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A Meaningless Life

Chapter 1: An Unfortunate Meeting

Kobayashi wasn't content. Content was actually the furthest thing from what he felt about could he be content to live alone starving, cold and desperate to find something that would kill him? He wasn't content with how his life was rather he was use to it. Every day had gone more or less the same way waking up alone in the abandoned Ferris wheel cart with his stomach protesting against the lack of food. The only thing that he could use to differentiate the days were the ways in which he tried to kill himself. Some days he would try falling from a building slowly climbing higher and higher until he ran out of floors to throw himself off of. Not too long ago he gave up on the idea of ingesting anything poisonous as the contents would violently come right back up his throat instead of killing him. He couldn't even cut himself to release the tension and frustration of every day's lack of success. Sometimes he wondered why he still tried.

"This is so frustrating!" He complained towards the sky.

He wanted to die but no matter what he did there was no release from this pointless life. Just the night before he had carelessly dropped himself from the last tallest building near him. Even if he wanted to die there was no point in doing so around others. Frankly, he hated people and tried to avoid any unnecessary interactions with them. If anyone were around when he fell from the building they would've made a huge commotion for nothing. No matter the height he fell from the wind would sweep beneath him and create some sort of barrier that would destroy anything that could harm him. He had been so hopeful that at the height of the building would be too much for whatever it was that prevented him from dying. There was no such luck as he landed with a large crash without gaining a scratch for his efforts. Not even slamming a jagged piece of glass forward did anything as it shattered in seconds before it could even touch his skin.

"Why can't I die?" He could feel tears threatening to push through again at the memory. He hated how sensitive he felt after each failed attempt. Removing himself from the Ferris wheel cart that he called home he made his way into the first floor of a nearby abandoned building.

The building was large and extensively damaged both in part due to the old age and his many attempts of suicide that resulted in nearby items getting blown up. He was thankful for the surrounding decaying buildings for keeping out the cold or prying eyes. He decided to sit nearby the headless angel statue on top of the stairs, for some reason it gave him some sort of comfort. The rays of sun that illuminated the building felt warm as he hugged his knees. In that peace and quiet, he drifted to sleep.

The sounds of murmurs and footsteps stirred him from his nap. He could feel his heart racing as the sounds grew louder.

"Who is it? Why are they here?" He wondered.

He had managed to find this place to live in isolation. No one stepped foot in this abandoned structures. The fear of someone taking away what little he had was starting to get to him. Whoever it was was coming closer Kobayashi was convinced that they meant to harm him. For a split second, he relaxed when he saw a small dog barking at him. The dog appeared that it wouldn't get any closer and desperately he hoped it would stay that way.

"Stay away!" He hoped that his words would somehow be understood by the small animal.

Someone in an orange jumpsuit spoke to him. Kobayashi just wanted them to go away before anything bad happened. He could feel that same sensation he got in the pit of his stomach when he would fall from buildings right before he hit the ground. It was an unwelcoming feeling that only resulted in destruction around him. Dread seized him when the dog ran towards him.

"Stay away!" He moved back just enough for the dog to lightly touch the mysterious barrier that kept him from harm. A whimper was heard as the dog was pushed back. "It's not my fault. It's not my fault." He murmured to himself. Without another look at the dog's owner, he jumped from the broken window behind him. He felt horrible for hurting the animal however he knew that if he stuck around the dog's owner could also be harmed. Or worse he could be arrested and locked up somewhere. Either way, he wouldn't see that person again so he kept running as soon as his feet touched the ground.

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For once Hanasaki was thankful to have been put on the mission of finding the lost dog. The dog had led him straight to the most interesting person he had ever met. When he'd first saw the stranger curled up, face hidden behind a hood in that old abandoned building he wondered why someone so young was homeless. From the base of the stairs, he could tell that the homeless person was fearful of the small animal. He tried to ease the tension slowly moving to pick up the animal, but the dog had other ideas. The moment the dog ran towards the stranger hitting something that sent it flying back whimpering he feared the worse. He was more or less trained to deal with hostility and could hold his own in a fight if the stranger decided to attack him too. There was no need for such a reaction as the stranger jumped out of the window before he realized what happened. He didn't know what to think of the way the homeless stranger took off running as if the fall hadn't phased him at all. For now, he turned his attention back to the dog whimpering on the ground. The sound pierced his very soul.

"It's alright." He said gently picking up the injured animal.

By some sort of miracle, the dog had survived the attack. Pushing back the questions of what the stranger had attacked with he ran to the nearest vet. Hanasaki knew that death was a normal part of life, still he wouldn't simply stand by. If he could save a life he would do anything he could.

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Staring down a guns' barrel Kobayashi hoped that this was finally the end. He couldn't take the fact that he had harmed another living thing. Why couldn't it have been him who was hurt? Deep down he hoped that the animal somehow survived. Based on past experiences he didn't have much faith that would be the result of his uncontrollable actions. His heart felt heavy at the thought. Taking a deep breath he fired the gun into his mouth. Almost immediately the bullet forced its way up his throat making him gag.

"Not even a gun can kill me?" The soreness in his throat was the only thing that remotely resembled the release that he believed death would give him. Unfortunately, the slight pain quickly disappeared leaving him with only disappointment.

With flowers in hand, Kobayashi decided to go back to the place he had that horrible run in with that dog. Although the dog had frightened him he never wanted to kill it or harm it in any way. He loved animals way more than people. He wasn't some monster that enjoyed killing living things.

"I'm sorry." He whispered as he scattered flowers around the small puddle of blood on the ground. More than ever he wished that he could control this unknown power he had. Why was he cursed with it? The only answer he came up with was that he deserved this. He deserved to be forever trapped in this cycle of destroying everything around him while not being able to destroy himself.

