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Hey this is my first story so if I should continue or give it up is up to anyone that reads this. Enjoy if you can.
"blah" = talking
'blah' = thoughts
'blah' "blah" The light streamed in through the window by my bed, hitting me directly in the face. As I slowly began to wake up, I groaned and rolled over. " I don't even see any point in getting up, Kakashi is just going to be three hours late anyway." I sighed to myself as I got out of bed. 'Another day of "liking" Sakura and "hating" Sasuke. Maybe someday I could take this happy front down and be myself' I thought as I got ready. I climbed in to the shower after it was warm and started to wash myself. After I finished I brushed my teeth and got dressed in my orange and black jumpsuit. I was taking my time to do all of this because, really, Kakashi is going to be late, so there is no point in hurrying. I made my way to the kichen to make myself some ramen for breakfast. To be honest, I really don't like ramen. The villagers will sell me rotten food and won't let me in to their restraunts, and packaged ramen is the only thing that doesn't go bad and that can't be messed with, so I eat it. Old man Ichiraku is the only person that will willing let me eat in his restraunt so I really have no choice but to eat ramen.
While it was cooking, my mind started to wonder. I thought about how lonely it can be here in my apartment all by myself and how it would be nice if someone could love me. I love Sasuke, and i'm not afraid to admit it to myself like I use to be. I wish that he would return my feelings all the time but that is just faulse hope that I cling to. The whistle of the water brought me out of my depressing thoughts. As I sat down to eat, I vaguely wondered why Kyuubi wasn't nagging me about anything today. I dropped that thought quickly though.
After finishing my ramen, I set out to team seven's meeting place. As I approached the bridge, I saw Sasuke and Sakura kissing. I stopped as my heart shattered. I never liked Sakura, she was a cover for my true feelings for Sasuke.
After a second of watching this, I ran, with tears in my eyes, to where I don't know but I ran, from them and from my feelings. I have to get away from all of these feelings of pain and jealousy. As I ran, I thought I herd someone calling my name but I didn't care. I wanted to get away and I was going to. These feelings of rage, hate ,envy, and jealousy were eating at me while I ran as far as I could. This false hope that I so desperately clinged to is no more, there is only a wide gaping hole were my heart once was.
When I finally stopped running, I just collapsed on the ground. I was sobbing and screaming out all of my pain and rage to the forest around me, hoping to find some relief from my misery. As I layed there I thought things like 'Why me? Why always me? Can't I have any happiness?' I was being swallowed by my self pity and Kyuubi was trying to stop me from it. I don't care anymore, my only light has abandoned me, so whats the point in caring?
To be continued.......
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