I got the idea from the song of the same title by S Club 7. You should get the C.D or d/l the song, well you don't hafta but it would help :)
Take's place in season 4. Monica is single and Chandler has a made up girlfriend named Alexandra.
Monica groaned as she hit her alarm clock for the third time in a row. She had to get up and go on a stupid ski trip with everyone. It wasn't everyone she minded, it was Alex. For some reason Monica just hated her. She didn't know why but when ever she saw her with Chandler it sent chills down her spine. It felt like jealousy but why would she be jealous of a girl with Chandler? They are only friends and nothing more. Monica could hear talking in the living room which meant for the first time in history she was the last one up. Better get this over with, she yawned as she got up and entered the living room. Monica was right. Everyone including her, with her arm around Chandler, was sitting in the living room.
You cast your spell over
me
Don't know where to turn
to anymore
I see your face
Every morning when I
wake up
Every night when I go
to bed
"Hey Monica! Boy you must have had some night!" Rachel giggled.
"Yeah your the last one up!" Ross laughed.
"We're all waiting for you" Phoebe chimed. She was too cheery for someone who was up at 5:30 A.M. Monica groaned and went back into her room to get dressed. It was way to early for friendly greetings.
After she got dressed they all got into the van they rented and headed to the lodge for a week of hell. Well for Monica anyway. Every time she looked at her and Chandler it drove her crazy. She tried to tell her self it wasn't gonna be that bad. After all she could hide in her room or go skiing on her own. 'It is going to be fine' Monica repeated to her self. Meanwhile Rachel was filing her nails, Phoebe drove while Joey tried to read her the map, Ross had fallen asleep and Chandler and Alex were cuddled up in the back. After they had been driving for two hours the van slowed down until it died on the side of the road, of course in the middle of no where. Phoebe had forgotten to check if the gas tank was full.
Phoebe, Ross and Alex went to find a gas station, Rachel checked up on her make up and Joey took a nap. Monica sat on a big rock trying to clear her thoughts.
"Hey" Chandler smiled and sat beside her.
"Hi"
"What's wrong?"
"Nothings wrong"
"I can tell something is wrong. Come on you can tell me"
"Uh..I...I don't know. I've just been feeling depressed lately. Maybe it's because I have no love life" Monica smiled half way "I just want a boyfriend who isn't an ass"
"Doesn't everyone?" Chandler joked "On a serious note...You are the most beautiful, wonderful woman I know. You'll find the right one"
"How can you be sure?"
"Well I can't be sure but I can be almost sure. I mean who wouldn't want you?"
"You" Monica said softly. She didn't even know why she said it. It just came out.
"What?"
"I mean...If you didn't have a girlfriend...."
"Monica if I didn't have a girlfriend of course I would want you. I mean for the longest time I...." Chandler froze "Never mind"
"No come on! What is it?"
"I better not say" Chandler sighed "I'm gonna go..this way" Chandler got up and walked to the other side of the van. While he walked off Monica found her self checking him out. 'Noooo! Bad Monica! People don't check out their friends!' She yelled at her self. An half hour later they arrived back with a tow truck. Ross explained they found a farm house and asked to use their phone. Monica didn't care how they got the truck so she tuned out. After squeezing into the tow truck and filling up the van with gas they got back on the road. They finally arrived around noon. Monica couldn't wait to get to her room and hide. Slamming the door behind her she felt a tear in her eye.
You're here with me
Somehow, don't know how
I can feel you right
now
So close, so real
After deciding who shared what room they all went their separate ways. Ross and Joey went to try and pick up chicks, Chandler and Alex went somewhere, and Phoebe and Rachel tried to find some cute guys. Leaving Monica a chance to take a nap. She ended up sharing a room with Rachel and Phoebe. Joey and Ross took a double room, and Chandler and Alex shared a room.
Monica woke up an hour later feeling hot and wet. It hit her she had an erotic dream about Chandler of all people. She couldn't understand where all these feelings were coming from. Just that they all seemed to hit her at once. I can't have feelings for Chandler, I just can't! Monica sighed. But in the dream...she really enjoyed it. Rachel came running in breaking her train of thought.
"Hey Monica!"
"Hi" Monica tried not to look as hot (literally) as she felt.
"What's up?"
"I was just taking a nap and now I think I'll take a shower"
"Oh okay"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"If one has an erotic dream about someone does it mean one has feelings for one?"
"What?? Speak english please!"
"How do you know if you have feelings for someone?"
