Hey,

Here's a new chapter in the Greylight saga. The Grey's version of Eclipse, for people who have not seen Eclipse yet, This chapter does not contain spoilers to the movie or the book. This is Meredith dealing with her sister's dead. The storyline of Eclipse will start in chapter 2 or maybe even chapter 3. I hope you enjoy this, Alsoo check out the Addison Montgomery story, for real fens of Addison as a vampire. Coming later Callie's story. There are strange romances coming your way. Prepare for a great Eclipse story, introducing a bunch of new romances and charecters. Review my story, Tell me what you would like to see happen. Romances that are welcome, and charecters from other shows who you would love to see appear in this universe. Thank for reviewing and reading my story. I have followed the idea about keeping Vanessa in the family. The whole family will find out about vamires. Just wait and see. In this story there will be Lexie/Mark, Cristina/Owen, Callie/Arizona, Addison/?(You can tell me), Finn/? (Again!), Izzie/Alex. And offcourse our favorite couples. And Erica is back!

Enjoy, Tell me what you think, and seriuosly you people should review!

Ellen(TempeGeller)

Greylight saga: Eclipse

1. Dead vampire sleeping

Weeks passed by. I know that my life has changed.

Derek is back. And I haven't seen Finn in a while.

My sister absence is everywhere I look.

An empty bed, An empty attic, an empty desk next to me.

I graduated. Without her. I'm going to med school without here.

But we have Amy. The sunshine of our life.

She looks like her mummy, every day.

"Meredith, will you drive me to school." Lexie yelled from the bottom of the stairs. "I still go to Seattle Grace high school. So please, I don't want to take the bus today."

"Sure." Meredith rolled in her bed. Jumping out of it. "Be right down."

According to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, when we are dying or have

suffered a catastrophic loss, we move through five distinct stages of grief.

We go into denial. Because the loss is so unthinkable.

We can't imagine it's true.

Lexie stares down the stairs. Waiting for Meredith to come down. There is a light frown on her face. Lexie stares around in the house. The art works that were hanging on the walls have been removed. By Susan, after the funeral she came home. And she just removed them. Saying that no one would like to be reminded of her. Lexie couldn't look passed the empty walls. It was just like she never made the art works. Lexie couldn't believe it. She wasn't gone. She wasn't gone. She would be returning. But her senses were telling that it was right. That her sister was really gone. Lexie never had a sister, and then she got two. She had to give one of them up. Releasing how much she loved her sister.

Meredith took a dress. Throwing it around her body. She stared at her blond hair. The pink hair was gone. Meredith changed it back, when her sister died. She wanted to be like Vanessa in a way. And changing her hair back to the original, was the way to do it. She could hear the baby cry from upstairs. And she could hear Susan whisper words of comfort.

"I'm here, Lex." Meredith stepped next to her. "Let's go."

"Do you miss her?" Lexie turned to Meredith. "I mean Vanessa…"

"Every day Lex." Meredith turned the car. "Every day. I just expect her to walk trough the door. Dad is planning to remove her bed. But I don't want him to. That would mean she's really gone. And I can't handle that. Not yet."

"I miss her to." Lexie replied "The police still didn't find who killed her. Do you know?"

"I.." Meredith stared at the road. "And eye for an eye. A life for a life."

We become angry with everyone.

Angry with survivors, angry with ourselves.

"Meredith?" Lexie stared at her. "You know who killed Vanessa? He needs to be punished."

"Trust me." Meredith reacted "The man that killed her, is not really anything you would like to meet. I don't think the same law applies on him."

"You know who killed her?" Lexie turned to Meredith "You need to tell our dad. He can arrest that guy."

"No, Lex." Meredith stopped the car in front of the high school. "there are things out there that you don't understand. Maybe that you don't want to understand. And someone killed her. And he's above the law. He's something else."

"What does that suppose to mean?" Lexie turned to Meredith "I know you guys know something I don't know. Spill it Meredith. Spill it now!"

"You can't know." Meredith replied "We can't tell you. I was sworn to secrecy."

"By whom?" Lexie turned to Meredith. Trying to keep staring in her eyes. "Who asked you to keep this a secret? What caused our sisters dead?"

"Nothing." Meredith replied "Go to school Lex. I can't tell you anyway."

"I'll find out." Lexie stared at Meredith. "I'll find out what is going on. And I'll tell anyone. Vanessa knew what was coming her way. And she knew. Now I'm going to find out. And I'm going to see that those bastards that this to her get caught. As you say, An eye for an eye."

