Title: Not Done Hurting
Author: Half Human
Summary: Addison feels thoroughly content with Derek's behavior but suddenly everything changes…ADDEK : )
Disclaimer: Grey's Anatomy and all its wonderful characters belong to the genius Shonda Rhimes and everyone who's helped put this drama together.
Author's Note: Hey, I haven't written in years! Literally. Please be nice. Oh, and yes, I am an Addek Addict: )This chapter may seem depressing but it will become good. I'm just a big angst fan ; )
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…Following the last scene of "Blues For Sister Someone"…
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Derek had just lifted Addison up and thrown her on the dingy old bed, continuing on with his kisses and caresses for a good five minutes, until he simply wrapped his arms around his wife and sighed. Addison felt his body relax against hers. They were both still a little damp from the shower. Addison remained awake, face up, and stared at the ceiling. "Such a wonderful way to end the day," she thought, and sighed, remembering all the events that had happened back at Seattle Grace.
How that poor woman had begged for her help.
How she had to bend the rules because she was reminded of her duties to patients.
How her pain-in-the-ass intern pushed all the wrong buttons.
How she felt like it was just one of those days…
But that changed, and it changed because of Derek. It changed because she finally saw that he did love her, care about her, and think of her as attractive. She smiled to herself like a giddy child, a toothy grin stretching across her face. She hadn't felt so…alleviated in such a long time. It was as if a boulder was lifted off her soldiers.
She quickly moved herself closer to her sleeping husband, wishing to feel his warmth and relish the sense of relief and security that washed over her. She was still smiling, thinking about Derek's kindness when her movement suddenly caused Derek to shift more of his body over her. She was satisfied and about to close her eyes until she heard Derek whisper, softly "Meredith..."
Addison froze.
She couldn't believe what she just heard. Her body tensed and she felt as if something had literally struck her. There she was, lying next to the man she thought truly loved her, thinking that everything was going to be ok between them, when in reality her dear husband was somewhere else. He was dreaming of someone else while at the same time holding her. She suddenly felt used and disgusted as if she were nothing more than a much-needed morning juju. She began to pant and tears welled in her eyes. All of the troubles of the day seemed to fade away as she realized that what Derek had just done was worse than any of them. She slowly shifted her body out from underneath the man she loved. His skin against hers was suddenly cold.
'I guess I'm not the woman of his dreams,' she thought solemnly, fighting back tears.
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As she quickly dressed and packed away what little she had in Derek's trailer, Addison took out her laptop and began a word document. It was well passed four A.M. and a chill ran down Addison's back as she tentatively began to type.
Dear Dr. Webber,
I regret to inform you that upon completion of my next two assignments I intend to transfer back to Mt. Sinai in New York City. I have already thought about possible replacements and I...
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As she continued with her letter she tried to quell all thoughts of a break down. She was Dr. Addison Forbes Montgomery Shep- …, she shuddered at her last name, but knew she had to stay strong. She couldn't break down, she just couldn't.
When she finished the letter she finished her packing and made sure her jeans and cardigan sweater were warm enough for her to head out with. She lifted her bags and grabbed the small piece of paper with the hotel address she found online. As she walked to the exit of the cramped trailer she looked back towards Derek. 'He's not done hurting me…' she thought, a single tear slipping down her cheek.
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Kk, what do you think? I know this plot has been done before but I thought this was the perfect opportunity for it. Anywayz, please R/R and I PROMISE it gets better, really! Addek all the way! Lol. Oh, and I don't know what hospital Addison worked in back in NY, so I chose one I knew.