'll just…. go. Goodnight Bella." Alice disappeared and I sat on the couch. I couldn't think clearly. My mind was rushed with so many thoughts and emotions that I became confused.
Edward and Jasper came in to find me with my face in my hands breathing deeply. Jasper could feel my mixed emotions. I was shocked, confused, and part of me was excited. Tiny butterflies made my heart escalade. I was also slightly turned on again. Edward read his thoughts and was by me in an instant. I glared at Jasper and he shrugged apologetically.
"What happened Bella?" Edward took my hand. I smiled at him reassuringly and shook my head. He is way to protective sometimes. `
"Nothing. I promise. I think I'm just gonna go to bed now. Goodnight Jasper." Edward trailed behind me lost in thought. I sometimes wished I had his ability to mind read so I could know what he was thinking. I wanted to know if he believed me that nothing happened.
When we got into his room I flung myself onto his bed and my body instantly relaxed. I was so sore and tired; my body seemed to sink into the bed. Edward sat lightly beside me. I turned to him and pulled him down to lay next to me. I cuddled into him and sighed. I was so tired.
"Bella?" Edward whispered after a few moments of silence. I sighed again and snuggled closer. "Hmm?" He just wasn't going to let this go.
"What happened downstairs?" I guess he didn't believe me. Darn. I sat up and smiled at him shaking my head.
"Nothing. I promise. I think all the alcohol just had a strange effect on me is all." Strange meaning lustful. Which was weird. Edward was the only person who has ever had that effect on me, but now Alice? It had to be the alcohol. I don't like women, let alone by best friend and fiancé's sister!
Edward looked at me skeptically. I sighed again, rolling my eyes. I climbed on top of him, straddling him. I rocked my hips back and forth and I could tell he liked it. He ground his teeth together and moaned.
"See? Just the alcohol." I teased. I bent over and kissed his neck. I felt the vibrations on his throat from a low growl. I persisted to grind my pelvis against his. When I felt his hard member it made me immediately moan and whimper. As quick as a flash Edward had rolled us over and had me pinned beneath him. He pressed himself firmly against me and I bit my lip. He was driving me insane and I wanted him now. I ripped his shirt open and raked my fingers down his chest. I wrapped my legs around his waist and we grinded against each other.
I couldn't believe this was happening. The furthest we ever got was his bare chest and kisses. There was never grinding and moaning before. He moaned as I pressed myself into him. The intensity of emotions was too much. It was driving me crazy. I felt like I needed something. I couldn't figure it out and it was frustrating! I whimpered and the next thing I knew Edward wasn't on me anymore. I looked up and he was on the opposite side of the room.
"Dang it! Edward? Why do you always do that?" I ran my fingers through my hair and blew out a frustrated breath. He just looked at me with lust and pain. "I trust you! You should trust me." He slid down the wall and just sat there. He rubbed his hands on the thighs of his jeans and sighed.
"I'm sorry Bella. It's just too risky. I might hurt you." I rolled my eyes. "I know, I know. So you keep saying. But we've tested and tested this and you have always been in control until you stop and think. Id rather you just feel instead of think." I pointed out.
"Besides the risk of hurting you, there is also our agreement, remember? We are waiting until we are married." I sighed again. I totally forgot for the moment. I looked at him and he smiled. I blew him a kiss and he laughed. How I loved him.
I stood up and kicked off my shoes. I slowly undid my pants and slid them off my waist, letting them pool around my ankles. I heard Edward's intake of breath and I looked at him. He was licking his lips and staring at my panties. It was my favorite thong. I smiled and turned to the bed. I climbed onto it and crawled towards the head of the bed, perfectly aware that my buttocks were exposed and that Edward was watching me.
I settled under the covers and motioned for Edward to join me. He lay on top of the blanket and sighed. "Lay under the covers, please?" I asked sweetly. Edward glared at me and then finally got under the covers. I nestled against his chest and soon I was drifting off to sleep.
APOV
Things were getting weird. First of all, I'm friends with the wolves now. Second, Bella's and my friendship just got strange. And third, how come I couldn't foresee any of this? Oh yeah, because I always had my visions focused on Jasper. His future was clean though. He hasn't become amazingly stronger with his control since we've been around Bella. I need to stop worrying about him and focus on all of us.
It's been three days since I last seen or spoken to Bella. After what happened, I've been too embarrassed to build up enough courage to face her. Edward! Oh he'll never forgive me. He probably already knows, but I've been avoiding him too. So far no one has noticed my straying away. I've been keeping to my room.
It was only an accident; I don't know why I'm freaking out so much over it. I could have prevented it, I think. I saw a quick flash when it happened and it startled me so I turned to Bella and then it did happen. If I had just kept my head turned it wouldn't have happened.