"Something like that." Meredith started the car, driving on in the darkness. The darkness that was Seattle. Meredith stopped her car next to Derek Shepherd who got in the car.

Then we bargain.

We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have,

we offer up our souls in exchange for just one more day

"So how is she?" Meredith turned to Derek.

"I can't tell." Derek replied "We told each other to let it go. To let everything go. So that's what you're doing, you let her go. You can't keep asking me, how she's doing. I can't tell you anyway."

"I want to see her." Meredith replied "Give me a price. I would give everything to see her. I mean can't I like wear something special to see her."

When the bargaining has failed and the anger is just too

hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair.

"Okay." Meredith turned to Derek. "Lexie is asking questions. And I let something slip. She know, I know who killed Vanessa. And she's sure to find out who did it."

"So she's going to keep asking question?" Derek stared at her. "You can't tell her. It will bring danger to your family. Not just to Lexie, to Thatcher and Susan as well. We both know that Lexie is not going to keep her mouth shut."

"I know, Derek." Meredith hung closer to him. "Do you think you can just come over later. I just don't want to be by myself. And college only starts in 3 weeks. So…."

"I will." Derek kissed her hair. "So just.. Try to relax."

"I will." Derek got out of the car. Leaving Meredith all by herself. She stared trough the window, to the town Seattle. She was an 18 year old involved with a vampire. And she was not ready to stop whining to Derek. She was going to find out something about Vanessa. She was. Derek could not turn her down forever. He had to tell her one day. The only thing she had to do was

The dictionary defines grief as keen mental suffering or

distress over affliction or loss.

Sharp sorrow, painful regret.

Meredith parked the car in front of her house. Susan was walking trough the window, holding the carriage.

"Would you like to join me for a walk?" Susan asked "I'm taking Amy out."

"Okay." Meredith walked next to her. Susan stared at her.

"Your mother did send her regards for not being on the funeral." Susan explained "I know, it's not much. I understand you anger towards your mum. She should have been there."

But in life, strict definitions rarely apply.

In life, grief can look like a lot of things that bare little

resemblance to sharp sorrow.

"She couldn't fly back to her daughters funeral." Meredith replied "She was here, when Vanessa made a mistake. But she couldn't come back to support me. Nessie was dead. Is.."

Grief may be a thing we all have in common,

but it looks different on everyone

"You are having a hard time." Susan touched her hand. "It's like you are holding on to the idea she's still alive."

"That's nonsense's." Meredith replied "I know she's dead. I know…"

"I know you know." Susan replied "You need to talk to me about that. You look like you know more about her dead. We were protected the last days of her live. Like she knew that she was going to die. Or you knew.."

"No such thing." Meredith replied "I didn't know. Anything. I mean.."

"I know." Susan replied "I just.. She didn't get a chance to mother the child. It's the best part."

"Okay," Meredith stared at her.

Susan talks. Lexie denies.

I try to sell my soul to see her.

It isn't just death we have to grieve, it's life, it's loss,

it's change

Meredith stares trough the window. Keeping an eye on the open window. Staring out of it. Finn jumps trough it. Staring at Meredith. Meredith can see the regret in his eyes.

"I'm sorry." Finn hugged her. "I tried everything. But I couldn't save her. I didn't know when she disappeared. The one moment they were on my back. The next moment they were gone."

"You promised me." Meredith hit him with her tiny fist. "You promised me, you would protect her."

And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes,

has to hurt so bad, the thing we got to try to remember is

that it can turn on a dime

"I'm sorry." Meredith stepped closer. "I just thought because she's a vampire. That here dead wouldn't be the end. I don't understand why I can't see her anymore. I'm here sister. She would never hurt me."

"You don't know that." Finn replied "She's a vampire now. She's not herself anymore. New borns are known for their thirst for blood. Not seeing her is to protect you. Mer."

"I feel so much pain." Meredith replied "I feel like they ripped my heart out of my chest. And that they're jumping on it. Over and over again. Over and over again."

That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't

breathe. That's how you survive

Finn hugs Meredith, sits down on the bed. And stares at her. "I don't ever want to feel this way again. Ever. She's gone. It hurts so much. Why do we let people get so close, when it hurts so much to lose them. I just hope I get to see her one day. I mean, when I'm dying or something. He'll let me see her then?"

By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you

won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much

Finn slowly stands up. Staring at her. "I have to go. He's coming. I can smell him. I don't think he would be happy, that I'm around his girlfriend. I mean, you know Derek."