"Ohhh who's the guy??"
"Just answer the question please"
"Oh okay yesh...umm....if you become insanely jealous at the thought of him with someone else. I just came to ask if you wanted to come to the bar with Phoebe and I?"
"No thanks" Monica stuttered. Rachel shrugged and ran back to meet up with Phoebe. Leaving Monica to think of her feelings for Chandler. Monica had a long shower and changed the sheets. She then decided to take a walk. She ended up far in the woods. Somewhere where she could really think about everything.
It was weird. Last month
she didn't give Chandler a second thought, as anything more then a friend.
But bam! he starts dating Alex and jealousy hits her big time. Monica thought
maybe it was because she hardly saw him anymore or the backup promise they
made each other. Bah! who was she kidding? she was falling for him big
time. She seemed to have a habit for falling for the wrong guy at the wrong
time. First Young Ethan, Fun Bobby, Richard and now Chandler. Her mind
headed back to earlier in the day when Chandler was about to tell her something
but stopped. She wondered if Chandler felt anything for her.
When it started getting
dark Monica headed back for the lodge.
Do, do-do, do-do
Show me your colours
Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell
I'm in
Please don't break my
heart
Show me
Show me your colours,
baby
Tell me who you really
are
Monica arrived back just in time for dinner with the gang. Just what she needed right now. While everyone ordered her mind went back to Chandler who also seemed to have something on his mind. When she glanced up at Chandler he immediately looked away. Was he staring at me? Monica didn't have time to ponder as when that was when the waiter came. He quickly took everyone's orders and ran to the back. During dinner it was as if Monica and Chandler were playing a game. Monica would find her self staring at Chandler but would quickly look away when he looked at her and vise virsa. She started to think he was up to something but he probably thought the same of her.
I know you want what I
want
Far away, but still within
our reach
Do you dare?
Are you brave enough
to show me
What your heart really
wants to
Monica grinned. She had a feeling Chandler perhaps felt the same way. But it hit her. Alex. He had a girlfriend. Even if he did feel the same way it wasn't gonna happen. Not while he has a girlfriend. But then why was she getting these signals? Was she reading them wrong? She took a big gulp of her wine. Monica had to get away from everyone so she excused her self and went outside. Chandler must of sensed something so he followed her outside.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't think I should tell you"
"Why not?"
Monica paused, "What were you going to say earlier? On the rock"
"If I tell you well you tell me what is bugging you?"
She hesitated "Well...I...Okay... deal"
"For sometime I had a...well a big crush on you....Now what is your secret"
"I..uhhh..wow! um do you still have feelings for me?" She stood beside Chandler.
"Well even if I do have feelings for you...." he paused. In that pause something made her kiss Chandler smack on the lips. Neither of them stopped it for a few seconds.
"What just happened???" Chandler jumped back "I have a girlfriend!" he turned around to see if anyone saw them.
"I know!!" Monica snapped "I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me"
"Is that what's bothering you?? you have feelings for me???"
"Yes I do! I'm sorry!" She felt a tear stream down her face "but as you said you have girlfriend and nothing can change that"
He paused "Now what? do we just pretend nothing happened?"
"What else can we do?" Monica pushed her way past Chandler and headed for her hotel room. She couldn't believe she did that. Everything was happening so fast she needed to lye down.
I say your name to myself
out loud
Wanna have you all around
Like a cover for the
cold on the outside
Making love in the candlelight
Do, do-do, do-do
Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell
I'm in
Please don't break my
heart
Show me
Show me your colours,
baby
Tell me who you really
are
For the next couple days it was as if nothing ever happened that night. Chandler and Alex were the same lovey dovey couple as before and Monica went back to hiding her feelings. Over this short period she had become good at it. Even sharing a ski lift with Alex. Although it didn't seem like much. It sure felt like it to her. Before that Monica avoided spending time with her at all costs. Part of Monica felt hurt by Chandler's actions the days following their kiss. She sure felt something in that kiss. If Chandler did was a whole other question.
Baby
Don't tell me I mean
nothing
After all you did
Baby, don't you tell
me
Tell me I mean nothing
Tell me I mean nothing
to you
Monica slowly packed her clothes. They were finally heading back to New York. It was a long, slow week, to her anyway. It felt like all she did was avoid Chandler and Alex. It also seemed the gang suspected something was up. Because she stayed in her room a lot. Only coming out to eat or maybe take a walk. Anything to get her mind off of Chandler. Of course it didn't work. Her mind kept drifting back to that night, that kiss. The one thing that annoyed her about Chandler was he didn't show his emotions. He was one of those guys who you had to beg to get to open up. If she could only see what he was feeling inside.
