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Summary: this story takes place after Edward leaves in new moon. Except it's got a twist. Will Bella go back with Edward? Or will she choose Jacob? And what if Edward COULD read Bella's shielded mind? Would he like what he heard? Read and find out! =] IN BELLA'S POV!!
Disclaimer: I do not own these character's or any of the twilight books.
It was a cloudy, rainy, no sun shining at all Monday, the type of day Edward would be able to come to school. If he hadn't stopped loving me and left me here to die on the inside. I was in my truck going to school, thinking of my favorite smile he always did that took my breath away. But I had to stop, or I would fall apart, and I could NOT do that. He wanted me to forget about him as if he were never born. But I couldn't do that, I just couldn't imagine life without Edward, it seemed pointless. So I would do the next best thing -I would pretend that my life didn't seem empty, hopeless, and yet a waste of space without him.
"Bella!" Mike shouted enthusiastically, breaking my train of thought. when did I get to school? I thought to myself. "Hey mike." I sighed, remembering how Edward would of put his hand into a bone-breaking-through-the-skin kind of fist, and how would of snarled at mike just for talking to me. wow I had it bad. "Umm…. Bella?" Mike asked sounding concerned. I looked up at him confused. "Sorry I forgot you were there" I said not caring how he reacted. His face turned into a pained expression as my words slowly sunk in. To him it would sound like I was saying Sorry, I don't care if you standing right there, your not Edward, so go away!!! (A/N: hehe, Edward would of loved that thought!)
I ignored him and opened my door and got out of my truck and walked to my first class. English went by slowly, just like all my other classes. Mike ignored me for the whole day giving me the silent treatment. Maybe I was a little hard on him.
So I decided to apologize. I was speed walking to catch up with him, knowing that if I ran I would fall and probably roll out the window landing in the parking lot and getting ran over my by an oncoming 18 wheeler. Yeah I was a klutz, or as Edward called it accident prone. A magnet attracting all karma to me. Okay back to Mike. I caught up to him and he acted is if I wasn't there. shocker. "Mike, I'm sorry for what I said earlier today, I had a bad morning" -more like a bad four months- "and I shouldn't of took it out on you." I apologized to him making my words sounds honest. He smiled and turned to look at me, "I knew the silent treatment would work" he teased. "Oh yeah that's why im apologizing I just cant go without you babbling to me every nano-second of my sad pathetic life." I said sarcastically. He laughed at me and I could tell I was forgiven.
I walked to my next class. And it went by pretty quickly. When the bell rang I walked out of the classroom and saw Mike leaning against the wall, waiting for me. Edward used to wait for me right there. I thought as I sighed. "What?" he asked as I stared at him with a pained expression. "nothing" I lied, he seemed convinced and smiled, "Shall we?" he asked while holding out his hand to walk me to Trig. I glared at him "No we shall not!" I shouted at him, "I will walk alone! And you can go to hell Mike Newton!" he stared at me with a shocked expression. Then started mumbling something about white padded rooms and me, as he walked away, embarrassed. "Wow, Bella. A little harsh don't you think?" Jessica asked as she walked by. I rolled my eyes and walked away. She followed, not because she wanted to talk to me, but because we were both going to Trig. "Bella, your not over him yet are you?" she whispered. I looked at her my eyes watering. "No" I whispered as the hot tears started pouring.
I then realized I was about to cry - no wait I was crying- in front of Jessica Stanley. I ran to my truck and tried to pull myself together. I sat in my truck and cried, knowing I couldn't go home yet. Charlie got off work early today. He would be there and freak if I came home this early. So I ignored the stares and waited for the end of the day.
It never came soon enough. Once I heard the final bell, I started up my truck and drove away, I thought of something to do. Maybe, I could go to Port Angelus, nah…. Reminded me of the time that Edward saved me from those sick men and took me a restaurant where he answered all of my questions. Maybe I could go to Edward's meadow? Nope. I would get lost way too easily. I could go home. I shuddered at the thought. The house reminded me of him too much. The way he used to watch me sleep. The first night (of my knowing) that he spent the night laying in my bed, After the best day of my life where we shared our first kiss and announced our love for each other. It was all too much for me to bare. So I decided on La Push I knew Edward had never been there. It break would the treaty.
So I started the truck and headed down the road to see my long lost friend Jacob Black. As I drove I tried to stop crying it wasn't that hard. I was thinking about Jacob, and I calmed down quicker. The drive was like 10 minutes since my ancient truck cant go over 60 mph. When I got there he ran to me and hugged me. so warm….. So right…… don't let go. Wait! No must remember Edward! (A/N: sorry I had to make her think of Edward. I mean he's not someone you forget just because some huge heater hugs you.) I thought to myself. As I pushed away, wanting air. He led me to the door. And asked "what you want to do today?" Be with Edward I thought to myself, but I couldn't say that to him, it would hurt his feelings. "I'm up for anything" I said shrugging my shoulders. He then went deep in thoughts and I seen a little drool fall from his mouth. Eww. I decided to get him out of his little fantasy. "Well?" A smile spread across his face, "we could go to first beach." With that we turned and headed for beach.
As we were walking he reached out to grab my hand. I decided it meant nothing held his hand. I smiled at him and blushed. I heard a chuckle. "What?" I asked. I really hate it when I'm laughed at. "Nothing, I just find it funny how you get embarrassed over the little things." he laughed again. "Oh really? Well then I'm so glad I can entertain you." I said sarcastically. "What's on your mind?" he asked me looking me in the eyes. Edward, Edward, Edward…… "I'm wondering what Edward is doing." I said leaning her head down trying to hide the tears in her eyes. Saying his name out loud hurt on so many different levels. "Why can't you just forget about him!?" he shouted getting angry. "Because I love him!" I shouted at me how could he even ask that?
He balled his hands into tight fists. His temper getting out of hand. Maybe I needed to talk to him like a four year old who didn't get his way. Now Jake, you can't get mad because I love him. 'I want to kill him!' I know you want to kill him, but you can't. 'why not?' he would pout. Because if you killed him it would kill me. 'fine…..' (A/N: could you imagine that! I mean a huge werewolf acting like a four year old, and tiny Bella being the one to punish him?) I smiled at my fight between him and me in my head. God I was going crazy.
"He left you!" He snapped. My sudden thought to calm him was to kill him. A tear rolled down my cheek. ah, shit please don't let me cry! "I know." I sighed, My voice breaking. I stopped and tilted her head up to look at me. I wiped the tear off her face and slowly went for her lips. what is he doing? He wiped the tear off my face and slowly went for my lips. is he crazy?!
I tried to pull away but couldn't and before I knew it our lips were touching. And I was fighting to get away. I finally gave up and let him kiss me. tick tock tick tock I was grimacing, and he was smiling. I knew he wanted to be more then just best friends, but I don't know if we could. Because all I could think was Edward……
Sorry! I know this chapter is really short if kept going then chapter two would be chapter one. (ha ha) Please review my story, and if you like it I will post Chapter two. (smiles evilly) just to let you know that REVIEWS makes me update faster. And you know from my profile, I like to update. *grins*
-Amanda-