A/N: I know this probably isn't the right time to have a new story but I was just itching to get this story up. I felt like I should take a crack at this pairing. They aren't my favorite but I feel like I should have a story with each pairing. This is also my first Angsty type story. So with that I am taking away my normal rules of no rape and death. This story might...I said might, there is a very slim chance but it might have rape and/or death in it. I'm just letting you guys know so the ones who read my other stories won't freak out if something happens. I will elaborate more in the ending authors note. P.S. I only do long authors notes like this when I first start a story but for the rest of them I barely say anything...now I'm just rambling...sorry. ENJOY :D
Have you ever wanted someone but could never have them because of multiple reasons? Thats basically my life right now.
My name is Logan, Logan Mitchell, and I have a crush on my classmate Kendall Knight. A hockey head, bully, and on top of that he's homophobic. I have told my friends about him and they kind of don't like him but I can't help it. I have some classes with him and he has noticed me but it was only for help or to ask for a pencil or paper.
First period was ending and I was walking down the hallway, moving out of other students way while listening to my iPod. As I walked into second period I sighed, not wanting to escape the world of my iPod. When I sat down in my seat by the window I looked over at his seat and noticed he wasn't there. I hope he shows up soon and talks to me.
"Daydreaming about him again huh?" My best friend Camille said noticing my face.
"Shut up." I said to her, worried that someone would hear her. She knows how I feel about him and she always teases me about it, especially at times like this.
"You are so pathetic Logie. Why do you even like him?" I gave her the are-you-serious-look and she laughed.
"Why can't he just walk up to me and just ask me out?" I said, mostly to myself.
"Because he's not gay and he's homophobic." Camille said giving me the no-shit look. I reached in my bag, taking out a pen and throwing it at her.
"Hey don't get mad at me because you're in love with someone that will never love you back." Camille said, after dodging the pen.
"I hate you." I replied bitterly before the bell rang and class started.
It was about halfway through class when Kendall strolled in with his headphones blasting as he passed the teacher, handing him a note. He sat down in front of me and I tried not to squeal at his beauty while Camille nudged me in the arm.
"Hey can I borrow a pen?" Kendall asked me after turning to look at me. I almost got lost in his eyes before replying.
"S-sure." I said quickly reaching into my bag and giving him a pen.
"Thanks." He said turning back around.
Moments like this happen almost everyday and I love every single second of it. At lunch I was talking to Camille about Kendall, something I do often, when someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turn around to see its one of Kendall's crew members.
"Did I hear correctly?" He said.
I played it like I didn't know what he was talking about and he looked at me like I was the weirdest thing ever and then he just glared at me. When he walked away I turned to Camille and she looked…scared.
"What's wrong?" I ask her.
She starts shaking her head "This isn't good at all."
"What are you talking about?"
"He heard you say that you like someone and you said him. Now you're going to be a target for them." My face paled as the last few minutes ran through my mind. I was telling Camille about my dream I had last night and Kendall was in it.
"Oh fuck, pray for me?" I asked her. She gave me a sheepish smile and nodded her head. My heart started racing, thinking about what was going to happen.
When lunch ended, as I was walking out I saw the same member of Kendall's crew talking to another member and they would look over at me multiple times. This was not good and I'm pretty sure by the end of the day I was going to have a bruise somewhere.
As I walked into Chemistry class I noticed that almost everyone there was staring at me. That's when I realized I had been outed. Some people glared and others had pity written all over there face. Yup it was clear that this day was going to end badly. Halfway through the class Kendall walked in, late as usual.
I didn't want to face him because his disgusted face would ruin the image of him I had saved in my head. When class was almost over a small white paper showed up on the corner of my desk. After contemplating whether or not I should read it or act like I didn't see it. I decided to read it.
"Meet me in the back of the school at 3."
I gulped. This was the note every gay guy got before he would be beaten to a pulp. I wanted to cry. I wanted someone to help me but I knew at this school that was never going to happen. After class I didn't want to get up at all. I just wanted to sit there forever. I slowly got up and made my way through the hall to my fourth period.
Once again, when I walked into class everyone was staring at me. This time I just wanted to hide and never come out but it was too late. I was out and everyone knew it. Most people just felt bad for me, while others wanted me to die. To be honest, now that I had been forced out by a slip of the tongue, I wanted to die myself. The whole period I sat in the back and cried to myself, not that anyone cared.
When the bell rang signaling the end of the school day, I felt like I was about to throw up. My heart sank and my stomach twisted as I got closer to the door of the back of the school. School was over at 2:55, if I didn't go they would find me and beat me wherever I was. I would rather be beat in private then to scar someone else by the sight.
I wiped my tears and pushed open the door. I stepped out and my eyes immediately locked on Kendall. He was leaning against his car looking down. I wanted to scream when the back door closed, sealing my fate and basically telling them I was here. About 5 other guys came out of nowhere and were standing behind me and on the sides of me. I kept my eyes on Kendall and when he looked up I had to look away. Even though they were going to beat me I still wanted to keep his normal look in my head.
One of them grabbed my arm and angrily said "You know what's going to happen right?"
I gulped and nodded my head, letting the tears fall.
"Is he crying?" One of them asked.
"Yup." They all said at once.
I wanted to fall to the ground and never move again but that would just help them out.
"Guys." I heard Kendall say. They all looked at him and I had the urge to look but I didn't.
"I got this." He said.
I felt everything crash down on me at his words. The rest of the guys laughed while telling me how bad it was going to be when Kendall kicked my ass. I still couldn't face him as the guys let me go and left. When I finally glanced at Kendall he was walking over to me. I finally let go and fell to the ground, crying.
"P-please don't do this." I begged.
The closer his steps got the more I cried. I screamed when I felt hands grab my arms, lifting me up. I stood there, looking down, still not willing to change the image in my head. When he moved my head to look at him, I closed my eyes. He told me to open them and when in did all I saw was his green eyes staring at me. Then he leaned closer and connected our lips. My eyes widened in shock. I didn't know what to do. Kendall, the guy I have a crush on, the guy who I thought 10 seconds ago was going to kick my ass, is kissing me. When he pulled away he started chuckling.
"I…" I tried to say something but I didn't know what. My mind was just…mush. There was an awkward silence as Kendall looked at me and I tried to find something to say.
"Well you gonna say something or what?" He asked. I really didn't know what to say. He stepped closer and did it again. Kendall just kissed me, TWICE. He smiled at me being utterly speechless.
"You're so cute. All flustered and stuff." His words made me smile. I never thought I would ever hear him say those words.
"Oh and sorry for the note. I hope I didn't scare you too much. I just wanted to talk to you in private. I tried to get the guys to leave but once they found out you were coming they thought I wanted to beat you up. I'm really sorry about that." I didn't know what to say because all of my dreams were coming true so fast.
"Logan say something please." He said hugging me. I looked at him and told him the truth.
"I don't know what to say. Everything's happening so fast."
He smiled at me and said "Just say you want to be my boyfriend."
"Kendall you have no idea how much I want to be your boyfriend."
"So is that a yes?"
"No, it's a hell yes." He laughed at my words and kissed me again.
A/N: I realized how quick this story moves in the first chapter but there is a lot more. I also would like to say that about the whole rape/death thing I like to stay away from the topic altogether but I'm going to leave it in this story just to have people on the edges of their computer chairs. (I hope) It's just an open topic that I want to have open...I think I said that already. Sorry I'm just really nervous that all you Kogan lovers might not like this but I'm new with this pairing so give me a chance please. Oh and REVIEW! :D