Notice me.
I'm right here.
Standing in front of you. Today, just like any other day.
I'm nothing special or anything.
No different from the others.
Not really worthy you.
And still, I dream.
I see you every day, watch your movements. They are perfect. Every single time. You're perfect.
And I admire you.
There is so much I want to prove to you. To make you accept me. To make you acknowledge me.
You never will.
The only one you have ever responded to at all is that idiot. Because he was the only one who never saw you the way we do. As unreachable.
He hated you, insulted you, competed with you and tried to drag you down from the throne we have created for you. I'm not sure you ever wanted us to, but we have. Without meaning it, or even being aware of it, he helped you. Saved you. Even though I think he just wanted your place for himself. It's kind of funny, and so sad, how he longed for what isolated you.
Of course the two of you would hate each other. So different, and still so alike.
He broke violently into your world, and threw you back to reality. You don't seem to be so far away in your thoughts any more, he fills your days and keeps your attention.
He brought life to you. Mocking, annoying, whining, shouting, barging. But still, life.
And the sunshine. You used to avoid the sun, but he shines so brightly that some of it rubbed of on you. I can tell. No one watches you as closely as I do. I see it in your smirk, and your glaring eyes. You still glare, of course. But differently. Some of that light shows.
For what I think is the first time, you are actually enjoying yourself. Occasionally.
Your glare, that used to be just hateful, tends to have a shred of amusement.
I can't do that.
I can't help you, and I can't make you smile.
Even though I try every day. Every single day.
To get closer to you.
To get to know you.
To get you to open up, even just a little, to me.
And to prove my value.
Every time, missions, training, class, whatever it is. Every moment I see you.
Just to be acknowledged.
I desperately want you to notice me.
And you couldn't care less.