With that Finn jumped out of the window. Meredith stares at him. How he walks away. Meredith can't help but stare around in her room. She can still see her sister. Standing there in her prom dress. Looking so beautiful. That was before she found out that she was even pregnant. Meredith couldn't believe that her sister had given up her live for her niece.

Grief comes in it's own time for everyone. In it's own way

So the best we can do, best anyone can do, is try for honesty

Meredith sinks down on her bed, crying. Now more whining about the vampire version of her sister. Maybe Finn could be right. Maybe she wasn't herself anymore. Maybe Meredith wouldn't love her sister as a vampire. Maybe turning her, made Vanessa in to a monster. Just like Burke, just like Erica Hahn. What separated them from the Shepherds? Was it the human blood that made them monsters?

The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief, is that you can't control it

The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it, when it comes And let it go when we can

Derek got trough the window. He sat down next to her on the bed. Hugging her tight. Meredith loved the fact that he was there for her. That he was still there. That she didn't need to lose him again. She was happy that she had her family to support each other.

The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.

"I thought I was over it." Meredith stared at him. "I thought the idea about her being okay, that it made me okay to. But in the end, I'm not okay. I mean, I thought by knowing she was a vampire, I would be okay. But I just feel. So empty without her."

And always, every time, it takes your breath away.

"It's going to be okay." Derek hugged her. "You should grieve. She died, Meredith. You don't need to worry about the vampire thing. She died, you sister died."

"Why don't you want me to see her?" Meredith turned to Derek. "I mean, just once."

"I want to protect both of you." Derek replied "She would blame herself, if she hurts you. And you would blame yourself. If things didn't end badly."

There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us. But there are always five

Denial

Anger

Bargaining

Depression

Meredith lay in her bed. Tossing and turning. The nightmares weren't gone. But now they weren't an omen of anything. They were more a product of guilt and pain. Meredith turned around in her bed. Staring at the picture of her and Vanessa. Smiling. Meredith took the picture, slowly moving her finger of her sister's face.

Acceptance

Meredith placed the picture back. Turning in her bed. Then she could hear a noise. Meredith knew it was coming from Amy's room. Meredith slowly took the base ball bat from behind her door, slowly walking up stairs. She couldn't see anything. Amy was no longer in her bed. She wanted to scream. She dropped the bat, so walk away. But then..

And just when you've gotten there.

"Chil, Meredith." A voice said from behind her. "I'm just visiting my daughter. I think I have the right to do that."

Meredith turned around to find Vanessa Grey sitting in the rocking chair. Her eyes were golden, her skin was paler then she used to remember. And she was calm. Meredith wanted to step out of the door. She wanted to go get Derek. Her sister could hurt her, without even knowing it.

Your life turns around.

"I'm not going to hurt you." Vanessa was standing in front of her. Placing the baby back in the bed. "Do you think I could hurt my own sister? Meredith, .."

"You're a new born." Meredith replied "Derek told me that…."

"That we crave for human blood." Vanessa turned her head. "He told that to me to. But I can be around humans. I sneak out at night, and come to stare at my beautiful baby girl. Derek doesn't know I come here, every night. I feed her milk. And I sometimes even bath her."

"That explains why she's been sleeping trough the night." Meredith replied "You really do look great, Nes."

"I know right." Vanessa turned to her. "And I don't crave for human blood. The Shepherds however don't believe me. And won't let me go outside. But at night I do. I've been coming here for months. I didn't want you to know, because you would tell Derek. And then I wouldn't be able to visit my daughter."

"When do you sleep?" Meredith only noticed the stupidity of her question after she asked it.

"I'm a vampire." Vanessa replied "I don't sleep. I never really sleep. You know it's actually good. 8 hours, of your life, you don't waste by sleeping."

"Says the girl that lives forever." Meredith walked down the stairs. Vanessa followed her in a simple movement. Sitting down on her bed. Vanessa stared at Meredith with her golden eyes. Meredith kind of loved the look she gave her. It was funny how she showed her golden eyes.

"So how have you been?" Vanessa stares at her. "I heard you got in Seattle university. Derek to. Congratulations. Mum will be very proud of you. I mean she always wanted us to be doctors."

"What about you?" Meredith stared in her eyes. "Do vampires go to college?"

"New borns don't." Vanessa lay down. "Apparently we have to be careful that I don't kill anyone. Cause that would be bad. I just, I didn't want to be this way. I love that I can watch my daughter grow up. But I never asked for this."

