"Don't worry Bella, I won't hurt you" I told him no in the beginning. I told him no during the act. I told him no, I told him no. It didn't matter though. Not to him. I cried the entire time. I cried as he threw me out of his car. I cried as I walked home in the rain. It was only when I reached my house that I realized I couldn't go in. I couldn't look my father in the eyes and tell him what had happened. There was only one person I thought to call, my best friend Jake. It took him a second to answer but when he did, I couldn't say anything and the tears I had calmed were once again unleashed.
He could tell who it was though and he drove straight over to my house. I sat there on the wet grass in the pouring rain crying my eyes out waiting. Then he got to my house. That's when my memory goes a little blurry though. Actually that's when I stopped remembering everything. I wasn't entirely sure how I got to Jake's house but when I woke up I didn't care.
That night was horrible. I kept waking up screaming my heart out from nightmares. My mind just kept reliving that one moment. Luckily Jake was there I doubt he got any sleep that night waiting for my shrieks to come once again. Each time Jake just held me as I cried rubbing my back until at last I fell asleep again.
At school nothing changed he didn't acknowledge me his group and he talked about me I could tell. They gave me dirty looks and I heard their derogative words. Jake was around me as much as he could be but we were in different grades so he could not protect me every time. It took a while for life to become normal. But with my luck of course that changed fairly quickly.
I started getting sick very often, every morning in fact at the same time of 4:02. At first I thought nothing of it though. I thought it was the flu or maybe just suffering some shock after what had happened. Then I became very tired again though I passed it off as stress. Even when I missed my period the thought never came to me. It wasn't even until Jake and I had one of our sleepovers that he realized it for me.
It started out so normal. His suspicions started when I wanted to go to bed at 8. He was so used to us staying up until it was daylight again. The look on his face said it all. He scrunched his eyebrows together in worry.
"What?" I said to him "It's just been a long week" He shrugged his shoulders and let it go. However when the 4:02 toilet meeting came was when his worry wouldn't go away. I woke up and swore running loudly to the bathroom not truly thinking of the time. His snoring body quickly shot up and screamed my name in a sleepy daze. As he saw my dark figure shoot up the stairs he followed behind and held my hair.
"Bella are you alright?" He asked as I raised my hand for a towel.
He handed it to me and as I wiped my mouth I replied "Fine. It's been going on for a while I'm sure it's just the flu though" He put his hand out to help me stand up and as I started to brush my teeth I looked at my pale reflection in the mirror.
His eyebrows were once again scrunched together with concern. "Bella" He paused as I looked at him in the mirror. "Are you" He trailed off thinking about it longer. "Pregnant" I dropped my toothbrush to the ground.
"What?" I practically screeched.
"Think about it Bella" I looked at myself in the mirror again. That was when it all came together finally. My eyes grew with realization.
I turned to him a cried he just help me whispering encouraging words into my ears. "I can't stay here Jake. We need to go" I said in between sobs.
"Bella what do you mean it's 4 in the morning" He looked at me as if I was crazy. I didn't say anything I just dragged him out to my truck grabbing my keys off of the key rack as we walked out the door. "Bella are you crazy! Where are we going?"
I turned around to face him "Your house" I unlocked my truck and motioned for him to move to the passenger side.
"My house? Don't you think Charlie will be suspicious of you not being in the house" Though his words made sense I didn't care I needed to get away from my house and fast.
I drove in the wrong direction Jake yelling at me trying to get me to notice him but I couldn't. We stopped at a midnight drug store and as I parked I realized I couldn't go in. "Jake you have to go in there" I begged.
He stopped his bickering and looked at me. "Why?"
"Because the pharmacist knows my dad. He won't know you" Jake cursed under his breath but got out of the car and went inside. I sat back in my seat and breathed a sigh of relief.
I looked down and my stomach "I doubt you can hear me little baby but this is your mom. I don't think I can do this baby. It's not your fault though" I sighed I was talking to nothing. At least nothing that could hear me.
Jake quickly returned to the car and buckled up. "Thanks Jake" Though I was pretty sure he was upset he just smiled.
"Anything for you Bella" I smiled back at him. I started my loud truck and as we drove I could think of nothing more than what I was going to do with my new life.