A/N: I don't own Full Metal Panic! Or any of its characters. I do own Losilla however and if you ever wish to use her in one of your stories, please ask beforehand. Thank You For Your Time.

Mithril Base Beta: January 6, 1996 1:30 A.M.

Dear Diary,

Today I've had enough. My brother, Sergeant Sosuke Sagara, tells me every day that I make his life hell and that I bring back his worst memories. I don't try to hurt him. It seems that everything that I do isn't good enough. I've tried my best to be a good sister, but it seems that'll never happen.

I'm leaving my home for many years, Mithril that is, and going out on my own. Today's my birthday and I know I should be happy, but I can't be happy! My life's gonna be different from tomorrow on and I'll just have to live with it. I would like to leave my diary to my best friends who, to me, are my real family. Please take good care of her and I would like to ask if Tessa could keep it in her safe. I only grant permission to Teletha Testarossa, Kurz Weber, Melissa Moa, and Richard Mardukas. If anyone disregards these warnings, I will administer punishments if needed. I wish you all a long happy life and I Hope You Have A Very Good Life! I hope that I'm not terribly missed. It's not like I killed myself. I wish you all a very happy life.

Don't tell my brother about this diary. I got it from him on our birthday in '92 and it still isn't full. I leave the last pages for you to fill. If my brother asks about me, tell him I've been killed on the battlefield and not to mourn me. I wish I could tell this stuff to his face, but I already tried. He wouldn't stay still long enough for me to tell him anything.

I'm sorry if some words are smudged or anything. I've been crying while writing. I'll miss you all, excluding my brother. I don't care about that asshole anymore! I love everyone who's been kind to me and I hope that you'll be able to live without me. I need some time to myself for a while. I might see you guys again someday. Commander Mardukas is the best father figure ever. I hope I was like a daughter to you. Tessa, you were like a big sister to me and for that I'm glad to have known.

I Love You All So Much! Goodbye.

With Much Love,

Assistant Commander Losilla Aliera Sagara

P.S. Tell Kurz that he can have my lingerie. Where I'm going I don't need it.

P.S.S Tessa, under my pillow is a note. I would like you to give it to Mr. Sagara. I no longer think of him as a brother as of this moment. Take Care!

To Sosuke: If you ever find this diary, know this. I love you big brother.

"She's really gone?" Melissa asks sadly. "It still feels like she'll pop out of the engine room and scare the shit out of everyone."

"Yeah, I know what'cha mean. When she was here there wasn't ever a dull moment." Kurz said.

"I miss her!" Tessa says thickly. "I think she left because her brother always told her horrible things."

Everyone in Losilla room started crying.

Just then Commander Richard Mardukas walked in.

"What's all this crying for Captain?" Mardukas asked. "Did something bad happen?"

"Yes, Commander. Do you remember Assistant Commander Losilla Sagara?" Tessa asks.

"Yes ma'am. I remember her." Mardukas said. "Why do you ask?"

"Look at this!" Kurz exclaimed. He then proceeded to shove the diary in Mardukas' face.

"What is this thing Sergeant Weber?" Mardukas asks seriously. "Does this have to do with your crying?"

"Yes it does. Just take it already!" Kurz says. "You may start crying too."

"All right soldier." Mardukas says as he takes the diary. "Is this Losilla's?"

"Yes, and she even said Kurz could have her lingerie." Melissa said. "She wouldn't say that unless she wasn't planning on coming back."

"She was like a daughter to me." Mardukas said. "I miss her too."

Sosuke walked in.

"Why are all of you in Losilla room?" he demanded.

"She's not here Sosuke." Kurz said. "She left before anyone else was awake."

"Losilla left?" Sosuke asked. "Why did she leave?"

"She left you a note." Tessa said. "Here it is."

She then hands the note to Sosuke.

Tears start coming down Sosuke's cheeks as he reads the note.

"Sosuke, what's wrong?" Melissa asks worriedly. "Are you alright?"

Sosuke looks at her for a moment, then drops the note and runs out of the room.

"Sosuke!" Tessa calls after him. Kurz starts to run after him but is stopped by Mardukas.

"He just needs some time to himself." Mardukas says. "I feel the same way."

Kurz then picks up Losi's note and asks. "What made him start crying? I wonder."

"Read the note then." Lissa said. "You might get it then."

"Alright, I'll do it."

Here's what the note said.

Hello brother. If you are reading this, then I'm no longer in the world of the living. This is something to say I care. You present is in your room in your closet by your favorite gun. I liked your magnum pistol, so I took it with me. I know you would've given it to me sooner or later. I'm sorry about this, but I couldn't take you telling me that it was my fault that your life was shitty. I think you said that to make yourself feel better, but I don't really care. I still love you even though you hate me. I know why everything is always my fault. It's because I'm still alive when everyone else you used to love is dead. I don't know why either. Now I won't be a nuisance or anything else to you! I Hope You're Happy You Asshole! I can't have any fun can I? I love you brother. Even if I die now, I have no regrets. I leave you my photo album to finish. My latest picture is in there. You're my older twin brother. Even if you hate me, always know that I'll love you. I love you, Kashim. I hope you're happy now that you don't have to worry about me anymore. I hope I died valiantly in battle. Don't ever forget our promise!

"Wow, that's a long note." Kurz said. "It's like she was writing a letter."

"Madame Captain." Mardukas said. "I think you should take Miss Losilla's diary and lock it in your safe as stated in her diary."

"You are right Commander, I shall." Tessa says. "I will do that now."

Meanwhile

They should have found my diary by now. I wonder what reaction I got from Sosuke. Never mind, I need to get to Japan. I hope I make friends.

"The ship has landed in the harbor. All passengers off." the Mimosa's captain says. "Have a nice day."

At least someone is pleasant. I really wish I had given Tessa my cell number. I'm so lonely now. I wonder if I can call up Kaname. I haven't seen her in forever.