Hi everybody! I know this is really short, so it wont take much of your time! Really, I just had a few moments and wrote this. Please read it, tell me what you think.
I stared out the window, my eyes able to make out every little thing on the ground from my seat on the plane where I was trying to convince myself that she would be better off without me, safer without me.
I had her promise not to do anything stupid and in return, my own promise that she would never see me again.
I had left her. My Bella. No, not my Bella. I told her that I didn't love her anymore, that she was no good for me. These were the largest lies that I had ever voiced, the furthest you could get from the truth. In reality though, it wasn't her tortured, depressed face, and the knowledge that I was the one causing it, or the most desperate, pained voice that she had called out in that really shattered my dead, cold heart. It was the fact that after just the first time I uttered those cursed lines, she believed me. She honestly believed that I no longer loved her, that my world no longer revolved around her.
As I said those words, as they dropped from my frozen lips, the comprehension dawned in her eyes and she believed.
"You don't want me?" she had asked.
I wanted to call out "Yes I want you, I love you." But instead I told her to let me go.
She did. She let go. She dropped all her holds on me, but that's okay. It's okay because she will be safe, she will forget me and grow up, live. It's okay because I left something with her that she thinks I tore from her pale, delicate, warm hands. She still has my heart, and she has the one and the only key to open it.
So did you like it? I want to know! It shouldn't have taken you that long to read, so now you can spend the extra time reviewing! Thanks!
Bella'sLullaby1901