Every Little Thing

Pairing: Addison and Derek end game, Derek and Meredith, Addison and Alex friendship

Disclaimer: Not Mine.

Author's Note: I really need a beta. Anyone interested? PM me here please

It hurt to see her like this.

She's unhappy

and I'm probably the only one who knows why.

I squint my eyes and I notice. She looks different.

Her eyes lost the spark of passion. It used to be the first thing you'd notice. Yeah the fiery red hair can't easily be ignored, but her doe blue green eyes always told a story; I noticed.

She took a deep breath and closed her eyes.

Torres went near her and asked if she was okay. She hesitated.

She took a sip from the paper cup that she's been holding since she got back from the cafeteria; that was an hour ago.

I don't get it. Yesterday, she was fine. She interacted with her patients and she performed about seven c-sections.

Today, she's simply staring at the hallway.

What happened?

I wanted to go near her, but I know that I shouldn't.

I couldn't.

Suddenly, the hallway was filled with huge grins and hysterical laughter. I looked at the direction she was staring at and saw Meredith grinning from ear to ear while Dr. Shepherd was hysterically laughing. I guess Meredith told him something funny, but I really couldn't tell. I was for focused on Addison.

I turned my attention back to her. She was still staring at Meredith and Derek with hurt in her eyes.

Tears were slowly falling down her cheeks; leaving traces of her mascara on her pale skin.

She didn't even bother to wipe them away.

It hurt to see her like this.

She tried to look away, but unfortunately she saw me staring at her. Her eyes were filled with pain and sorrow. I took a step closer to her and she shook her head.

She was insecure.

It hurt me to see her pain.

"Dr. Montgomery" I hesitated.

"Don't Karev." She started walking away from me. "Just don't." She whispered; enough for me to hear. Tears rushing down.

"Don't" she repeated, but honestly I think that last statement wasn't meant for me. It's was meant to be a reminder.

She wanted to remind herself where she was and who she is suppose to be.

I tried to walk faster to catch up to her.

"Addison." I yelled.

She was shocked by the use of her first name, so she immediately stopped. Her back still turned against me.

"Dr. Montgomery I'm-"

I couldn't finish my sentence. She suddenly wrapped her arms around my back and her face buried on my shoulder.

"I-uh- I know"

I could feel her stiffen when she realized what she was doing, but before she could let go, I wrapped my arms around her and rubbed circles on her back. I could feel her slowly relaxing, so I placed a small kiss on her temple.

"It's okay." She whispered.

I know that people are starting to look at us now. I could hear some nurses gossiping behind me, but right now all I care about is the woman in my arms.

She was hurt and she needed me.

I could hear her trying to hold in her sobs, but I can feel her tears on my baby blue scrubs.

"Is this seriously happening?" Izzie said a little too loudly.

Thankfully Addison didn't move, but I could see the chief glaring at me from the corner of my eye.

Oh no! He was walking towards us. He looked confused, but his reaction quickly turned into concern when he heard Addison's soft sobs. He opened his mouth to say something, but I shook my head. He nodded in understanding. He wasn't offended or anything. He just understood that Addison needed a moment, so he walked away; leaving me and Addison hugging intimately in the middle of the surgical floor.

After a few minutes, she pulled away and wiped her tears.

"Uhh" She avoided eye contact. "I'm sorry"

"Addi-" She looked at me and shook her head.

"Dr. Montgomery?" Maybe she'd talk to me if I talk to her as my boss.

"Yes? Dr. Karev?"

Her walls are back up.

"Can we talk about what just happened?"

"Karev I'd appreciate it if we didn't."

She started walking away again.

"Addison!" I yelled hoping to catch her attention again.

It didn't work.

I shook my head and started chasing after her. When I finally caught up to her, I grabbed her arm, not forcefully, and dragged her to the nearest on-call room.

"What the hell do you want from me Alex?" she groaned.

"I just want to know if you're okay."

"I am" she insisted.

"Stop it okay! I know"

"No you don't!" She yelled. "You don't know anything!"

"Addison-" I took a step closer but she quickly stepped away.

"What do want me to say?"

I wasn't planning on it, but I couldn't let her stay in denial. I took a deep breath and yelled; "Damn it Addison. Stop denying it!"

"Okay fine! My divorce was finalized today" she whispered. Tears were quickly falling again, but this time she was trying to hide it. "Is that what you want me to say? Huh? Is it enough?"

"Oh"

"Yeah" she held took a step closer to the door.

"Okay. Now tell me what's really the issue"

"Excuse me?" She turned around to face me.

"What's wrong Addie?"

"Dr. Montgomery" she corrected.

"Fine. Dr. Montgomery what the hell is wrong?"

"Just please stay out of my business Karev." She opened the door. She pleaded. Her voice cracked. I was worried.

She was Satan, the ruler of all that is evil. She wasn't suppose to be crying like this. I'm mad. No! I'm furious. I hate Shepherd. He's suppose to be McDreamy. He's not suppose to be in love with a woman who is not his wife. He's suppose to love Addison.

"Okay well soon enough you'll start showing, so I'll just wait till then." I took a seat on the cold bed behind me.

She quickly closed the door and locked it.

I expected her to yell at me or slap me but instead, she sat beside me.

"Don't tell anyone." She pleaded.

"Is it-"

"Yeah. It's Derek's"

"Does he know?"

She doesn't reply. She just takes a deep breath.

"Are you gonna tell him?"

"I don't know."

"Well I think you should-"

"Karev I will tell him." She assured me. "Just not yet."

I placed my hand on top of hers. She stared at me and for first time since the hospital prom, she gave me a genuine smile. It was a small smirk, but still it's a genuine move. Her head rested on my shoulder and we just just sat there. Our hands were intertwined and my nose was buried in her hair.

Her pager went off, and she groaned.

"I should go" she still sounded vulnerable, but it could easily be mistaken for exhaustion.

"Yeah. I should go to." I assured her. I stood up and held my hand out for her. To my surprise, she took it.

"Before we go, I just want to know something" She blurted out.

"Okay..."

"How'd you know I was pregnant?"

I smirked. "I have a good teacher."

She smiled and walked away.