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Dear Ginny
...
my life is filled with wondrous things
but lately they've banished me from there doors and I can't get out
I'm trapped inside my greatest gift
...
I used to love magic
the way it sparkled like the blue waters
all the way down until the ocean floor
but now I'm not sure anymore
if I can handle all this
because this life is no better than hell
and just It's to hard to move on
when everywhere I go I see your face
...
it pains me to know that I tried to leave you
but all I wanted was the world to forget about me
keeping you sheltered from the acid rain
but you never accepted my lies
you saw through me like paper
and when I lost the battle to the rain
melting in my lies
you where the one who tried to reach me
but with my last ounce of magic I turned away
...
I understand why you hate me
but I can't be with you right now
and each moment each second
they bring my heart to silent tears
patience has long since flown out door
and I don't want you
to watch the pain
I'm just not sure how I can hold on any longer
...
I fell again yesterday
I'm not even sure if it's a dream
I still haven't told them I'm broken
falling apart on the un-carpeted floor
crying out
because I know I'll never see you again
I've given up my life to protect the world
but this pain in my heart is tearing my soul away
faster than anyone of Voldemort's men
...
I know that I will die soon
perish slaughtered on the ground by "him"
but I'm afraid to leave you
and it only brings me more pain
to know you are routing for me
...
it makes me want to fight
even if I'm running low on strength
all I want is to help you win
but maybe if I bleed I won't hear your pain
because I'm scared Ginny
Voldemort still haunts me
killing me with one deathly haunting spell
and I want it to stop
but it's not that easy I can't just drink away the pain
when the fate of the world lies on my broken shoulders
...
so I guess this a goodbye letter
my last attempt to show you I care
because through the years
you've helped me so much
but I've never helped you
I never let you see inside me
because I've been to scared to jump
so you held my hand
but this time I can't let you come and help me
...
this is my last goodbye