"Hey." Meredith hugged her. Meredith couldn't help but feeling cold. She could feel the cold sensation on her skin. Only like vampires could provide. Meredith released her sister. "You are so cold. Should I get a blanket?"

"I'm a vampire." Vanessa smiled "I'm cold. I mean, that's what they tell me, anyway."

"That's right to." Meredith smiled "I thought I was never going to see you again."

"Please don't tell Derek." Vanessa's golden eyes stared in hers. "If you tell him, my time with you and the baby is so over. They won't let me out of their side. And I'm coming here, since I've became a vampire. I haven't hurt anyone. I haven't even thought about biting any human."

"I won't." Meredith replied "My loyalty goes to my sister first. Then my boyfriend."

"Good." Vanessa stared around in the room. "You know, you could take out the bed. You would have more room. I mean it just doesn't make sense, why would you keep my bed?"

"Just because, removing the bed." Meredith turned to her "Showed me you were not coming back."

"I don't sleep." Vanessa smiled "I don't need a bed. I miss sleeping. It's fun. I used to love good dreams. Nice dreams. Now I don't have dreams anymore. Cause I don't sleep."

'How's Lexie.." Vanessa turned to Meredith "I mean McSteamy is quiet smitten with her. And that for a vampire."

"Yeah, I heard he stayed in high school just to be near her." Meredith smiled "I don't know if I want the last Grey sister to date a vampire. I mean.."

"Nothing wrong with a vampire." Vanessa replied "Nothing. Just the whole drinking blood thing."

"You just say that, because you're a vampire." Meredith smiled "So what's it like. Do you have special powers?"

"I can't read minds if that's what you are asking." Vanessa stepped closer "I don't seem to have any powers. The Shepherds don't quiet understand. I sometimes believe I can read Derek's mind. But, just a little thing."

"I have to go." Vanessa replied "It's 4 in the morning. I have to be back at the Shepherd Residence before they wake up. And see I'm gone."

"Do I see you tomorrow?" Meredith stared at her sister. Walking towards the window.

"Bet on it." Vanessa stared at Meredith. "But can you leave your window open. It's a whole lot easier for me to jump trough your window. Then trough Amy's."

With that Vanessa Grey jumped out of the window. She couldn't even see her anymore. She moved that fast. Meredith smiled. And lay down on her bed. Meredith couldn't believe that Vanessa had been there all this nights. That explained why the baby always slept trough the night. And why the never cried during the night. That's why they always had good nights. Susan always told everyone that Amy was a very good baby. Sleeping trough the night and all.

In medical school we have a hundred classes that teach us how to fight off death.

And not one lesson in how to go on living

And there are no classes about handling your vampire sister.

"Good morning, Meredith." Lexie walked down the stairs, finding Meredith quiet awake at the diner table. Lexie noticed a change in her behavior, like she had a nice visit that night. "You look happier this morning."

"Yep" Meredith replied "Had a nice dream."

"What about?" Lexie stared at her.

"Vanessa visited the baby." Meredith replied "And she said she visited her every night. And we talked."

"That's a nice dream." Lexie replied "So are you going to tell me, about all the dangers the world knows, and who killed Vanessa?"

"You know who killed Vanessa." Thatcher sat down at the diner table. "You know the man that killed your sister?"

"I really.." Meredith turned to Lexie "I never said I knew who did it."

"You told me something about an eye for an eye. A life for a life." Lexie turned to Meredith "That the law didn't apply on him. You said he was above the law. That he was something else."

"Meredith?" Susan stated at her. "That does sound like you know what you're talking about."

"I don't know." Meredith replied "That's what they tell about killers. I have no.."

"Did George see something?" Lexie stared at them. "He was there with her. He must have seen something."

"You are not going to solve this." Meredith got up. "This thing, you don't know anything about what you are getting yourself in to. Vanessa wouldn't want this. I know that."

"How do you know that?" Lexie stared

"I just do." Meredith turned to the rest. "I know things that you don't about Vanessa. She was my sister. And I miss her. I miss her. God I miss her. But by revealing her killer, I'm bringing a danger to you. That you shouldn't have to face. You shouldn't have. So I'm keeping you safe."

"That man needs to be punished." Thatcher stared at her.

"He doesn't get punished "Meredith reacted "He's the law."

And then there's the moment, that the lie.

Just is not worth it anymore.

And all you want to do is tell them the truth.

But what if the truth ends up hurting us? Them?

What if a lie keeps them save? Is it okay to keep lying?

Or do you tell them, even though everything could change.