Hindsight
by Man...or Astro Man?
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Hindsight is 20/20
Its very easy to look back on what you could have been or had. Ever since it
happened, I have not gone a day without thinking about it.
She's so beautiful. She's laughing now, a rare sight. Very few men could make her laugh
like that. The way she throws her head back and that treasured laugh comes from her soft
lips the lips that I never kissed. Her hair looks like a waterfall of gold, those two braids
tied together at the back.
I shut my eyes as she reaches for him. The one who returned her love. And suddenly
something is missing, her gorgeous laugh. I look up and see that she is kissing him, my
enemy and my friend. There are times when I assure myself that he stole her from me. But
then I think of how I treated her, how I rejected her love and still she came back for more
until finally it was too much.
I had my chance. All those long nights in the Sanc kingdom, those missions against OZ,
all those times in outer space, I could have just said it. But I didn't and now she's gone. I
feel like I'm not the only one with a lost love.
Quatre had strong feelings towards Trowa at one time, until he realized how confused he
was. He doesn't love Trowa, it's easy to see that when he cradles Dorothy in his arms.
No problem there.
Duo. I always counted on him to watch my back, I trusted Duo with my life, but not my
secret. My love for her. The God of Death now leans in to kiss Hilde, the girl who fell
for him head over heels, just like mine did. I happy for him, even though my face doesn't
change.
I know that when I sleep alone, she touches him in ways that others would kill for. The
way they make love at night, the way she moans and sighs for him and not me. The way
she calls his name and not mine.
I realize that she's looking at me now. I feel myself smiling, but that smile fades as dose
her glance to me. She doesn't care anymore. I broke her heart one too many times. Why
didn't the Wing Zero show me this future, so I could have said something.
It hurts too much to see them kiss. I have to have her back.
"Relena" I hear myself whisper as I did so many times in the past. "I love you"
But it is too little too late. Because I see her say those same three words to him, breaking
a smile on his face and prompting another kiss.
I have to kill him for taking my princess, I will make him pay.
I'm going to kill Trowa Barton