I'm being ridiculous. I need to just tell Edward what happened and then tell Bella I was sorry for avoiding her. It was just an accident and it meant absolutely nothing. Friends kiss all the time. It could have been just a friendly kiss. I need Esme's help.
I found her in the kitchen preparing Edwards and Bella's picnic basket. They were going to have lunch in the meadow today, although technically only Bella would be eating. It was a lovely day for a picnic.
Esme turned towards me as I entered the kitchen. I did a quick search to see if anyone would be listening in on us and seen that everyone was all preoccupied and that it was safe to speak.
"I need your advice." I cringed. I never really asked Esme for advice. Everyone else always came to her though. I guess there is a first for everything. She smiled and took my hands in hers.
"Alice dear, what is it?" I shut my eyes real tight and I knew that if I were still human I would be scarlet red right now from embarrassment. I let out a breath and opened my eyes. Esme looked so calm. She never really ever got upset. I don't know how she could keep cool all the time.
"Well, er….the other day, at that beach party, Bella had a few drinks…..and then we came here cause I didn't want Charlie to see her like that..well I had a vision." I paused, taking a deep breath and Esme nodded. Her brows furrowed a tiny bit, but she remained calm. "The vision was of," I looked around and tuned my hearing to see of anyone was around again, and then I whispered, "Bella and I kissed in my vision!" Esme's eyes widened in surprise, "But I could have prevented that! All she wanted to do was kiss me on the cheek, but because I had the vision, I was spooked and turned at the wrong moment and, BAM!" She jumped when I said the last part and then busted into a fit of giggles. I couldn't help myself and started laughing too.
After we calmed down I explained that I have been avoiding Bella and Edward and because it was so awkward I didn't know how to approach them and that I was afraid Edward would get mad. She shook her head and smiled.
"Im sure there is nothing to worry about dear. When they get back from their picnic talk to Edward about it, and then when you are sure he is fine speak to Bella. Apologize for freaking out and for avoiding her. Im sure she'll understand."
Esme is right. They will understand. It wont be too awkward. I hope Bella can forgive me for avoiding her though. I squeezed Esme with a tight hug and went back up to my room. Feeling better about myself, I picked up my journal and started to write. No one but Edward knew that I wrote poems. They were my way of coping and expressing myself. I always felt better after writing. With a smile on my face I scribbled away.
I kept searching the near future to see when Edward and Bella would come home, and my visions always said 5:15. I looked at the clock and it read seven after. Eight more minutes until they would be home and I would have to face them. All of a sudden it felt like my tummy did a back flip!
I took a deep breath and as quick as a flash I was racing to the meadow. I didn't want Jasper or the others to witness this in case things did get out of control. I was almost there so I slowed my pace concentrating on what would happen. I didn't see anything with made me even more anxious and I bit my lip.
When I got there, I saw that they were just packing up the food. Edward had already sensed me coming and greeted me with out turning to see me. He was bending over to put the food in the basket when he froze. I think he read my thoughts. He slowly turned to me with a smile on his face. A smile?
'Edward?' I thought loudly in my brain so he knew I was "talking" to him. Just then he busted out with laughter. I looked at Bella and she looked puzzled. I frowned at her to show her I had no idea what he was laughing at. A few moments later Edward stopped laughing and with our vampire speed ran to my side. He whispered so that only I would hear, "You don't have to worry, I understand and am not mad. Make up with Bella. Ill meet you back at the house in a bit." He squeezed my shoulder and disappeared.
I slowly turned towards Bella. She had the picnic blanket in her hand and still looked confused. I trudged over to her and took the blanket and proceeded to fold it in less than a second. She had her hands in her pocket and rocked back and forth on her heels.
"Listen, Bella. I'm sorry if it's seemed like I've been avoiding you…well I have been avoiding you and Edward. I didn't mean to be so shocked and awkward that night! I feel really stupid." I was constantly wringing my hands. She stepped closer to me and wrapped her arms around my middle, squeezing me tight.
"It's alright Alice. Calm down, its not a big deal. I'm assuming Edward knows and that's what he was laughing about?" I nodded. "See? Nothing to worry about. I'm ok, he is ok, and you should be too." She smiled. I felt so relieved that she didn't find it awkward. And I was so happy that she wasn't upset about me avoiding her. Now I just have to tell Jasper everything.
I hope he takes it as well as everyone else did. I would die if he hated me for this. Poor Jasper. I loved that man so much. Ugh! And his southern accent really got me going! Ugh, I needed to find him quickly and get it over with. I haven't really seen him in two days! What a nightmare this has been!
I took Bella's arm in mine and grabbed the picnic basket. I was happier for the time being as we skipped our way back home. I couldn't wait to get Jasper to that little cottage in the woods tonight. I smiled to myself.
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