Chapter 1

I was gently falling asleep on the back seat, I could still hear my parents whispered conversation coming from the front of the car. That's when I saw a blinding light coming from quite a distance. It was just another car but it was getting closer and closer with encridble before I knew it it hit our car with great forceand my body jerked to the other side of the carmy windows glass fell on top of meand blood starting to gush out of my leg. I could feel the small drops of blood falling from my face from the small cuts the glass had made. I turned to see my parents and saw my dad who was struggling to get out of his seat with blood running down his face, but when I turned to see my mom all I saw was a lifeless drained body and that's when I knew………..

Beep beep

I jerked out of bed and quickly turned off my alarm. I was drenched in sweat and hair was stuck all over my face and shoulders. I sat still afraid to move. I could hear my dad, Charlie, moving around downstairs and then out the front door.

I got up slowly and walked into the bathroom. Everything was completely white in the bathroom and my own room. What could I say I was a very simple person. My reflection showed a girl with dark thick hair, very pale white face, and any emotion was gone. I turned on the shower and got in. the warm water calmed me down. I got out and walked to the closet I opened the old door to reveal a very small wardrobe. I picked out some simple jeans a black shirt and a grey sweater to go on top. I quickly pulled the clothes on. I picked up my hair in a messy bun slipped on my balck flats and made my way down the stairs.

I looked around, to my left was the tv room were Charlie now spent most of his time watching sports and drinking beer. I walked out the front door and stepped into the cold and thick air of forks, Washington. There was a slight drizzle as I walked to school. It was a long walk and it gave me time to think something that I had tried to avoid all summer.

It was the first day of a new school year. All my old friends had heard what happened at the begging of summer. So at first they all tried to cheer me up afterwards. But since no one could cheer me up, not even Edward who has been my best friend since I was in kindergarten, they mostly all just left me alone to give me some time by myself, since I ignored all of them.

The quit walk to school made me remember it had been 2 full months since my mother had died, and yet I still had not recovered not even a little bit from all the shock. And Charlie hardly ever doing anything didn't seem to make the situation any better. I felt completely trapped.

I walked up the front steps of forks high school. As I walked in I could feel peoples eyes digging holes in me. They were all making commentd on my outfit and the way I looked. My wet hair had covered the back of my sweater with water and now I could feel it starting to go through my shirt onto my skin.

I went into the office to pick up my schedule.

"hi" I said quitly

"how can I help you" the secretary said back smiling.

"can I get my schedule, please"

" of course, lets see here swan swan swan" she said going through a file cabnit. "here it is" she handed me the paper and went back to her work.

I walked out of the office and looked at my locker number. B27

I made my way down the hallway and saw Edward standing by his locker when I noticed my locker was right next to his. He started to smile as he saw me walk towards him I dint return the smile. Instead when I got there I quickly turned to my locker opened it and started to organize my stuff.

"hi" he said a looking taken aback and any smile wiped away from his face.

"hi" I said coolly

then I grabbed my things and went to my first class.

I made my way to back of the clas and sat down on the last row at the corner. People were standing up and talking and catching up with old friends that they hadn't seen over the summer. The bell rang and the math teacher, , told everyone to sit down. No one sat next to me and I was grateful that way I wouldn't have to put up with anyone trying to get me to talk or cheer me up. Ms. Gonzalez started to lecture us on what we would be learning this year. I sat back in my chair no intention of paying attention to the class.

The door swung open anmd Edward walked in and handed ms. Gonzalez a pass of why he was late.

" ok, well why don't you go take a seat next to ms. Swan"

he look over to me and mae his way to back and sat down quitly next to me looking very confused and surprised.

Then I saw a whit piece of paper appear in front of me.

I opened it and found very neat handwriting, it belonged to Edward.

are you okay?

I looked at the note and then wrote very messy

Fine

Are you sure you look pretty sick maybe you should go home?

Now that I thought about it I did feel pretty sick. I grabbed all my stuff and walked to the front of the room.

"yes ms. Swan?"

"I'm not feeling very well may be excused for the rest of the day?"

"yes you do look sick why don't you just go home and get some rest. Ill tell all your other teachers that you went home"

"okay thank you"

I quickly walked out of the room. Wow I must have looked really bad to get out of school that easily. I eft my things in my locker and started for the front door. It was still drizzeling when I walked outside buti didn't care I would take my chances.

I started my long walk home and before I knew it it was pouring rain. I lifted my head up to the sky and felt the heavy rain drops falling against my bare skin. I usually hated the rain, but right now it felt good. My skin was reacting to cold and I could feel the goose bumps all over me, but it didn't matter. Nothing really matter to me anymore. I started to walk forward again. But instead of walking home I made a turn and I was in the cemetery.

I stopped at the headstone that said

Renee Swan

Loveing mother and wife who will never be forgotten.

Tears came to my eyes when I read the words. I feel to my knees. Which had become like sticks since I had started to have a lack of appetite. I laid down on the ground next to were my mothers body would be. The rain came pouring down in buckets. In less then a minute I was completely drenched from head to toe. My eyes were closed and I started to look back at all the hppy times I used to have with my mother. Nothing was the same anymore for me.

The sky started to get dark so I decided to make my way home. The rest of the walk I didn't have much to think about, so I just stared up at the sky which had started to clear up. I reached my house and walked in through the door I quickly ran up the stairs making puddles behind me. I turned the hot water and jumped into the shower. I fet the hot wter running down my neck. The smell of my familiar shampoo really soothed me. I got out of the shower and put on my comfortable suits. I blowdried my hair making it pin straight and then back into my room.

I laid down in bed and surprisingly my eyes begn to drop before I knew it I was asleep.