"You can't do this, you just can't."
Those were the last words leaving Alex's lips that day in front of her. It was just a tiny little piece of everything spinning around in her head. She was angry, she was sad, she was... broken. She's not even doing anything to me, this is not about me at all. She kept thinking while walking down the street, eyes on the ground, no planned destination. She just doesn't love me like I love her. A lonely tear accompanied the words playing in her head.
A cold breeze brought her back to reality and Alex stopped her tracks to walk in a coffee shop on her right. She asked for a middle sized coffee absentmindedly and walked to a booth next to the big window. I tried covering myself in ice many times before, my damn heart melts it every time. Alex chuckles to herself and shakes her head looking down at her coffee. Kara would chime in now and say something like 'Alex, it's against your nature to be cold to people, you are so kind' Her smile fades slowly and there is silence in her thoughts and also around her, she's absent for a few seconds, her hands warm around the coffee mug.
Then all of a sudden, her head is up and her eyes look through the window. There is determination in them. I have to protect myself somehow. Fuck everyone else, I have to care about myself too. She thinks. I have to keep some of the ice at least. Alex's eyes flicker slightly, if someone had been paying attention to them, they would have noticed the change. It was almost invisible, but it was there.
Her tears went back to where they came from and her face showed her usual expression with a hint of resolution added. While taking a sip from her coffee Alex looked around. Nobody there would have guessed the storm that had been blowing her mind a minute ago. She managed to keep some of the ice inside her, away from the melting warmth of her heart. It was the only way she found to protect herself from more pain. And dammit if someone really wants to get some of that warmth they'll have to work their ass off, 'cause I'm not going to make a move. Period. She concluded.
A tiny little something that was itching in my mind and wanted to come out :)
No idea where I'd be taking this or if I'll continue... but if I do it will be Sanvers for sure!