"You care very deeply don't you."

He jumped back at those words. Standing at the base of the stairs was the dog's owner. Quickly he leaped out of the broken window just as he did earlier. He was sure that he wouldn't be followed, but only moments later the dog's owner followed out the window.

"Who is this person?" He asked himself as he watched something shoot out from the stranger's wrist. Almost acrobatic the stranger fell towards him.

"Wait up." The stranger yelled just before he made contact with the ground.

Kobayashi didn't wait to take off again. He tried his best not to look back as he was being chased. Whoever this person was definitely wasn't in the right mind to go after him.

"I shouldn't have gone back there." He yelled at himself.

Farther and farther he ran until he no longer heard the stranger yelling after him. His lungs started to ache as he caught his breath. He'd never been chased like this before it was both exhilarating and unnerving.

"You're very fast." The stranger spoke standing in front of him.

Kobayashi knew he had to run, but his legs and lungs felt so heavy. Even though he couldn't die from starvation his body couldn't keep up all this movement on the little he managed to consume.

"Please don't run away. I just want to talk."

"You'll die if you come near me."

He didn't know what to do. He didn't feel like running off anymore nor did he want to be yelled at by a stranger. He felt horrible about the dog and didn't need to be blamed for its death.

"Here." The stranger said placing a bottled drink near him.

Since he didn't see the stranger get the drink he wondered where it came from. His body craved for the drink after the exhaustion. Hesitantly he took the bottle. If the drink was poisoned he would survive yet the stupid smile on the stranger's' face still made him nervous. Opening the bottle he chugged the contents which caused a coughing fit. He hadn't tasted anything like this before, but he knew it definitely wasn't water or poison.

"Do you like it? It's cider." The stranger laughed.

He refused to look at the idiot. He hadn't tasted cider before today. The way it fizzed tickled his throat as he slowly sipped at the liquid left in the bottle. For a moment silence hung between them. It was uncomfortable. He wanted the stranger to just leave.

"Hey, I'm sorry about today."

Sorry? Kobayashi couldn't understand why the stranger was apologizing. He was the one who killed the strangers' pet. This stranger would think of him as a monster just like everyone else.

"I didn't mean to frighten you this morning. That dog just ran off on its own."

" I...I didn't mean to ...kill..it."

He could hear the stranger move from the spot besides him. He could feel his whole body tense as he heard the footsteps stop in front of him. Looking through his cascaded bangs he could see the stranger bent down in front of him staring. Lifting his head he finally took in the sight of the stranger's' features; bright cerulean blue eyes framed by short brown hair and a bright smile. Kobayashi hadn't seen anyone like this person before, then again he made sure not to really look at anyone. The stranger reached his hand forward and was knocked back by the strong barrier that protected Kobayashi.

"Ouch." The stranger said as he readjusted himself from the impact. "You really don't like to be touched do you?"

"It's not my fault! I don't have control over it."

"I didn't mean to upset you."

"I wouldn't intentionally kill an animal."

"And you didn't."

"What?" He could feel something in his heart grow lighter. He was unsure what the stranger was saying. He must've killed the dog, that's what happened when he was frightened.

"You didn't kill the dog."

"But there was blood."

"That protection of yours sliced its leg, but he seems to be doing a lot better now at the vet. I'm glad the dog didn't decide to jump into your arms."

Kobayashi couldn't believe it. He was certain that he had killed yet again another living creature. The dog was alive; that thought alone could make him burst into tears.

"That thing you can do is very impressive."

"I don't think it is."

"But you're invincible."

He hated how the stranger's' eyes lit up as he spoke. Whatever this curse was, didn't make him feel invincible. It only brought destruction and a pain that he could never be freed from. Of course, this idiot wouldn't know a thing about the struggles he faced from this curse. To anyone else this was an amazing power, but to him it consistently limited what he could feel or experience. Life meant nothing if he couldn't touch things without fear of his surroundings being sliced or shattered.

"You don't know what you're talking about."

"Maybe I don't... I find it very amazing."

"Well, I don't... I just want to die."

Kobayashi didn't know why he was still talking to this stranger. If he wanted he could run off now that he had rested. There was no point in continuing this conversation. He doubted he would have to interact with this person after today.

" I have to go. Let me know if you want to see the dog again."

As he watched the stranger run off he couldn't help but wonder who was this strange person. Although the interaction hadn't been as horrible as he thought he hoped that he wouldn't have to talk to another person for as long as he lived. Pulling up the hood of his jacket he made his way back to his home.

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Hanasaki wondered if there was something he should've done to assure that he would meet the invincible stranger again. He could almost kick himself for not leaving his wallet behind so there was a reason to turn back. There was something that drew him to the invincible stranger that he couldn't even begin to put into words. Whoever this person was he cared very deeply about the dog he'd injured. There were so many questions he wanted to ask, but he tended to put his foot in his mouth. Already he had run into that problem calling the stranger invincible, which wasn't taken as a compliment by the other. He really thought this person was amazing. The stranger's looks alone was beyond words. It wasn't until he had decided to sit across from him that he realized how those ruby red eyes radiated against that fair skin and the stray strands of silver hair that attempted to hide those eyes. There was so many emotions behind those eyes, some which felt way too familiar to him. Opting to keep a positive outlook he recalled how ruby eyes shined with relief when he told the stranger that the dog had survived.

"I am an idiot! I forgot to ask him his name! I guess I'll just have to ask him tomorrow."

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Author notes:

What did you think? Thanks for reading!

I really enjoyed this series. One major thing I hated in the first episode was the death of the dog so I decided to rewrite that part. I'm not sure how much more I'm going to follow the canon in episodes or how long this story will be. I wasn't really planning on writing this story since I have yet to finish another work on Fanfiction.