Rachel poked her head into the room, "Everyone's waiting"
"Coming" Monica zipped up her suitcase and followed Rachel.
Please show me now
Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell
I'm in
Please don't break my
heart
Show me
Show me your colours,
baby
Tell me who you really
are
It had been a week since they arrived back from the ski trip and Monica thought she was getting better at being in the same room with the couple. Even getting over her crush on Chandler. The gang minus Alex finished watching a movie at Monica and Rachel's. Soon everyone left besides Rachel, who went to bed, leaving Monica and Chandler alone. The first time they had been alone since it happened.
"We should talk" Chandler broke the awkward silence.
"Yeah" Monica agreed.
"Can we go back to being friends? I hate all this tension"
"Me too"
"So can we?"
"Well if that is what you want"
"Great. Thanks Mon, your a great friend" he kissed her on the check and left.
"Friend..Yeah..." She pulled her self together and headed to bed. If he had any feelings left for her he was a great actor. She had to get over this silly crush.
Monica sat in her usual spot in Central Perk two weeks later. She thought she'd finally gotten over her crush until she saw Chandler and Alex kissing through the window. Not wanting anyone to see her hurt look she hid her face behind a magazine. If this was just a silly crush why couldn't she get over it?. After five minutes Chandler entered with a stupid grin on his face and took his spot on the couch.
"Hey Monica" Chandler grinned.
"Um Hey Chandler" She pretended to be engrossed in her magazine.
"What'ca doing?"
"Nothing. Just reading"
"I can see that. What are you reading that is so interesting?"
"Something"
Chandler peaked over her shoulder "Getting over a crush?"
Monica had turned to the page about crushes. Just my luck she thought.
"What? oops wrong page!" She laughed uneasily.
Chandler wasn't convinced "I thought we went back to being friends"
"It's not that easy getting over someone!"
"Okay I guess your right...." he checked his watch "I gotta go. See ya later"
Monica knew by the tone in his voice he was uneasy around her. Well.. after finding out about her crush again. He had got to be hiding something.
Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell
I'm in
Please don't break my
heart
Show me
Show me your colours,
baby
Tell me who you really
are
That night Monica watched T.V. Of course every channel had something about love and or crushes on it. Even the shopping channel. They were selling matching rings. Each had a heart on it. Giving up she turned it off as Rachel ran in.
"Great news!" She giggled.
"What is it?"
"I have got you a date"
"What???"
"What? You haven't been on a date in forever! His name is Brian and you'll love him!"
If Monica didn't say yes she was going to hear the end of it, "What's he like?"
"He is a dentist and he has the cutest butt!"
As Rachel went on and on about Brian, Monica pretended to be interested. Maybe this Brian guy was what she needed to get over her crush.
The next night Rachel helped Monica prepare for her date. Monica was never crazy about blind dates but this one especially didn't feel good. It's her stupid crush! she thought. There must be some reason she can't seem to move on. Her date soon picked her up and took her to a nice restaurant by the one she currently worked at.
Fifteen minutes into the date she found her self trying to stay awake. Rachel left out one detail about this guy Monica thought he is sooo dull!!. She finally had enough and told him she wasn't feeling well. He was actually a gentleman and walked her home, even up to the apartment.
"Thank you" Monica put on a fake smile "See ya" she ran into her apartment shutting the door. Rachel of course was waiting on the couch, wanting all the details.
"Sooo? How did it go???"
"It was alright"
"Alright?"
"Rachel he is the dullest person on the planet!" Monica head to her room and went to bed. Where she had yet another dream about Chandler. This time was more romantic though unlike her other dreams where it was all about sex. In the dream it was just her and Chandler on the roof top of their building and they were having a picnic and sitting close. Monica was disappointed to wake up and find out it was all another dream. The dream felt so real to her.
Yet another week passed by and she found her self thinking about him all the time. He on the other hand was still with Alex and seemed pretty happy. Of course she wallowed in self pity. Knowing she was never going to get over him but she had too. As long as he was with her she had no choice. Monica was going to have to forever hide her feelings for Chandler.
I'm not allowed to adore
you
The way you know I really
want
But I do
Even though it's been
a nightmare
To pretend that it's
all, alright
It's not the easiest
thing to avoid
Damage is already done
I'm in love
With you